Feeling stressed ( the world is closing up on me )

Lately....feeling that the end of the world is near and lots of things that had happened and those are happening is not helping me feel otherwise too. Esp like at work, on TV and in the home front. Been feeling like me....against the world or put it correctly....everything is moving against me or closing up around me. No future, no hope!!!

Plus the fact that there os no one to fall back on. I can't really open up to my own family members...wife and children. That is my style....I'll carry the whole weight by myself and into my grave if need to.

Funny lei....since I got a "best" chaim see the last time out ( less than a mth ago }, maybe due to expectation? Not that I blamed god or anyone. Should be less stress and very busy....since I have sold the flat and that should clear off any balance debts left. Also be busy looking for new house or new place to rent first.
Yeah...this is also part of my present stress. What we can afford and where to stay.

Looking at myself....sometimes, just can't help to laugh or to cry or to die. Lots of people are so so much worst....and yet, I am totally confused, sad, stressed, unloved ( hehehe ), very much want to die asap.

Sat - 4D

Gotto try...I-Bet on 9800 & 2118 on the above date. POWER....POWER one!

Kena....happy, happy lor.

Twice in 2 Wednesdays missed the 2nd prize 4D

Aiyo....2nd time in as many weeks, missed out the 2nd prize on the 3rd number. This week....I bought 8124 and 2nd prize was 8134. Another 3 ( 6K ) big, 4 ( 8K ) small goes down the drain.

Compared to last week's....this was chicken's feed but missed out twice, quite sayang mah. Not as confident as last week due to fear of it turning out to be 3 instead on 2 due to March, proved to be true. 8412 was 1st prize on Jan 18. So thought today 18th march.....may open again this set of numbers 8124.

Whole day....had this feeling of 1 set of number for top 3 prizes be very recent numbers. SHIT 5445....this is only open on this Sunday and now again for 3rd prize.
Just 6 combinations....2nd prize on Sunday. Already last month and this month, have often repeated numbers coming up...again and again. Just luck can help eyes see better. hahaha...so me, no luck lor.