Now wondering if I deserve another chance....guess I don't think so myself becoz I kept repeating the same old mistakes lei. How to justify for it then?
Luckily I have not sold off my present flat...if I did and if lost everything then...there can be no more chance to myself and my family to have a better quality of life. Can spend money without the need to think about whether I can or not able to pay for it. Whether is it worth the money? and so on.
So....until the end of this year, I may have this last chance to sell the house and to pay off all my debts and then in another 3 years' time I can collect my mininum sum in my CPF.
Another way out for myself now is maybe for me to "kena 4D or toto" hence this blog's name "wintoto". But quite frankly...it is just more of day-dreaming on my part hahaha. Still it is not an impossible dream too if God really want to help me.
What do you think? Should I be given another chance? Your chance to play "god or goddess".
Friday, January 25, 2008
How to pay for the lost?
It kinda wiped off all the money my old man left for me plus all my 4D winning and still not enough to pay off all the lost incurred for just this month alone.
Looking back, the prediction given by the Waterloo temple when I went there to pray pray on the 1st of this lunar month was super "spot-on". So sad....I didn't heed the advice at all and now I am paying thru my nose for the mistake. At least....the Goddess didn't really punished me too badly for not heeding her advice but still left me with just enough to wake-up my fucking idea and to clean me out.
Now... "lan lan", but still gotto face the future and my family. Somehow....I felt so disappointed with myself for the whole issue.
Just kinda reminded me of my past....same type of mistake which caused my downfall. Guess I cannot ever judge others when I myself are unable to learn from my earlier mistakes. Not just one mistake but countless ones....and all the same kind. Being too cocky and confidence that I can beat the stock market. I may have to pay with my life soon if I continue doing this.
I am one of those "ATM type" of person....money comes in from one pocket but then it goes out thru the other almost immediately. The money does not have any chance to turn "warm" and stay in the pocket for long. This latest melt-down for the stock market worldwide was so fast and brutal.....2 fucking days and I am out of my wits and mind. Just "flat" chicken shit.
How I wish I could turn back the clock....but I also know that is impossible. It is much easier if I can turn over into a new leaf and set my mind not trying to make money in the stock market. Oh a correction.....not losing more money in the stock market, that sound about right.
I will then can have a better disopposition for myself and my spirit then at present....very downcast, suicidal and full of guilt. Also caused me to wish I was dead asap. I could have given my family a much needed holiday but....no! I end-up coughing out all the money just to pay off my brokers. Just more stress and tension when they chased me for the money. So so stupid of me.
Fated? I don't think so...more of greed and over-confidence in my own disability to think clearly and not able even to heed advice when I ask for one. So....why the hell do I go ask advice in the first place. Now....I know it is my retrubition.
Guess....the next punishment would be that my honey won't be going to pau-pau me any time soon becoz there is not much money left in my pocket. No money no honey? I won't blame her if she does that and now I am more or less prepared to face all this "hell" that I should face. No sex....no love....no honey....no money....nothing left except my own bloody stupid self.
I remember I faced the same "hell" in 1999 when I lost a huge sum of money too and had to sell off my car to pay off my debts then I lost all my PRC gfs and also have to move about without any car. hahaha...yes! I even had to hike on my company's bus to work and I remember I had to sit near the engine....no seat left on the bus or those O-mother-fuckers pretended to be asleep then to share their seat with me. For more than 30 months I had to face the same shit.
Frankly....my wife had no idea how "deep shit" I am now in at present if not then....I may even lost her and the children's respect too. If that happen....then it is a signal that my life is not worth living.
One good point I have left is that I am "worth more" dead than being alive ( my insurance policies should be more than enough to give my family a good standard of living in the future with nothing to worry about for a long long time - still more than a million plus free "flat" and freedom from me )
Looking back, the prediction given by the Waterloo temple when I went there to pray pray on the 1st of this lunar month was super "spot-on". So sad....I didn't heed the advice at all and now I am paying thru my nose for the mistake. At least....the Goddess didn't really punished me too badly for not heeding her advice but still left me with just enough to wake-up my fucking idea and to clean me out.
Now... "lan lan", but still gotto face the future and my family. Somehow....I felt so disappointed with myself for the whole issue.
Just kinda reminded me of my past....same type of mistake which caused my downfall. Guess I cannot ever judge others when I myself are unable to learn from my earlier mistakes. Not just one mistake but countless ones....and all the same kind. Being too cocky and confidence that I can beat the stock market. I may have to pay with my life soon if I continue doing this.
I am one of those "ATM type" of person....money comes in from one pocket but then it goes out thru the other almost immediately. The money does not have any chance to turn "warm" and stay in the pocket for long. This latest melt-down for the stock market worldwide was so fast and brutal.....2 fucking days and I am out of my wits and mind. Just "flat" chicken shit.
