4D

Shit.....for the past 2 draws since 2008, I have missed out the 2 first prizes ( meaning 8K - just I-bet ). All these were my old man's numbers. Last Wed....9826 was my blk no and the level where I stayed ( 8-296 ). And today's 7821.....was the date of my parents' death date 18 for my old man...and 27 for my late mom.

Due to the heavy cost....about $500 per session, I have stopped since the New Year. Just as a fact, I kena 4D almost in every draw since my old man's passing...starting on Wed ( next day of his passing on 1287 - starter : $500) then Sunday 23/12 got 3rd prize 5691 : $2000 on the mistaken white gold collection total, then again on 26/12 Wed on the actual number which was 5491 coming in as 2 consulation prizes : $600, then on Sat 29/12 kena car # and year # again $800 and finally on Sunday 30/12 kena year # again - starter $1500 . In total I got $5400 in winning but after minus commission I got about $4900. Cost was about $500 x 6 = $3000. Oh....still left me with about $1900 hahaha.

During this period ...missed out on one 1st prize 7200 ( 22/12 Sat - also I-bet for 0207, the death year for my parents....mom on 2002 and dad on 2007, I took the 2 last numbers and buy mah...0207 or 0702 plus I-bet ).

Guess...I should continue with the balance of his numbers. ( 5236 or 2365 ) - his niche # , my parents' age when they passed away....he was 90 and she was 85 ( 9085 or 8590 ), and the time of their passing, both at about the same time.....09:45hrs ( 2945 or 9452 ) - hard to believe but both die about the same time and breakfast time too.

So....try lor.

New Year - 2008

Already 4 days has passed us by....in 2008 now, no pau pau with honey for nearly a couple of weeks now. Shit....how times fly!

Me....due to no sayang from honey also got no mood, just getting bored and tired with life. Funny but that is life. Read about the Malaysian Health minister getting caught with his pant down with a young woman.....well, I envied him. To me....a good and active sex life is a important motivation for any man whether young or old. With that....the guy will be able to "cheong" with no fear to earn more money in order to keep up with his active sex lifestyle.

So....honey, if you want me to "cheong" then you gotto let me have some of your "honey" leh. I also know that to have honey also must have money. I am fine with that idea too....there is no two ways about it.

Another thing I noted....not any woman can excite me like my honey. This I too cannot explain why it is so. It is all fated...I guess, somehow there is always someone to really blindly love you.
So...on my part, I was the blind lover lor....the loser in this "love" game. The one who blindly love another will always be hurted or end-up as loser.....never will be treasured and most likely to be taken granted most of the time. I am angry with myself....being such a loser!!! but so far, just unable to break out of the feeling. Whatever good things I do....won't be remembered for long but any small mistake....all hell will break lose. This is one such one-way love affair and I am still not in control. SHIT :(