Feeling stressed ( the world is closing up on me )

Lately....feeling that the end of the world is near and lots of things that had happened and those are happening is not helping me feel otherwise too. Esp like at work, on TV and in the home front. Been feeling like me....against the world or put it correctly....everything is moving against me or closing up around me. No future, no hope!!!

Plus the fact that there os no one to fall back on. I can't really open up to my own family members...wife and children. That is my style....I'll carry the whole weight by myself and into my grave if need to.

Funny lei....since I got a "best" chaim see the last time out ( less than a mth ago }, maybe due to expectation? Not that I blamed god or anyone. Should be less stress and very busy....since I have sold the flat and that should clear off any balance debts left. Also be busy looking for new house or new place to rent first.
Yeah...this is also part of my present stress. What we can afford and where to stay.

Looking at myself....sometimes, just can't help to laugh or to cry or to die. Lots of people are so so much worst....and yet, I am totally confused, sad, stressed, unloved ( hehehe ), very much want to die asap.