How I wish I could turn back the clock....but I also know that is impossible. It is much easier if I can turn over into a new leaf and set my mind not trying to make money in the stock market. Oh a correction.....not losing more money in the stock market, that sound about right.
I will then can have a better disopposition for myself and my spirit then at present....very downcast, suicidal and full of guilt. Also caused me to wish I was dead asap. I could have given my family a much needed holiday but....no! I end-up coughing out all the money just to pay off my brokers. Just more stress and tension when they chased me for the money. So so stupid of me.
Fated? I don't think so...more of greed and over-confidence in my own disability to think clearly and not able even to heed advice when I ask for one. So....why the hell do I go ask advice in the first place. Now....I know it is my retrubition.
Guess....the next punishment would be that my honey won't be going to pau-pau me any time soon becoz there is not much money left in my pocket. No money no honey? I won't blame her if she does that and now I am more or less prepared to face all this "hell" that I should face. No sex....no love....no honey....no money....nothing left except my own bloody stupid self.
I remember I faced the same "hell" in 1999 when I lost a huge sum of money too and had to sell off my car to pay off my debts then I lost all my PRC gfs and also have to move about without any car. hahaha...yes! I even had to hike on my company's bus to work and I remember I had to sit near the engine....no seat left on the bus or those O-mother-fuckers pretended to be asleep then to share their seat with me. For more than 30 months I had to face the same shit.
Frankly....my wife had no idea how "deep shit" I am now in at present if not then....I may even lost her and the children's respect too. If that happen....then it is a signal that my life is not worth living.
One good point I have left is that I am "worth more" dead than being alive ( my insurance policies should be more than enough to give my family a good standard of living in the future with nothing to worry about for a long long time - still more than a million plus free "flat" and freedom from me )
Thursday, January 24, 2008
Stock market up-date on Thursday
Guessed after the blood letting is final more or less settled....I am counting and licking my wounds. Fxxked ....out of pocket another 20K and together with my earlier lost, I managed to lose about 30K. I can't even make that amount in 6 months but it took me 24 days to lose that amount. The thing is this....even with this amount, I must say that I am quite lucky becoz Sino-Environment managed to open with me justing losing 1.2K. I expected to stand-by to lose 10K for this counter alone. So...thank God!
Now....it is better for me to rethink my option, to continue play and losing in the stock market or just wise-up and dumped the whole lot of the balance shares I am still keeping and call it a day.
Have already lost more than a million for playing it.
Life.....maybe this is not my cup of soup even after losing and spending so much energy and time to understand the market but still it always goes against my prediction. With the recession coming up in the US....which in turn will impact all the markets in the world, I may final throw in my hat and be smart....and give up this expensive hobby.
Would have enjoy myself and for my family to go on a long holiday but instead of that....end-up coughing the money to pay off my lost. Just so stupid....but I am not alone, most of the common punters and players also end-up with a big hole in their pockets too. Even the expert....at SocGen, now he is called a fraud just becoz he lost nearly 4 billions british pounds with his wrong bet on the market movement. When he makes money for the bank....he was an expert in what he is doing...but when market go into a melt-down? He is a devil.
So....what will be my final call? For that, it will depends on I can control myself and put myself doing other things. A change in direction for myself.....so honey! you want to help me out on it?
Now....it is better for me to rethink my option, to continue play and losing in the stock market or just wise-up and dumped the whole lot of the balance shares I am still keeping and call it a day.
Have already lost more than a million for playing it.
Life.....maybe this is not my cup of soup even after losing and spending so much energy and time to understand the market but still it always goes against my prediction. With the recession coming up in the US....which in turn will impact all the markets in the world, I may final throw in my hat and be smart....and give up this expensive hobby.
Would have enjoy myself and for my family to go on a long holiday but instead of that....end-up coughing the money to pay off my lost. Just so stupid....but I am not alone, most of the common punters and players also end-up with a big hole in their pockets too. Even the expert....at SocGen, now he is called a fraud just becoz he lost nearly 4 billions british pounds with his wrong bet on the market movement. When he makes money for the bank....he was an expert in what he is doing...but when market go into a melt-down? He is a devil.
So....what will be my final call? For that, it will depends on I can control myself and put myself doing other things. A change in direction for myself.....so honey! you want to help me out on it?
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Stock market - meltdown ( double fxxked now )
Well....see for yourself in every news on radio/TV/Internet or newspapers that market all-over the world "melt-down".
As usually....I am in the market and suffering a double fxxked for it. In fact...I went in this morning esp when shares are already sold down yesterday as much as 30%. Eg STX PO - yesterday morning it was trading from 2.56 to 2.69 so when it dropped to 2.45 I went it....2.47. This morning...the fxxking shit open at 2.32 and it slowly went up to 2.37 but for a while or two. By noon.....it went down to 2.17, I went to do my "pray2". Then went as low as 2.09 before closing at 2.27.
