A prayer to the almighty....OH LORD, please help me to be a better person than I was before.
To keep my simple mind....simple and straight,
To keep my simple mind....focus on the things I should be doing,
and not to waste my time getting angry with things that won't or cannot be changed,
and try to clear all my debts before I have nothing left to live with as I get older,
to live a short but fruitful life.
Please hear my prayer and help me with the above.
Thank you.....GOD.
Friday, February 08, 2008
On the eve of CNY - had a strange but great feeling!!
Oh....gotto put it on record that I had this strange and very present encounter on the eve of CNY.
I was half asleep....after sending out most of the CNY's greeting on my hp and can hardly keep my eyes open by then. It was about 11pm... after doing some last minute housekeeping that I had to go lay down on my bed alone. My hp rang....and one of the aunties complaint that I anyhow sent out the greeting. She said that I sent her a set of 4D numbers...in fact the one that I kena 2 nd prize.....0716 I-bet hahaha and she asked me what was I trying to send. So....after I explained to her and also told her that I was sorry and I sent another sms with the CNY greeting, I just closed my eyes.
Then I can feel a cool rush of wind blowing in from the door of my room towards me and at the same time....a sweet jasmine smell too. So "shiok" was the feeling I felt then....so peaceful, so nice smell, so "cool" and I was feeling so HAPPY too. Then....I was like in a "good dream" with someone but I cannot really made out who it was or how the person or spirit looks like....just can feel a "present of a special spirit". She or He just tell me that what I kena earlier ( the 2 sets of 4D - 0716 and 2390 ) was just a small start for me to use as "capital" to hit a huge one soon....in fact very soon. I remembered....I was in a state of bliss but still only half asleep and very much aware of what going on around me with my eyes closed. Then......for a moment a set of 4-D appear before I open up my eyes. Hahaha....what a strange dream? Much much better than anything that has happened to me before in my life. Really never before I felt this good............
it is really like heaven so different than making love....in fact even much much better. The bliss of it all is so so....out of this world.
It was like a mighty spirit trying to help me but as soon as I woke up.....I have my doubts. When I was in the dream-stage....I was "so sure" that this mighty spirit will help me and that I must dump every single cents that I kena on the set of 4D numbers. Now....I realised that in life, even with such strange and happy "happening/dream"....I dare not do it ( dump every single cent on it even that this is my only chance during this lifetime ). The word...."pau teoh" hahaha may not be so "pau" after all.
Then...I woke up and immediately "pray pray" to the gods at my own house. Then at nearly 1:15am went to Waterloo temple to pray pray with my family...1st time they followed me but they "very clever" to complain too...the smoke and crowd and so on. Later went home then to the new Punggol temple with them again....by the time we got back home it was about 4+am. Not bad.....nice experience that my family followed me to go pray pray.
Sleep after that....I was supposed to wake up early to go pray pray on CNY day but couldn't get up from bed. Slept until nearly 2pm....get everyone to wake up to go see movie CJ7 but by the time we started on the road...jam at CTE and it was already too late, nearly 350pm and the show time was 4pm.
Decided to go pray pray at my mom's grave....then my father-in-law's niche and head back to Punggol becoz my eldest daughter's former BF's mother asked her to visit them. So went to my old man's niche before sending her to their grandma's place in Hougang.
Rushed home ....warmed up some left-over...ate and went to work. Clocked in at 6:50pm then go thru my lotus notes and emails....replied and sent out whatever reports needed then went to fetch my daughter before going home. Then all of us including my daughter's former bf went to see a double movies....Kung-fu Dunk starring Jay Chou and CJ7 starring Steven Chow.
So....on the whole, this CNY's eve and CNY day itself was a "nice" experience for me and I find that the time was well-spent.....A HAPPY NEW YEAR indeed. Now can only hope to see if the mighty spirit is so POWERFUL indeed. In life....who can tell for sure??? I have really felt "blessed" by the whole experience.
Hahaha....I am at my workplace now, writting all these....no anger even with me having to work while my counter-part having a "ball" of a time.
