Guess....all these anger and bitterness are also taking their's toll on everyone's life. Dream, hope and faith were shattered by all these crazy thoughtless actions and deeds. We are paying the price for our actions now but we must wake up to the facts that there are also innocent ones with us....and they should not be accountable for all these.
Well.....it was a mistake and people do make mistakes. It is just silly of us to put all our future and efforts into pointing out who has done this and that mistake.
So....after all the angry words said and written, for all the stones thrown....let's agreed to let all these put to rest so that we can move on with our lifes and dreams.
There are still so many things and challenages that we are going to face in the future, so there is no time to lose and to let these "go".
True! "Love" is a very powerful tool just like a sword....it can cut both ways ( for it can heal and it can also destory ). But it is all in our heart....to choose whichever way we want but let me urged all of us to choose the "right way" not just for ourselves but also for our own "redemptions" to all the suffering and pains that we caused to others.
Karma has it that we are what we are....the people closest and dearest to us....the believe we had in ourselves and others....our future, the children and their children.
Until we can fully understand the actions of others....let us understand our own actions so that we can learned and do better the next time. Things failed because we let them failed....with our actions and our selfish thoughts. Now that we know our weakest....our faults, we must ensure we don't do the same mistake that impacted other's life and causing troubles that should be prevented in the first place.
So.....Dear lord, now.....please let's the healing begin. Peace be with all of us now and in the future....Amen!
Saturday, March 11, 2006
Thursday, March 09, 2006
Lesson in "Fairness"
The word "fairness" means differently to different people at different times and at different places. Very cheem.....right? Well....yes! just look at it from the woman's view and you will understand what I am trying to get at.
To a woman's view.
Fairness....means that she must be treating with respect at all times. Given whatever things she can think of....then, she still can think of more to ask for. POWER!
Fairness....means that her boyfriend or lover or hubby must only have eyes for her but hers are for scanning all over places for someone she wants to flirt with. Her reason....is "woman must be seen to be admired by men".
Fairness....also means that she can try to seduce whoever whenever she wants, it is also okay to be flirting with her best friends' or sibling's or relatives' boyfriend/lover/husband. Becoz she is so curious to try or test out other's goodie....must gotto be good!
Fairness....means that what she does is always correct and right. Her thinking is "Got to do it my way & no other way" but when her guy does the same....she would complaint that it "felt like a dagger going thru her heart....stabbing her a thousand times and so on )
Fairness....means that her mistakes must be forgiven immediately, so that she can move on to creat more.
Fairness....means to give her the "first pick or first choice" in everything.
Fairness....means never to point out her mistake to her unless she gives the green light or admits.
Fairness....means only her interest must be the priority if not....it cannot be fair or when she said it is fair, then it should be fairness.
To a woman's view.
Fairness....means that she must be treating with respect at all times. Given whatever things she can think of....then, she still can think of more to ask for. POWER!
Fairness....means that her boyfriend or lover or hubby must only have eyes for her but hers are for scanning all over places for someone she wants to flirt with. Her reason....is "woman must be seen to be admired by men".
Fairness....also means that she can try to seduce whoever whenever she wants, it is also okay to be flirting with her best friends' or sibling's or relatives' boyfriend/lover/husband. Becoz she is so curious to try or test out other's goodie....must gotto be good!
Fairness....means that what she does is always correct and right. Her thinking is "Got to do it my way & no other way" but when her guy does the same....she would complaint that it "felt like a dagger going thru her heart....stabbing her a thousand times and so on )
Fairness....means that her mistakes must be forgiven immediately, so that she can move on to creat more.
Fairness....means to give her the "first pick or first choice" in everything.
Fairness....means never to point out her mistake to her unless she gives the green light or admits.
Fairness....means only her interest must be the priority if not....it cannot be fair or when she said it is fair, then it should be fairness.
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
Peace be with you, Sandra - father figure here
I surrender to you....somehow you always had the ability to make me change my mind
and to forgive you for what was done.
I have cancel all my comments in my blog. The next step is to shut-down my blog if you give the "go ahead" for it.
