Day's lesson in life.

Wow....as usual after a night at work from 7pm till past 7am with sleepy eyes and heavy legs but still got to get to AIA office at Alexandra Rd to settle the insurance policies. Hardly can sit up-right without dosing off. So sleepy esp with the slow bus ride and the air-con blowing straight at my face. Eyes...closed hehehe!
Nearly leaned onto the old lady sitting beside me....that's bad, no?

Then changed bus at AMK....and that bus is better becoz I gave up my seat to an old lady ( reminded me of my elder sister )....but wah, everyone gave me a stare! I was liked....What the fish??? never people now give up seat to older people??? Then I noticed that most people....faster rushed up the bus and make for a seat then......
faster closed eyes to catch a nap or just open something to read. So......giving up
seat is not a common practice. I felt odd esp with all....the stickers telling young people to offer others a seat. Anyway...I feel good and I won't feel sleepy too.

Saw...an elderly guy talking quite loudly but no one bother with him, so me too. Only after he got off the bus that I realised that he is blind and he was asking the driver to tell him the place to drop. The trouble was that he speaks in Chinese while the driver was an Indian...and he is blind. Then...another old lady found the blind man's hp....but the bus was already some distance away. Not easy....on the bus and I saw quite a few people dosing off like me earlier then I understand why people don't readily gave up their seats. Self protection...or self first! Okay I am fine with that.

Then when I got to Alexandra village....went to eat breakfast at the hawker centre. Order a bowl of noodle...ok with the bigger serving too at $3. Then I noticed the guy who took my order was a handicap. Both legs were having problem...polio or something but he was a pretty fast worker too. That man.....really taught me a good lesson that I felt ashamed of myself. Me....no car and maybe facing a slight difficult and stressful time ( no car and self pity on bus mah plus pressure from boss from my side-line on sales quota for this Qtr )...I was feeling down and sad!!!
But shit....who am I to complain when many others are worst off than me. The blind man....losing his hp??? The handicap hawker's assistant who have to serve all the customers without any help. That is why...I faster faster went up to the hawker once my bowl of noodle was done and ready to serve myself....really would felt bad if let the handicap assistant served me. Frankly I am not looking down at the assistant but I was really ashamed with myself. After that....I walked faster and put a smile to my face. If a handicap can....then I can, life can be better if everyone tries to smile often. No need to have black face...now at work, think my attitude towards my workers changed, I will try to be a nicer person. I will try my best to continue with this attitude....think it's for the better.

Went to Sing Siong for dinner with my counter-part and yes...I enjoyed it again. Same order...a sweet & sour pork dish with plain rain with a pot of soup. Plus a bowl of dessert. POWER...just $9.50 and I really enjoyed the food. So....life is not
too bad if just let "go" a little! I am too up-tied with myself most of the time. So with the accident...and these few days of getting use of riding on buses and eating at hawker centres, I really felt "blessed" or instead of being a "poor victim" of bad luck. I should be feeling great....yes! less comfortable but yes! still alive and with good health and I can stand tall and straight too.

Hope I can be a better person too....less loud, less strict with everything and everyone around me...and with myself too. No need to be too egoistic with myself!!
It is fine to be old...it is ok not to judge others....it is also ok to let things be as not easy to understand "standard or norm". Just close eyes....if things make no meaning.