I was half asleep....after sending out most of the CNY's greeting on my hp and can hardly keep my eyes open by then. It was about 11pm... after doing some last minute housekeeping that I had to go lay down on my bed alone. My hp rang....and one of the aunties complaint that I anyhow sent out the greeting. She said that I sent her a set of 4D numbers...in fact the one that I kena 2 nd prize.....0716 I-bet hahaha and she asked me what was I trying to send. So....after I explained to her and also told her that I was sorry and I sent another sms with the CNY greeting, I just closed my eyes.
Then I can feel a cool rush of wind blowing in from the door of my room towards me and at the same time....a sweet jasmine smell too. So "shiok" was the feeling I felt then....so peaceful, so nice smell, so "cool" and I was feeling so HAPPY too. Then....I was like in a "good dream" with someone but I cannot really made out who it was or how the person or spirit looks like....just can feel a "present of a special spirit". She or He just tell me that what I kena earlier ( the 2 sets of 4D - 0716 and 2390 ) was just a small start for me to use as "capital" to hit a huge one soon....in fact very soon. I remembered....I was in a state of bliss but still only half asleep and very much aware of what going on around me with my eyes closed. Then......for a moment a set of 4-D appear before I open up my eyes. Hahaha....what a strange dream? Much much better than anything that has happened to me before in my life. Really never before I felt this good............
it is really like heaven so different than making love....in fact even much much better. The bliss of it all is so so....out of this world.
It was like a mighty spirit trying to help me but as soon as I woke up.....I have my doubts. When I was in the dream-stage....I was "so sure" that this mighty spirit will help me and that I must dump every single cents that I kena on the set of 4D numbers. Now....I realised that in life, even with such strange and happy "happening/dream"....I dare not do it ( dump every single cent on it even that this is my only chance during this lifetime ). The word...."pau teoh" hahaha may not be so "pau" after all.
Then...I woke up and immediately "pray pray" to the gods at my own house. Then at nearly 1:15am went to Waterloo temple to pray pray with my family...1st time they followed me but they "very clever" to complain too...the smoke and crowd and so on. Later went home then to the new Punggol temple with them again....by the time we got back home it was about 4+am. Not bad.....nice experience that my family followed me to go pray pray.
Sleep after that....I was supposed to wake up early to go pray pray on CNY day but couldn't get up from bed. Slept until nearly 2pm....get everyone to wake up to go see movie CJ7 but by the time we started on the road...jam at CTE and it was already too late, nearly 350pm and the show time was 4pm.
Decided to go pray pray at my mom's grave....then my father-in-law's niche and head back to Punggol becoz my eldest daughter's former BF's mother asked her to visit them. So went to my old man's niche before sending her to their grandma's place in Hougang.
Rushed home ....warmed up some left-over...ate and went to work. Clocked in at 6:50pm then go thru my lotus notes and emails....replied and sent out whatever reports needed then went to fetch my daughter before going home. Then all of us including my daughter's former bf went to see a double movies....Kung-fu Dunk starring Jay Chou and CJ7 starring Steven Chow.
So....on the whole, this CNY's eve and CNY day itself was a "nice" experience for me and I find that the time was well-spent.....A HAPPY NEW YEAR indeed. Now can only hope to see if the mighty spirit is so POWERFUL indeed. In life....who can tell for sure??? I have really felt "blessed" by the whole experience.
Hahaha....I am at my workplace now, writting all these....no anger even with me having to work while my counter-part having a "ball" of a time.
Year of the Rat
Can only pray and hope that this Rat year will turn out better than the previous years. Hope that I can be a better person and not so dependent on my honey and the share market. Becoz any of these 2 things can really affected my thinking, mood and my whole self confidence. Felt very sad and bad whenever I think of her........missed her mah or lose $$$$$ in the stock market.
Yes! for both these faults are all my own doing...so silly but matters of the heart cannot be explained at times even by me, a silly old man, same goes for stock market. It can just drop like SHIT with all these "present poor sentiment" around the world at the present time. Any little bit of bad news and the stock market reacts badly......so fucking crazy!!!!
