Man.....at long last, managed to get thru these 3 "crazy hell" nights at work. It's just crazy with much lesser headcount than the day team but kena compared with them.
Btw their daily headcount was at least more than 15 to 25 more girls/guys. Even an idiot will know it is so unfair to do such a comparison esp with such big different.
So...of course it is such a relief when I come to the end of my team and am looking forward to my 3 rest days.
Not long ago...I was always looking forward to see my girls and to work but lately I am starting to sweat whenever I think of work. Frankly it is the people.....not the worry about more work and having to work harder. I never have this fear of working harder than others....in fact, I do enjoy my work and doing a good job too. I personally think....back-stabbing is just getting out of hand at my workplace. In fact, it is never good for the company if there are this culture of back-stabbing involved. So sad....since we are already been told that by end of next year the company will shut down to shift to China. From the look of things....most of us will be out of job by next June or latest Aug, so that there are still time to shift or sell off the remaining equipments and machines.
Saturday, October 24, 2009
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Share market vs forex
Lately...most shares are down. My friend who went for a share market class managed to make about 13K on Aug and Sept...but this month he lost about 8K back. This really show that even the best traders will loose money in a down market no matter how clever you are becoz if always in the market....and when market turns, somehow will be caught "naked" one way or the other esp for full-time traders. For part-time traders....the risk is more greater becoz it needs constant monitoring all the time.
And there is no program to stop-lost and take profit if market changes. Ask the remiser to monitor then....kena scolding becoz we are so small that they won't be bother or too busy to care. But to us.....even loose $500 also heart pain esp at time like now.
Even for forex market thingy....in the end after the whole course, I may not trade if I still not sure how best to make money. For now....not a time even to loose a hundred dollar.
And there is no program to stop-lost and take profit if market changes. Ask the remiser to monitor then....kena scolding becoz we are so small that they won't be bother or too busy to care. But to us.....even loose $500 also heart pain esp at time like now.
Even for forex market thingy....in the end after the whole course, I may not trade if I still not sure how best to make money. For now....not a time even to loose a hundred dollar.
Forex class
Frankly....didn't really learned much after attending 3 sessions, still don't really understand the whole issue about forex trading becoz for the 1st time on this Monday they want us to do "live trading". Meaning actual trading with real money....but small amount only. I have already put in US$2K as my margin. Till now...already lost less than US$2 in one of the trades. US$ vs AUD....my EURO vs Pound trade is still not fulfilled.
Just don't want to be too exposed at the moment since I catch no balls during the classes. And I am not alone with that....another guy who also paid the 3.3K fee also is unhappy with the whole thing so far. I have voiced my concern to the trainer...but
he advised me to be patient with the whole thing as he will touch on my concern this coming session on Monday. Well...let's wait and see.
One thing I realised is that in forex trading....there are greater flexibility during a trade as compared to share market. In share market...when it is a down market....almost every share is down or just stay flat and there is nothing anyone can do a thing about it. Even the best...tends to lose in such a market. While for forex....can always trade with currencies pairs if not happy with the usual ones. And there are at least 50 over major pairs and at different time horizons or just sit out a trade. Another thing is....can just key-in a trade with stop-lost and take profit in place. In that way...no need to sit the whole day looking at the pc which in share trading cannot afford if trade with big sum of money becoz of the commission involved....too expensive while for forex the different is pretty small and is built into the price as a "spread".
Just don't want to be too exposed at the moment since I catch no balls during the classes. And I am not alone with that....another guy who also paid the 3.3K fee also is unhappy with the whole thing so far. I have voiced my concern to the trainer...but
he advised me to be patient with the whole thing as he will touch on my concern this coming session on Monday. Well...let's wait and see.
One thing I realised is that in forex trading....there are greater flexibility during a trade as compared to share market. In share market...when it is a down market....almost every share is down or just stay flat and there is nothing anyone can do a thing about it. Even the best...tends to lose in such a market. While for forex....can always trade with currencies pairs if not happy with the usual ones. And there are at least 50 over major pairs and at different time horizons or just sit out a trade. Another thing is....can just key-in a trade with stop-lost and take profit in place. In that way...no need to sit the whole day looking at the pc which in share trading cannot afford if trade with big sum of money becoz of the commission involved....too expensive while for forex the different is pretty small and is built into the price as a "spread".
Thursday up-date
LIFE....time ( my 4 rest days ) moved so fast when everything is smooth. Hardly give one a chance to have a breath so to speak. This week is such a week for me....smooth in the sense that there is nothing bad or good happened, but all end so fast like in a "blink". If need to put to words, then don't know where to begin nor end.
Anyway....it's gone and now back to work.
