LOVE....

Love....is addictive and so damaging to one's health and well-being at the same time. It is also so powerful when things are smooth...give one's the feel of power and fearlessness. It is also a double-edges sword. It can "cuts" both ways... for eg : if handle wrongly, it hurts the person holding it more than the one it is supposed to cut. SHIT here? just feel the joke was on me.
It creates crazy thoughts and some jealousy....even to one as "seasoned" as me. That no matter how I act indifferently, it "hurts" inside. From my outside appearance....I act "cool", hehehe what a joke? The more I don't know the better....that is how I think but then again, the less I know the more I want to know that is when the mind plays tricks inside. This is when it starts to hurt...the cold turkey treatment. Until I know my eyes can hardly stay 'open' but I still need to pen these feeling down in my blog....as a lesson learned and not to be repeated in future.
Just like the movie...."CLOSER". Life is funny....LOL.
Guess people write and direct '"movie" from past experience and the message is there. One will understand it better when one has similar experience...to "relate" it.
This is more or less...my present situation at the moment. Honey...if you read this, I promised you this....I will "never" love you less and I don't regret knowing you also. I must "calm" myself
with my feeling for you...and continue to be the "sotong king". ( stay "blur" or act "blur" or maybe both...hehehe for my sake)