So....really would seriously hope that I can be less addictive to both my "only" faults in my present life for a change esp with this start of the present "Rat" year. Must seriously put my mind and heart to other things....like TOTO and 4D since that my luck is not that shitty....esp 4D lately. Can be costly hobby....but with God's help who knows :) and hopefully regain my loses.
So....again, back to my main point.....to pray pray harder and to think more positive for myself
and my own family. To spend more time with my wife even without screwing and to think less about the screwing part.
Yes! for both these faults are all my own doing...so silly but matters of the heart cannot be explained at times even by me, a silly old man, same goes for stock market. It can just drop like SHIT with all these "present poor sentiment" around the world at the present time. Any little bit of bad news and the stock market reacts badly......so fucking crazy!!!!
So....really would seriously hope that I can be less addictive to both my "only" faults in my present life for a change esp with this start of the present "Rat" year. Must seriously put my mind and heart to other things....like TOTO and 4D since that my luck is not that shitty....esp 4D lately. Can be costly hobby....but with God's help who knows :) and hopefully regain my loses.
So....again, back to my main point.....to pray pray harder and to think more positive for myself
and my own family. To spend more time with my wife even without screwing and to think less about the screwing part.
4D luck
Hahaha....last Sunday, managed to kena one consulation prize of $150 but the capital was nearly $380. Walau sure mati....and almost give up on 4D.
On Wed....look at my horoscope and was told that I must be steady and to push on with whatever I had in mind previously. So, LL.....for to proof that the horoscope was accurate even when I don't like to bet on Big Sweep draw......I cut down on whatever I betted on last Sunday with a minor adjustment, cut down on the amount that I bet. And the total was about nearly $250. And what do you know....kena a 2nd prize and a starter, all on I-bet hahaha which totalled to be $2500. After minusing on the bets and commission, still left about $1800 to collect. The only shit thing was that on Wed....the share market had a huge drop and it swiped off about 3K from my shares.
Anyway....guess that is what life really is "win some lose some", still no complaint hahaha. A good start on the eve of CNY.
"HUAT AH"
On Wed....look at my horoscope and was told that I must be steady and to push on with whatever I had in mind previously. So, LL.....for to proof that the horoscope was accurate even when I don't like to bet on Big Sweep draw......I cut down on whatever I betted on last Sunday with a minor adjustment, cut down on the amount that I bet. And the total was about nearly $250. And what do you know....kena a 2nd prize and a starter, all on I-bet hahaha which totalled to be $2500. After minusing on the bets and commission, still left about $1800 to collect. The only shit thing was that on Wed....the share market had a huge drop and it swiped off about 3K from my shares.
Anyway....guess that is what life really is "win some lose some", still no complaint hahaha. A good start on the eve of CNY.
"HUAT AH"
Saturday, February 02, 2008
2/2
No luck with 4D today...sighed. Now with the CNY just a few more days more....I still have not remove my old man's stuffs from the room. 49 days is on this coming Tuesday. If I don't do then....then will have to wait till 100 days.
This CNY....nothing to look forward to. Stock market also in the "PITS" and I am nursing serious major wounds from that still. So...can say this CNY is just as bleak as those people getting struck at the Train station in China by the snow storm.
Can only hope for the best.....
This CNY....nothing to look forward to. Stock market also in the "PITS" and I am nursing serious major wounds from that still. So...can say this CNY is just as bleak as those people getting struck at the Train station in China by the snow storm.
Can only hope for the best.....
Friday, February 01, 2008
1st Feb
New month....and already the back-stabbing getting worst. Now even my own girls are getting into the acts. For them...they really thought that I have good relationship with my boss so they anyhow "quote" me. The truth....is far from the actual. I do my job....with or without my boss's present, becoz I never need to suck up to anyone if I always stay positive and do my best. That is my style....and also by doing that I just do my work and not to worry about politic...but guess that it is not true. In most workplace....there is always someone to cause trouble for others, to back-stab and to anyhow gossips.
