It is sad to see human treat another human with comtempt due to narrow mindedness. Yes! human is plain selfish at times....especially if their interest is at stack but if they can have an open view of the situation then they can understand things better.
At my workplace...sad to see aunties fighting each other due to no trolley. These things don't even belong to any of them yet they can fight over it. Even the leads are no angel...or to put correctly, play a part in the conflict too by taking sides. Since when has the company have enough trolleys for all??? I have been here
8 years and most days....can hear fights over them.
I am not feeling well....and later I must be going to Shanghai. Hope my stomach will calm down once I leave
this place. I am on annual leave tonight but I also turn up just to see, talk and urge the leads to put away their differences and work as a team. I will be most happy...but I must not lost hope on them to do the right thing.
Saturday, October 23, 2004
Friday, October 22, 2004
Guess...lost a couple of my posting.
Surprised! when I found that I actually lost a couple of my posting eg the one I posted last night but I have said before winsome losesome....so be it!
Why....so hard! not the end of life or time....there will be other time and other things to look forward in life. If things don't turn out to the expectation....then let it be so!
Man....one week and my thinking completely changed. Believed this week teaches me more than ten whole years lessons. Since I am those who don't hold too much grudges or too much bitterness, I believed that helps me a lot. Lessen the disappointment for both myself and my foolishness that certain things are best left aside.
Too good to be true so it is so untrue at the end....too. Cannot never be...,a foolish dream for a foolish dreamer. Hehehe...too louso already! have fun....soon.
Why....so hard! not the end of life or time....there will be other time and other things to look forward in life. If things don't turn out to the expectation....then let it be so!
Man....one week and my thinking completely changed. Believed this week teaches me more than ten whole years lessons. Since I am those who don't hold too much grudges or too much bitterness, I believed that helps me a lot. Lessen the disappointment for both myself and my foolishness that certain things are best left aside.
Too good to be true so it is so untrue at the end....too. Cannot never be...,a foolish dream for a foolish dreamer. Hehehe...too louso already! have fun....soon.
Food....here I come!
Yes....just another day and I can enjoy myself. Too bad my honey is not by my side if not then we can paint china red....hehehe. Well there will be other times....to look forward to. Life is forever changing and as long as there is a will there shall be a way out. Agree?
At work....so so and I will try to leave my girls and aunties with harmory if possible so that they can enjoy their work here without me around...and I believe if they can open up the heart and narrow mindedness they can do it. If not...then there will be my replacement TM and then they will be nagged till the pants drop. Find the people here just too petty for their own good.
I will still come in to start up the team tomorrow...even officially I am on annual leave. Hope to show my people unity and friendship....teamwork!
Big words!!! big task but I have to try......
Will missed my honey most....and family too but I have to do what I have to do. One chapter closed for another to open. Too hard on everyone for two chapters to be on at the same time...also not fair and too tiring.
At work....so so and I will try to leave my girls and aunties with harmory if possible so that they can enjoy their work here without me around...and I believe if they can open up the heart and narrow mindedness they can do it. If not...then there will be my replacement TM and then they will be nagged till the pants drop. Find the people here just too petty for their own good.
I will still come in to start up the team tomorrow...even officially I am on annual leave. Hope to show my people unity and friendship....teamwork!
Big words!!! big task but I have to try......
Will missed my honey most....and family too but I have to do what I have to do. One chapter closed for another to open. Too hard on everyone for two chapters to be on at the same time...also not fair and too tiring.
Wednesday, October 20, 2004
Moving on with my life again....
Man....am I busy today? Wake up and go shopping with Helena's birthday and she wants a BBQ with her classmates. Lunch and shopping...until 1:30pm then rush down to change money for the coming trip...shit! wasted another 45 mins then went to aia to submit the 2 cases. By the time everything is done...got home to see Sebrina and Ivan trying to start the BBQ fire. Man...
they cannot start anything to save their life....so shelter life. Don't even know how to tear open the bag of chacoal to put them in the BBQ pit. After finishing to start up the fire, rushed home to see wife struggling to cut up the fruits. Man! again completed the task of cutting up the melon and honeydew in 15 mins and lay the pieces on the tray and also done up the corn with butter.
Lucky for them that I went to check on them at the BBQ pit before I went to work....shithead!can't even managed the fire....almost fire almost die off and they are eating raw chicken and they also not sure about that....chicken seasoned until quite dark and also they were somehow a little blind too. Their taste also not good...don't know how raw chicken tasted like. Kids!!!