Double fxxked??? It was becoz I sold off other stock to stand-by the money to pick this...and the counter went
up instead. I sold Celestia at 60C...and it closed 62C and I bought this stock at 1.06 the last time.
Tonight...US will open with a melt-down also, the only hope is that Fed chairman will come out to say something becoz Bush keeps hiding among the bushes all these times. What we need is the former chairman....
Allan Greenspan becoz what he said, no body know or understand so anyone just wake-up and realised that
the market cannot really goes up/down too suddenly.
Chinese New Year rally?????.....balls dropped off already.
As usually....I am in the market and suffering a double fxxked for it. In fact...I went in this morning esp when shares are already sold down yesterday as much as 30%. Eg STX PO - yesterday morning it was trading from 2.56 to 2.69 so when it dropped to 2.45 I went it....2.47. This morning...the fxxking shit open at 2.32 and it slowly went up to 2.37 but for a while or two. By noon.....it went down to 2.17, I went to do my "pray2". Then went as low as 2.09 before closing at 2.27.
Double fxxked??? It was becoz I sold off other stock to stand-by the money to pick this...and the counter went
up instead. I sold Celestia at 60C...and it closed 62C and I bought this stock at 1.06 the last time.
Tonight...US will open with a melt-down also, the only hope is that Fed chairman will come out to say something becoz Bush keeps hiding among the bushes all these times. What we need is the former chairman....
Allan Greenspan becoz what he said, no body know or understand so anyone just wake-up and realised that
the market cannot really goes up/down too suddenly.
Chinese New Year rally?????.....balls dropped off already.
Saturday, January 19, 2008
The maid issue
Well....that is life! I don't think it is fun to be a maid in the first place....to give up your own lifestyle and to serve strangers. At most times.... gotto see the bosses' mood and faces. So
frankly if my maid really took the 3K.....then it is good for her.
I won't really make this a huge issue. My intention of getting a maid is to help look after my old man and frankly he was no saint....so cranky most of the time. And for a woman to look after a
strange old cranky man....is no bed of roses too.
Let's take it as a huge bonus for being picked to do the "dirty job" and since my old man has died
I'll just let it be and move on myself.
Money can be make.....so, no problem to me to "let her have a way out of this cycle of life on a maid". Only hope she does not make this a "habit". Heaven is my witness!!!
frankly if my maid really took the 3K.....then it is good for her.
I won't really make this a huge issue. My intention of getting a maid is to help look after my old man and frankly he was no saint....so cranky most of the time. And for a woman to look after a
strange old cranky man....is no bed of roses too.
Let's take it as a huge bonus for being picked to do the "dirty job" and since my old man has died
I'll just let it be and move on myself.
Money can be make.....so, no problem to me to "let her have a way out of this cycle of life on a maid". Only hope she does not make this a "habit". Heaven is my witness!!!
Stock market
Since my last up-date for the above, the market has dropped another 300 points and my paper-lost has increased to almost half or 45%. Fxxk!!
Well....not only me is suffering from this, in fact most people who buy "long" are hitted with huge losts but the "shorts" made big money from this situation. That is the way......the world moves!
"Win some, lose some".....a zero sum game! And depending on which side you are on....may win or may lose also.
For 4D and ToTo....the chance is likely to lose more than to win. For stock market, you got a choice or can also stand aside and watch the game that don't cost you a cent to do.
Well....not only me is suffering from this, in fact most people who buy "long" are hitted with huge losts but the "shorts" made big money from this situation. That is the way......the world moves!
"Win some, lose some".....a zero sum game! And depending on which side you are on....may win or may lose also.
For 4D and ToTo....the chance is likely to lose more than to win. For stock market, you got a choice or can also stand aside and watch the game that don't cost you a cent to do.
4D - up-date
Hahaha...kena $150 today and again I-bet 5194 but my cost is nearly $300, POWER!!!
Never mind, still can say that I got "kena" mah.
For tomorrow....Sunday 20/1, I got a feeling my car number 5928 will come in and hopefully straight-on and at the top prizes too hahaha. So....don't say I don't give good tip.
Disclaimer - 4D is a game of chance, for the punter.....it is 0.23% or 23/10000 chance of ever get a prize ( 3 top prizes plus 10 each for starters and consulations ). For TOTO....that is even worst odds then 4D hahaha. So....buy at your own risk!
Never mind, still can say that I got "kena" mah.
For tomorrow....Sunday 20/1, I got a feeling my car number 5928 will come in and hopefully straight-on and at the top prizes too hahaha. So....don't say I don't give good tip.
Disclaimer - 4D is a game of chance, for the punter.....it is 0.23% or 23/10000 chance of ever get a prize ( 3 top prizes plus 10 each for starters and consulations ). For TOTO....that is even worst odds then 4D hahaha. So....buy at your own risk!
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