Okay...back to Sunday 1st day for the 9th mth in lunar calendar, I went to the usual temples to pray. Also asked for a chiam-see at Waterloo Temple. POWER...got no 85 which stated that "For a elderly man seeking fame and fortune...has to wait patiently for a benefactor to point the way to one last big fortune waiting to be claimed"...same same like the flowers blossoming in spring. MAN! it hits me at the right spot hehehe.
Really made me feel old....and desperate, seeking my last fortune or die seeking it.
But in the last part of the chiam-see...it also stated that I will be able to get it in the end if I am patience enough while looking for it....in fact, I must seek out the benefactor who then point me in the right way to it.
To me...maybe it is the forex trading that will help me in the end to seek my fortune of retiring young or at least...not really needing to push so hard after my job at my present workplace ends. That would give me time to enjoy the lifestyle of living in a condo to continue.
Yes....living in a condo is totally more superior than say....living in a brand new HDB flat. Even living in my present condo....yes, it is already more than 10 yrs old but the quality of life it gave me....is beyond anything I experienced before. Now, I swim often....same goes to having a workout at the gym or going to the sauna afterwards. At no time...did I have such luxury which I only experienced when on holiday. Yes....like I told my family, now...I don't have to go on holiday to enjoy all these stuffs. For even food...I can enjoy nice food ( the old type ) at cheap affordable price around the Bt Timah area.
Yes...the quality of life for me now is such that I didn't notice how fast time passes me by. Only hope this will continue forever....even that I don't have to go on oversea holiday in future. I would be glad just to sit around on the chair at the pool side or just go on my fish feeding round.
My present routine...is to cut the bread into small bits to feed the fishes after I wake up. Then...mix in some fish feeds which I bought from the pet shop ( more expensive than the rice we eat hehehe ) then pack my stuffs ( drink bottle, sport shoes etc into my bag ) and head to the ponds. After feeding the fishes...go to the gym then "on" the sauna before going for a swim. After 30 mins or more....heads to the sauna for a 15 mins session. After that...have a solid bath at the club-house.
Then....have a nice relax time sitting around the pool to cool off before heading back up the house. Usually spend about 2 to 3 hrs for the whole session but if I am working then...I would skipped the gym and sauna part and just swim for about 20 to 30 mins non-stop. Maybe stopping to catch my breath hehehe...or when a beautiful girl walks pass hahaha. For the last part....just kidding becoz I am almost "blind" without my spec on. How to swim with spec??? But I do noticed...some do that! Head never inside water....hahaha. I swim properly...meaning my head goes under the water in a proper stroke, no short cut!
Anyway....it's gone and now back to work.
Okay...back to Sunday 1st day for the 9th mth in lunar calendar, I went to the usual temples to pray. Also asked for a chiam-see at Waterloo Temple. POWER...got no 85 which stated that "For a elderly man seeking fame and fortune...has to wait patiently for a benefactor to point the way to one last big fortune waiting to be claimed"...same same like the flowers blossoming in spring. MAN! it hits me at the right spot hehehe.
Really made me feel old....and desperate, seeking my last fortune or die seeking it.
But in the last part of the chiam-see...it also stated that I will be able to get it in the end if I am patience enough while looking for it....in fact, I must seek out the benefactor who then point me in the right way to it.
To me...maybe it is the forex trading that will help me in the end to seek my fortune of retiring young or at least...not really needing to push so hard after my job at my present workplace ends. That would give me time to enjoy the lifestyle of living in a condo to continue.
Yes....living in a condo is totally more superior than say....living in a brand new HDB flat. Even living in my present condo....yes, it is already more than 10 yrs old but the quality of life it gave me....is beyond anything I experienced before. Now, I swim often....same goes to having a workout at the gym or going to the sauna afterwards. At no time...did I have such luxury which I only experienced when on holiday. Yes....like I told my family, now...I don't have to go on holiday to enjoy all these stuffs. For even food...I can enjoy nice food ( the old type ) at cheap affordable price around the Bt Timah area.
Yes...the quality of life for me now is such that I didn't notice how fast time passes me by. Only hope this will continue forever....even that I don't have to go on oversea holiday in future. I would be glad just to sit around on the chair at the pool side or just go on my fish feeding round.
My present routine...is to cut the bread into small bits to feed the fishes after I wake up. Then...mix in some fish feeds which I bought from the pet shop ( more expensive than the rice we eat hehehe ) then pack my stuffs ( drink bottle, sport shoes etc into my bag ) and head to the ponds. After feeding the fishes...go to the gym then "on" the sauna before going for a swim. After 30 mins or more....heads to the sauna for a 15 mins session. After that...have a solid bath at the club-house.