I got to get the fire up again in 15 mins and have to show them how to do a BBQ cook out properly.....hahaha or they will end-up sick tomorrow.
The kids are having fun....some cooking, some playing badminton, some running around and some eating....sing birthday's song also no battery.....so soft, too shy.
At 6:40pm....after seeing everything is in order, I go off to work....Well, 1st day after all hell broke lose.....not to bad, things seem peaceful. I go about my work but stay most of my time in my office and eat with Indra...boy! she was surprised....hehehe.
Look at my e-mails and replied some....and looking forward to tomorrow for dinner and biz. Hope everything...remains like this....so peaceful and no stress. After a hectic 3 weeks....man! I welcomed a peaceful world. Yes! man must accept their faith and not try to bite more than he can chew...easy for his health and family. No use....to pretend about time. Tide and time wait for no man.....how true!!!
By Sat's night, I will be on my way to more food...........hehehe not only more food but more great and nice food. Goumet tour....hehehe then come home with another 3 kgs. Well......at my age, who cares? As long as I can still get into my car....hehehe.
they cannot start anything to save their life....so shelter life. Don't even know how to tear open the bag of chacoal to put them in the BBQ pit. After finishing to start up the fire, rushed home to see wife struggling to cut up the fruits. Man! again completed the task of cutting up the melon and honeydew in 15 mins and lay the pieces on the tray and also done up the corn with butter.
Lucky for them that I went to check on them at the BBQ pit before I went to work....shithead!can't even managed the fire....almost fire almost die off and they are eating raw chicken and they also not sure about that....chicken seasoned until quite dark and also they were somehow a little blind too. Their taste also not good...don't know how raw chicken tasted like. Kids!!!
I got to get the fire up again in 15 mins and have to show them how to do a BBQ cook out properly.....hahaha or they will end-up sick tomorrow.
The kids are having fun....some cooking, some playing badminton, some running around and some eating....sing birthday's song also no battery.....so soft, too shy.
At 6:40pm....after seeing everything is in order, I go off to work....Well, 1st day after all hell broke lose.....not to bad, things seem peaceful. I go about my work but stay most of my time in my office and eat with Indra...boy! she was surprised....hehehe.
Look at my e-mails and replied some....and looking forward to tomorrow for dinner and biz. Hope everything...remains like this....so peaceful and no stress. After a hectic 3 weeks....man! I welcomed a peaceful world. Yes! man must accept their faith and not try to bite more than he can chew...easy for his health and family. No use....to pretend about time. Tide and time wait for no man.....how true!!!
By Sat's night, I will be on my way to more food...........hehehe not only more food but more great and nice food. Goumet tour....hehehe then come home with another 3 kgs. Well......at my age, who cares? As long as I can still get into my car....hehehe.
Monday, October 18, 2004
To error is human...stay in one's comfort zone!
Yes! easy to look back and see the problems and mistakes that we human can and do make. When in the heat of things, all of us can and do crazy and silly things. Then after
we blamed others for our decisions....guess the above is meaningful and right. To error is human!
Look carefully at it....it has a pattern to it. So it is all boiled down to our decisions or choices. Some right some wrong...in some the results are quick and fast, take betting as example....win! or lose! you will know when the game is over. Then there are some other choices that will results after awhile even the early results may be "good" which are pretty misleading then the situations can twist and turn...then finally the result turn "bad". example...fair weather, the sea, fellow human. To be fair, these things are beyond the control of man....we just cannot able to control weather for example, at most maybe we can try to predict the weather and even the weathermen are not right all the times.
We....do find faults of those who are not up to our standard easily but how many times do we look at ourselves to check on our own ways or choices we made. We are the perfect ones...I know I am not, that is why I am still doing what I am doing. Still at the same old place year in year out....no progress, maybe getting worst result then before but we didn't want or like changes....so! nothing really change at all. Same old me....hehehe with the same old habits, doing the same old things....must be too contented in the comfort zone.
What else to do in Singapore....go out to make noises, yeah that will cause more troubles later. Bang head...cause more headaches, so what? Frankly there is no answer....do what you think is right and be happy with the result....be it good or bad. At the end of it...it is your choice!
