Thursday already....shit!

Wow...so fast, now already 4 days off and going back to work tonight. Looking back to the 4 days guess I have understand and also learn more in life. Learn from watching movies, VCD and real life experiences.
Life and love are both simple and complex...you can choose which path to take and it does not end there becoz it is a long long road. The only time this ends....will be when one dies.
Take me as an example....now I also find out more of myself and thinking. Always think I'm crazy and selfish when it comes to love and girlfriend until I watched the movie "closer". I am more like the loser in the movie....and by taking a hard line as with the loser, yah! he turned out losing everything and everyone. Then after seeing the VCD on "Everyone has secret", I can appreciated the situation better. So after these two movies and after some hard and deep thinking into the stories....I guess I will change my thinking to suit to the changing time or I'm the biggest loser or sucker at the end of the road. I will respect the idea that everyone has secrets and some secrets are better left "secret" becoz it is not present to know and can be very bitter to one's ego and pride. Who am I to judge when I am not clean myself...so why not respect the idea that if everyone has their right to their privacy.
On the whole...I think the ideas from "Everyone has secret" are better suited to today's world or asian's way of life as compared to "Closer". Ang mo's way is "win all or lose all", a big risk to take and is like pushing everything to the max. I had taken that path before....end up "bitter" at some of my exs ( burnt the "sex" bridge ) and also nothing good has came out of it for me, and after investing time and money to start in the first place. But some ideas will still take me a longer time to accept....like screwing everyone. I need some feelings even just to take a interest to talk to a girl, let alone to screw everyone who cross my path. If I do that, I will be damn "busy" everyday of the week. Will only apply this new concept on my present "honey" and not my past or ex.

Wednesday...a slow day w/o my honey.

Yah...kind of slow down today, good and bad. Good can do my insurance works...already piled up but bad is no pau2 with my honey. Will go down to aia later to do some payments and road tax too. Wow...nearly forget about the whole thing.
Still....missed my honey!!!
Guess I am addicted to her.

Happy and fruitful days

Not bad...spent the past few days with honey and had quality time with her. In my mind I am very clear about what I want and what I don't want. And she is what I really want to be with...
Matured, naughty and with a firm butt. Man! it was heaven. HAPPY......and
thank you to my honey pie :) :) :)

Yah...seem so distant is a right word to use.

It is hurting not being able to help...make me feel as hopeless. Then again...knowing my honey, I believe this is her way of saying that she needs her private space to mellow in her present state of mind and until she is ready...then she is ready. Meantime....the sound of silence and keeping her distance.
Sighed....yes! I understand and will try to keep myself busy with other things and distractions. I kept looking at my hp for a sign...any sign or sms but nothing. From everybody except my honey.

Feeling sad...when her silence is so deafening.

Yes! I understand when my honey said that man after getting what they want from a woman, they will keep low profile or worst stop want to see the girl again. Now...with the silent from my honey, I too feel blur...and sad. Why is...well, guess my honey is too stressed out by work and play until she felt like a zombie. Man! it does affect me too in a way...the silent is deafening especially no sms or no reply to my sms. Great way...to torture your love one. Caused me to wonder what went wrong...my fault? If it is...what is it that I did wrong?
This is so till that in one hand I know that she is having trouble with the work and work-related problems but on the other...I kept asking myself could myself be the causing her to get angry with me. Then again...I want to know the answer but knowing my honey, I just bear with her
silence. Loving someone can be a hurting affair at times if one is just thinking and not sharing both happiness or sorrow. I don't mind to carry and share her problems to enlighten her loads.
Yes! I may not be a great help but I believe I will listen and let my shoulder for her to lean on if need to. Hope she snaps out of this....fast so that we can be back as normal again.