Then....have a nice relax time sitting around the pool to cool off before heading back up the house. Usually spend about 2 to 3 hrs for the whole session but if I am working then...I would skipped the gym and sauna part and just swim for about 20 to 30 mins non-stop. Maybe stopping to catch my breath hehehe...or when a beautiful girl walks pass hahaha. For the last part....just kidding becoz I am almost "blind" without my spec on. How to swim with spec??? But I do noticed...some do that! Head never inside water....hahaha. I swim properly...meaning my head goes under the water in a proper stroke, no short cut!
Tuesday, October 06, 2009
Friday - Just a nightmare
Really was the most shitty night for me for a long long while on last Friday. Total nightmare at work....just cannot understand how things can get so screw-up. A perfect storm.
Felt like end of the world by the time 23:59hrs, totally screwed! No body would and could believed what went wrong. Things started going down hill at 10pm...and till midnight. Even the pc "hanged" and that was in the last leg for the qtr-end closing!
In the end....called boss to tell her the issues but then again...like I said before who really cares to listen to screw-up which happened once in a blue moon. In my line of work....no one really want to think or understand when things "failed". Best not to know so as not to be answerable for it.
I was just "blur" and felt so so bad....had to reflect what it might have been and so on. Still....till now, I am fearful to come back to work due to the bad experience on last Friday. The only thing that came into my mind now about the whole experience is it was a perfect storm for me. Things just failed one after another...
some were man-made ( miscommunication and false expectation ) and others were just out of the blue. Just cannot explained it any other way except a perfect storm.
Just like what happened in Samao/Indon/Phils last week. Tsunami...who the fcuk want to be hitted by a tsunami??? Just pure "HELL" as one who lived thru it....descripted the whole thing!
Felt like end of the world by the time 23:59hrs, totally screwed! No body would and could believed what went wrong. Things started going down hill at 10pm...and till midnight. Even the pc "hanged" and that was in the last leg for the qtr-end closing!
In the end....called boss to tell her the issues but then again...like I said before who really cares to listen to screw-up which happened once in a blue moon. In my line of work....no one really want to think or understand when things "failed". Best not to know so as not to be answerable for it.
I was just "blur" and felt so so bad....had to reflect what it might have been and so on. Still....till now, I am fearful to come back to work due to the bad experience on last Friday. The only thing that came into my mind now about the whole experience is it was a perfect storm for me. Things just failed one after another...
some were man-made ( miscommunication and false expectation ) and others were just out of the blue. Just cannot explained it any other way except a perfect storm.
Just like what happened in Samao/Indon/Phils last week. Tsunami...who the fcuk want to be hitted by a tsunami??? Just pure "HELL" as one who lived thru it....descripted the whole thing!
Thursday, October 01, 2009
Self Reflection
Then...doing the above, I think of the beautiful things and places I have done and seen then....again I realised what I have experienced is just a tiny bit of LIFE. I remember seeing the pictures of places that I never go to but only saw in the Internet. So beautiful, peaceful, serene, cool and awesome. Of the many other things in life that I can only witness on TV...travel and food shows.
I am just a tiny atom....living my life trying to earn enough money to feed my family plus I didn't travel lately due to my loses and with me trying to save money instead on travelling and to experience more of LIFE...I just sat and watch the travelling show via cable TV. To places that I never can think of.....MAN! what did I missed in this life????
Having to feel depressed about my job and also about what are happening but I also know that there is nothing much I can really do to help. It is like hopelessness and
also in the same time....thankful of being living here in Singapore!
Last Sunday...went to my mom's grave to lay flowers, it was her 7th anniversary. So fast....hope that she is in heaven now and blessing me and my family. Btw I am also ready to join her....guess it is about time too for me! Life is quite tiring! I am now pushing myself in the gym and swimming pool....yes! I am much fitter than anytime before. I remember that for "fit" people....death may come suddenly and fast too. Frankly the only thing I fear is that falling sick and dieding slowly. That will be a big disaster for my family in term of time and money wasted.
I am just a tiny atom....living my life trying to earn enough money to feed my family plus I didn't travel lately due to my loses and with me trying to save money instead on travelling and to experience more of LIFE...I just sat and watch the travelling show via cable TV. To places that I never can think of.....MAN! what did I missed in this life????
Having to feel depressed about my job and also about what are happening but I also know that there is nothing much I can really do to help. It is like hopelessness and
also in the same time....thankful of being living here in Singapore!
Last Sunday...went to my mom's grave to lay flowers, it was her 7th anniversary. So fast....hope that she is in heaven now and blessing me and my family. Btw I am also ready to join her....guess it is about time too for me! Life is quite tiring! I am now pushing myself in the gym and swimming pool....yes! I am much fitter than anytime before. I remember that for "fit" people....death may come suddenly and fast too. Frankly the only thing I fear is that falling sick and dieding slowly. That will be a big disaster for my family in term of time and money wasted.
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