Now....I am the scrapgoat. So....what to do but to curse these mother-fuckers!!! Curse them until their fucking mouths get "rotten".
The hatred in my heart is getting worst.... felt that whatever I believed in is turning against me. Nothing is going right....work, play and lovelife. Nothing is smooth....all my belief is wrong.
Thought that if I don't trouble people...people will do the same and won't trouble me, but this is not true...people will look for other people to cause trouble. Not that I am a sweet person....still
people still dare to "sabo" me behind my back.
Lately...again, ran into a brick-wall for my insurance biz. Kena "banned" from selling A & H products when I have quite of few cases to submit. This really set me "back to the stone age" and my boss is asking me why no case. What cases???? when I suddenly was told that I cannot sell these A & H products anymore for 1 year just becoz I have not enough training hours....what training hours??? when there is no training.....AIA really know how to knock me off my feet. That is why I felt so "bitter" lately.....at every turn there are "road-blocks", move forward 1 step then gotto move back 2 to 3 steps. Yes! was told to pray to "TIGER" god....maybe that is the answer to my problems.
Now....I am the scrapgoat. So....what to do but to curse these mother-fuckers!!! Curse them until their fucking mouths get "rotten".
The hatred in my heart is getting worst.... felt that whatever I believed in is turning against me. Nothing is going right....work, play and lovelife. Nothing is smooth....all my belief is wrong.
Thought that if I don't trouble people...people will do the same and won't trouble me, but this is not true...people will look for other people to cause trouble. Not that I am a sweet person....still
people still dare to "sabo" me behind my back.
Lately...again, ran into a brick-wall for my insurance biz. Kena "banned" from selling A & H products when I have quite of few cases to submit. This really set me "back to the stone age" and my boss is asking me why no case. What cases???? when I suddenly was told that I cannot sell these A & H products anymore for 1 year just becoz I have not enough training hours....what training hours??? when there is no training.....AIA really know how to knock me off my feet. That is why I felt so "bitter" lately.....at every turn there are "road-blocks", move forward 1 step then gotto move back 2 to 3 steps. Yes! was told to pray to "TIGER" god....maybe that is the answer to my problems.
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Jan 2008
What a month? lucky it about to pass....I have gone from ok to almost broke. From "no worry" to "plenty to worry about". And worst....and no honey also.
The stock market - just crazy and that also made me go crazy too. Up and down by huge margin everyday.
Very crazy on 21/2 and 22/2....2 days and my nose went into the ground, oh....lots of noses went into
ground and just wonder how many people "die". Nearly became one of them too.
4D....not too bad but at a heavy cost. At the end...end-up paying off the losts in the stock market. Fxxked!
For no money...no honey part, still no change to it and remain status quo. Just gotto move on with my life and not think or put too much hope into this too. Esp knowing my honey and that I shall remain always "an outsider" in her eyes no matter what I do ( no stake in her coop hahaha ).
So...another week to the CNY and the year of the golden pig is almost gone. Hope the year of the Rat be a better one for me. But from the way things are moving....not too promising. 1st already the back-stabbing has started at my workplace and the boss also somehow part of the problem.
If....I am dead, I will come back and give them no peace too. Those mother-fuckers!!!
The stock market - just crazy and that also made me go crazy too. Up and down by huge margin everyday.
Very crazy on 21/2 and 22/2....2 days and my nose went into the ground, oh....lots of noses went into
ground and just wonder how many people "die". Nearly became one of them too.
4D....not too bad but at a heavy cost. At the end...end-up paying off the losts in the stock market. Fxxked!
For no money...no honey part, still no change to it and remain status quo. Just gotto move on with my life and not think or put too much hope into this too. Esp knowing my honey and that I shall remain always "an outsider" in her eyes no matter what I do ( no stake in her coop hahaha ).
So...another week to the CNY and the year of the golden pig is almost gone. Hope the year of the Rat be a better one for me. But from the way things are moving....not too promising. 1st already the back-stabbing has started at my workplace and the boss also somehow part of the problem.
If....I am dead, I will come back and give them no peace too. Those mother-fuckers!!!
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