What a lousy week?

No honey for me this week....and man! been waiting for it all along. Bare flesh thing....sighed. Guess my horoscorp predictions were right. Been looking forward on good old times and yes! the good old times remained as good old times. Nothing happen...time spent and gone, expectations
not fulfilled. Ball ached and head ached...in fact, everything ached. And life moves on.
For the week, the only things I managed to do were...go get myself 2 days of mc and end-up watching football in TV for 2 nights. Then of lunar calendar 15th and 16th....go pray2, well it was a saving grace for that. Calm my soul...think "good" but inside still longing for my honey. Man! I am so addicted and it can hurt to suffer the "cold turkey" treatment.
Thanks...that this week is done!!! Looking forward again to next week, cross my fingers or my everything that the trip will "happen" and things will be alright again. For one just adding to the number....guess that is called "hope" but not blind fate. I dare not think too much about the future when it is beyond my control.
At the Waterloo temple, I took the chance to ask the goddess of mercy about her predictions for my immediate future...and it is quite good. Stated as....the replenishment of spring water into a old well. Interpretation : good ( success is here after all the worries. As my heart and mind is at peace and so that I will see success. A benefactor will assist me and my arguments are proven right. Sickness will be cured. What I am attempting will produce a well giving sweet water at the end ).
Man....this is consorting to me and give me "hope". I kept this message in my wallet in order for it to produce the "results". Man needs gods....or a drowning man needs to have a divine help in order to save himself. I can't ask for more....especially this week and in my present conditions. For my sickness is cured....maybe the cold turkey treatments I am getting for the past few weeks does help to "open" my eyes wider to see myself and for what I really am. Maybe it is telling me that it is time to wake up to the "facts" of life. And stop trying to hold on to the "good old times". But still inside me....how I wish that I can have all over again. SO POWERFUL..........
"love".