Open letter - To all who this may concerned,
I was just a small bit player is this drama....never the main or supporting actor, more of a role of a quiet observer. But somehow I did guess what had actually happened or happening all along since I read her blog without fail, every day.
Frankly all these writings are just "thots"....maybe I was able to read her mind and what a fantasy.
My role here and now....is to act as a father figure to remind her not to mess up her life any more and to give a quiet time to the family in order for the chance to rebuild her family into a small happy family that she missed in her own.
Disclaimer - please use your own mind to understand what actually "BLOG" is....it is just a rumbling of thots and fantasy we have from time to time. Some may not be true - and also it should not be used against any one.
and to forgive you for what was done.
I have cancel all my comments in my blog. The next step is to shut-down my blog if you give the "go ahead" for it.
Open letter - To all who this may concerned,
I was just a small bit player is this drama....never the main or supporting actor, more of a role of a quiet observer. But somehow I did guess what had actually happened or happening all along since I read her blog without fail, every day.
Frankly all these writings are just "thots"....maybe I was able to read her mind and what a fantasy.
My role here and now....is to act as a father figure to remind her not to mess up her life any more and to give a quiet time to the family in order for the chance to rebuild her family into a small happy family that she missed in her own.
Disclaimer - please use your own mind to understand what actually "BLOG" is....it is just a rumbling of thots and fantasy we have from time to time. Some may not be true - and also it should not be used against any one.
Monday, March 06, 2006
Today's lesson - the meaning of true love.
Well...the meaning of true love to women and men are always be extremely different. No matter which angle one care to look from, most of the time they are really different. For women...
feeling/emotion is very important when they are having 'true love'....even money don't really matter to them.
1st - to women.
For women....true love means that she is willing to give up everything eg family, job, lifestyle, money, face and even to die.... for "true love". Nothing matter to them more than having the experience of true love and nothing too much to give up for true love.
They tend to be impressed and fall for "simple sweet helpful" guys, no need for the guy to be rich, young, good looking, even from the same race & religion ( see how many interracial couples at Orchard Rd and in the swinger's site - to me, these women are just pure fucking bitches ). This group of women are the "under-dog" lovers just want to go against the normal thinking of women ( normal women placed money, power and fame as their top priorities ). To impress this group of "under-dog" lovers....the guys must just be persistent in their "chase". Always ready to flatter her....how beautiful they look, dress or whatever turn them "ON". This group usually have a lack of self confidence. Meaning....that they may think they are too fat, having pimples problem, already old, having boobs problem ( too small, too soft, too big nipples, too dark nipples - man! they can think of so many things wrong with how their boob's look), thinking that they are out of shapes ( eg "tummy" stretch marks from child-birth or slimming down too fast ) or having some misunderstanding with their family...and they think their hubby is not supportive enough. This group of women...are likely to get into flings. If they are lucky....they get to know a responsible guy who will guide, show and help them instead of some "toy-boy" types who only want SEX [ to this type of guys, their attitude is "who cares what happen since you throw yourself at me and I am doing you a huge favour already by fucking you silly" - believed me I personally know this type of guys in fact only last nite I scolded my close friend when he told me that he is hunting for more women when he is already screwing with 3 women ( 2 married ones and 1 sweet young thing - which I seen and know personally ) becoz so many women are openly flirting with him since he is a known "woman-killer" in my workplace. Talk of the smartness of some women...I think just try "stubbornness" since these women know his history yet they throw themselves at him....or they are just want to try his cock?
His appearance - Slighty shorter but fatter than me always in baggy cloths, he is a sweet talker who will hang around his targeted women].
All the guys need to do are, just be ready for any small talk, willing to say sweet nothings, no need for logical talks and always seem to be very helpful at all time....( eg - the karang-gumi man/the air hostess case )
Important skills needed to impress women.
IT knowledge....always handy to be able to give tips to handle any pc/PDA/lap-top/MP3/hp problems that "pops" up from time to time since most women love their electronic equipments they always have with them. Car repairing skill will be an advantage too.
