Feeling stressed ( the world is closing up on me )

Lately....feeling that the end of the world is near and lots of things that had happened and those are happening is not helping me feel otherwise too. Esp like at work, on TV and in the home front. Been feeling like me....against the world or put it correctly....everything is moving against me or closing up around me. No future, no hope!!!

Plus the fact that there os no one to fall back on. I can't really open up to my own family members...wife and children. That is my style....I'll carry the whole weight by myself and into my grave if need to.

Funny lei....since I got a "best" chaim see the last time out ( less than a mth ago }, maybe due to expectation? Not that I blamed god or anyone. Should be less stress and very busy....since I have sold the flat and that should clear off any balance debts left. Also be busy looking for new house or new place to rent first.
Yeah...this is also part of my present stress. What we can afford and where to stay.

Looking at myself....sometimes, just can't help to laugh or to cry or to die. Lots of people are so so much worst....and yet, I am totally confused, sad, stressed, unloved ( hehehe ), very much want to die asap.

Sat - 4D

Gotto try...I-Bet on 9800 & 2118 on the above date. POWER....POWER one!

Kena....happy, happy lor.

Twice in 2 Wednesdays missed the 2nd prize 4D

Aiyo....2nd time in as many weeks, missed out the 2nd prize on the 3rd number. This week....I bought 8124 and 2nd prize was 8134. Another 3 ( 6K ) big, 4 ( 8K ) small goes down the drain.

Compared to last week's....this was chicken's feed but missed out twice, quite sayang mah. Not as confident as last week due to fear of it turning out to be 3 instead on 2 due to March, proved to be true. 8412 was 1st prize on Jan 18. So thought today 18th march.....may open again this set of numbers 8124.

Whole day....had this feeling of 1 set of number for top 3 prizes be very recent numbers. SHIT 5445....this is only open on this Sunday and now again for 3rd prize.
Just 6 combinations....2nd prize on Sunday. Already last month and this month, have often repeated numbers coming up...again and again. Just luck can help eyes see better. hahaha...so me, no luck lor.

Sat

Aiya....wake up with a tired body, anyway now I am in my office and things are going very slowly tonight as we are having a shutdown. We are the only team working today.

Guessed in life, not every day we can start the day afresh with lots of positive energy too. Like today....I felt shitty and sleepy like the world is without hope. Just stepped into the office....I forgot my batch but on the way to office, already ran into a few slow coaches who drive slowly on lane 1. They are having a relaxing drive since this is Saturday....but they forget to think for others, we can be working mah. Then....the QA auditor and the Process auditor came to see me about their own little trouble. Told them...they have to settle their personal differents and not to bring in into my team space.

Then 4D result....all burnt for today. So much....for good luck lor.

Friday up-date

Wah....super sayang lor esp on Wed ( lunar 15th 2nd mth ), went to pray pray at most of the usual temple and on my way home I can sensed that things were not going my way. Eg...people walked across my path or car cutting across my right of way to block me off and so on. Still somehow....had a little faith that thing would be better by the end of the day.
So on reaching my home...prepared food for the children and went to rest. Kind of "stoned" as I watched the knock-out football games on cable till nearly 6am, then at 630am gotto fetch wife to MRT. Decided to buy 4D....and aimed to whack 7132 & 7231 big....in fact 36 big 30 small. Total about $400 plus since box all the numbers of that 2 numbers and whacked the numbers with 7 heading.
Shit....sleeping till 7:25pm, woke up see no sms. Gone!!! Went to see telly-tex and SUPER SHIT....2nd prize 7102. And missed out 96K.....COLD!!!
Not easy to have such feeling to whack so big for one set of numbers mah. So sayang lor!!!
Well....low profile again for awhile hehehe.

After reading my honey's blog

Just feel like singing this song ==>>> "good-bye my love...my honey, my soulmate!", since her heart again start to feel meow2 again.

Anyway...I am not surprised hehehe.

On Wed

So....went to all the temples that I have prayed before to give "thanks" for the flat thing and also went down to Waterloo St temple for "chaim see" for the coming months. Wah this time...got a good chaim see ( no 86 ) Myraids of flowers bloom to fill the house. From 10,000 li becomes gold for you and a carp jumps through the three Dragon gate to become a dragon. A sudden burst of good omen issue from the earth.
Interpretation = The king bestows one with honour, a very poor person receives a priceless treasure. Be content, as this is indeed a good prediction!

Oh....for record, went to pray at the temples at Punggol but with my wallet running low...just $18 left, so after praying went to NTUC to buy fruits for my home. Checked and went to the ATM, suddenly totally forgot my PIN no. Already pushed wrong pin twice....so stopped before card kena "eaten" if failed again. So...went to car, wah got lots of coins then go for breakfast. Oh at NTUC...used my NTUC credit card to pay. Calm down after eating....then remember the pin no. Went to get $200 then went home to pray pray my home's gods.

At noon, went off to pray pray at Waterloo and the rest of the temples. Got home at 4+pm...and fell asleep hearing Hokkien's song.