For me now....stay "low" or better still "no" profile. The storm will blow thru and the weather will turn to fair again....every cloud has a silver lining or a rainbow. I still look at things and friends in positive ways....good memory of good and happy times. I always treasured the feelings....better this way.. no hatred, no anger, no blame, no regret. Only
sweet memories....this reminds me of the stars, they can hit each other and create a big bang and some changed the world forever. The space is so huge and still can hit each other....isn't it the same as human relationship....all fated! What may be not...is the result and it is up to the individual's choice. Man! I am getting louso....hehehe. Guess as one gets older....one can only look back and think and try to recall the memoir of the days of our lives. Hope we have more fond ones in our memoir....this I am doing now, writing them down as my memoir.
we blamed others for our decisions....guess the above is meaningful and right. To error is human!
Look carefully at it....it has a pattern to it. So it is all boiled down to our decisions or choices. Some right some wrong...in some the results are quick and fast, take betting as example....win! or lose! you will know when the game is over. Then there are some other choices that will results after awhile even the early results may be "good" which are pretty misleading then the situations can twist and turn...then finally the result turn "bad". example...fair weather, the sea, fellow human. To be fair, these things are beyond the control of man....we just cannot able to control weather for example, at most maybe we can try to predict the weather and even the weathermen are not right all the times.
We....do find faults of those who are not up to our standard easily but how many times do we look at ourselves to check on our own ways or choices we made. We are the perfect ones...I know I am not, that is why I am still doing what I am doing. Still at the same old place year in year out....no progress, maybe getting worst result then before but we didn't want or like changes....so! nothing really change at all. Same old me....hehehe with the same old habits, doing the same old things....must be too contented in the comfort zone.
What else to do in Singapore....go out to make noises, yeah that will cause more troubles later. Bang head...cause more headaches, so what? Frankly there is no answer....do what you think is right and be happy with the result....be it good or bad. At the end of it...it is your choice!
For me now....stay "low" or better still "no" profile. The storm will blow thru and the weather will turn to fair again....every cloud has a silver lining or a rainbow. I still look at things and friends in positive ways....good memory of good and happy times. I always treasured the feelings....better this way.. no hatred, no anger, no blame, no regret. Only
sweet memories....this reminds me of the stars, they can hit each other and create a big bang and some changed the world forever. The space is so huge and still can hit each other....isn't it the same as human relationship....all fated! What may be not...is the result and it is up to the individual's choice. Man! I am getting louso....hehehe. Guess as one gets older....one can only look back and think and try to recall the memoir of the days of our lives. Hope we have more fond ones in our memoir....this I am doing now, writing them down as my memoir.
Guess...what? everything happen for a reason.
Agree? hehehe....yes! so move on with life. almost pointless to explain when word does not mean a thing. everything happen for a reason be it good or bad, and time will tell.
yes! i have been bad but some of the good things which people said about me....don't and can't saved me. hehehe so much for what people said. they too must be having their own issue when they don't mean what they said....yet only me is devil. guess there are lots of double standards everywhere we go in this world. even when they know they lost nothing....yet there is so much hatred. if only they willing recalled what they said recently just a day or two ago...they will laugh with me too at human weakest and their rumbling.
even after what i said about myself and how much i suffered as the result...guess this is never good enough for some...still need their pound of meat. hehehe
i believe in what goes round comes round....today it is me! tomorrow it could be someone else? so forgive...and forget, life can then be simple. i have taken the first step and i don't even say anything hurtful about anyone but to myself, and when i blamed it is also a general remark aim at no one in particular...so it is not bad and the rest of the way will be easier from now on. the world can do with less bitterness and more kindness. even an old monkey is still has a right to live it own way of life...good or bad, he will answer for his doing when the time comes.
i was remind to be positive in my outlook....yes! from now on, i choose positive thinking! then things are truly simple....just black or white, right or wrong, true or false, happy or sad, love or hate. man! that last one reminds me of recent memory....sigh!
a boy looks up at the sky and a bird shits into his eye,
he does not cry but said thanks to the god that elephant does not fly.
eg...of positive thinking!
yes! i have been bad but some of the good things which people said about me....don't and can't saved me. hehehe so much for what people said. they too must be having their own issue when they don't mean what they said....yet only me is devil. guess there are lots of double standards everywhere we go in this world. even when they know they lost nothing....yet there is so much hatred. if only they willing recalled what they said recently just a day or two ago...they will laugh with me too at human weakest and their rumbling.
even after what i said about myself and how much i suffered as the result...guess this is never good enough for some...still need their pound of meat. hehehe
i believe in what goes round comes round....today it is me! tomorrow it could be someone else? so forgive...and forget, life can then be simple. i have taken the first step and i don't even say anything hurtful about anyone but to myself, and when i blamed it is also a general remark aim at no one in particular...so it is not bad and the rest of the way will be easier from now on. the world can do with less bitterness and more kindness. even an old monkey is still has a right to live it own way of life...good or bad, he will answer for his doing when the time comes.
i was remind to be positive in my outlook....yes! from now on, i choose positive thinking! then things are truly simple....just black or white, right or wrong, true or false, happy or sad, love or hate. man! that last one reminds me of recent memory....sigh!
a boy looks up at the sky and a bird shits into his eye,
he does not cry but said thanks to the god that elephant does not fly.
eg...of positive thinking!
Have wake-up from my bad dream..now!
I remember a couple of weeks back....that I was on my dreamland. So happy and having the best time in the world....but I did said that only time can tell whether is this so...good or bad result for myself. Well....I have wake up to reality again and I did have a great time I have to be realistic too...esp at myself and things. Result - a sad and bad one. Too serious too soon....and didn't realised the power of jealousy.
Life is simple but how many people in this world of ours truly can claimed that they do indeed live a simple life every day. Or is it only simple when one choose to see it as simple. Mine....is complicated one and even when I choose it to be simple there are other people ( jealous people both old and young ) always trying to make sure to complicate it for me...so I will not have it any other ways. Bring it on....one way or the other I will survive thru it.
Time to eat dinner...will see football later on the TV....move on again but it is not the same anymore. Shall have bitterness about human's behaviour esp at the jealousy thing. Yes! I still is at fault from the first place....maybe things turn out well after all before it gets deeper and more complicated...worst!
I have trust in god...
Life is simple but how many people in this world of ours truly can claimed that they do indeed live a simple life every day. Or is it only simple when one choose to see it as simple. Mine....is complicated one and even when I choose it to be simple there are other people ( jealous people both old and young ) always trying to make sure to complicate it for me...so I will not have it any other ways. Bring it on....one way or the other I will survive thru it.
Time to eat dinner...will see football later on the TV....move on again but it is not the same anymore. Shall have bitterness about human's behaviour esp at the jealousy thing. Yes! I still is at fault from the first place....maybe things turn out well after all before it gets deeper and more complicated...worst!
I have trust in god...
Sunday, October 17, 2004
Man....Thought I am lost it! My mind...fool.
Oh...now noticed the date in this blog is American time. I remember I blog today is Monday but it shows up as Sunday.
Shit....thought I discover I can turn back time. If I can I will live my life differently like dumped all my money on 4D in the 1st prize only. 2102 or even the 3rd prize 2444....Fuck me! This number look and remind me of my joke I played on myself by myself. If this is still Sunday....hehehe dream on.
Share my joke....I am a joker and most of my jokes are on myself....fucking jack-ass joker!
Hope you don't see that.....hehehe.
Shit....thought I discover I can turn back time. If I can I will live my life differently like dumped all my money on 4D in the 1st prize only. 2102 or even the 3rd prize 2444....Fuck me! This number look and remind me of my joke I played on myself by myself. If this is still Sunday....hehehe dream on.
Share my joke....I am a joker and most of my jokes are on myself....fucking jack-ass joker!
Hope you don't see that.....hehehe.
I will survive...I know I will.
Just like in the song "I will Survive"...I know I will from this "trying times" for me. So funny when I look back to the past few days. At the last few entries to my blog...I said I have a dream. Man! Especially true near to the end of it....when I talk about age, as being a barrier in the mind of people. How true? And people choose to see it differently. This will not end....till the end of time itself.
Let the non sinner between us throw the first stone at me for what I have sinned....if there is one who can and will. Or talk no more and forever hold their peace. I am still down and nearly out now.
Let the non sinner between us throw the first stone at me for what I have sinned....if there is one who can and will. Or talk no more and forever hold their peace. I am still down and nearly out now.
Lost it today..............shit head!
Start well...but somehow lost everything. Guess that is life, just no idea when we can lose that we have in a flash. Only thing that is good....is that I had a full stomach when it happened. Sad....hate myself....wanted to cry but not on the outside but the inside ( man's pride ).
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