Photo-taking knowledge....always ready to tell the women how pretty they look and talks about how beautiful the surrounding nature looks eg tree, sky, clouds etc etc. Anyway...it is free and also can get them to be with the man in a quiet place for the chance for the man to whisper their sweet nothing into their ears and also to show how manly they can be...hehehe you know what i mean, right? Also can impress them that you are a born naturalist.....this always made the man seem like a educated guy who is always in tune with nature".
FLOWER POWER. Willing to send flowers - Always "Help" to be have florist friends for this ( can ask for discount hehehe ) and send flowers often to the women at their workplace ( the women will be so proud when men do that becoz they can be "howlian" and to show-off to their friends that they have ADMIRERS meaning they are still "hunted or wanted" - this in turn made them feel "sexy and slutty" ) and the signal for the men to start cutting down on this expense is when the guys got what they are aiming for "SEX".
Also help if the men can send other small creative gifts....eg "seed in a can" at the same time also teach them the photo-taking skill with their hp/camera/pda ( so that the woman will show-off her latest skill which she usually do by posting back the result in their email or blog for the guy to see ). See.....cheap and yet still very usable, gifts that can give the 'excuse' to keep in touch. What my friends always said to me....Men must be "persistent" and be creative enough to keep the interest of the women....in order to "impressed" her long enough for her to willingly open their legs for the guy to get some "free fucks" in. Once this is done....the next fuck is given.
To the guys, this is to their glory to be able to improve their fucking score/skill in their personal resume. Frankly...I have heard before that some women also boasted about their fucking poweress....their ability to get fucks by anyone they fancy. The biggest cock they have fuck and suck before....to how many men they fucked with....worst by how many men they managed to get to gangbang her by or the oldest & youngest fucker they had done with before. So now it seem....that some women are also keeping a "fucking score" in their personal resume too. They wear this proudly just like a soldier's badges of honour.
They believe that it is "Good" to be seen to have such a "BAD" attitude in front of their friends....so COOL.
Guess this....is the new attitude towards sex, the result of our "open leg" society....no big deal, since living in this modern time...so who "the fuck" cares! ( The ITE malay gangbang girl on the sex video, Tammy / Susan - NYP ones too, plus the latest one showing the school girl in uniform fucking at the HDB staircase - yes! I personally saw the videos on hp and my friends even back-up the file into his thumb drive. )
General knowledge - helps to know where to go for clubbing, drinking session, karaoke and some sporting activities like swimming. Some hotels like Changi Village Hotel has a big nice quiet swimming pool where no one can see what is happening under the water hahaha. POWER - right? And also help if they know where to get some pills or ganja to smoke in order to get everyone 'high' and in the mood when out clubbing. Always able to do other fun things...anything just to turn the women "ON". Then you score....man! Break the ice....so to speak, then the next fuck will be easy.
Ready and On Call 24/7
Helps to be able to be nearby always....working in the same dept/section "better still" but not necessary as long as in the same workplace. If not then to be in the same line also can....can able to give advices or do other work-related errands.
Now...to the men.
SEX, SEX and more SEX....guess that's what drive us to enjoy the chase. The best is the free sex....meaning little efforts, no exchange of money but fuck with the full impact of pure emotion "true love" feeling by the women. Better still .....free-from-worry sex ( someone else willing to clean up the mess after they are finished - It is a fact that 1 out of 10 children in the world at present, doesn't belong to the man rising the child and usually the man is not awared of the truth....so 10% of all births and up to 30-40% of all abortions. So good luck to you....if you are one of these, as life is never fair and also it was never meant to be fair to some - most of the time )
feeling/emotion is very important when they are having 'true love'....even money don't really matter to them.
1st - to women.
For women....true love means that she is willing to give up everything eg family, job, lifestyle, money, face and even to die.... for "true love". Nothing matter to them more than having the experience of true love and nothing too much to give up for true love.
They tend to be impressed and fall for "simple sweet helpful" guys, no need for the guy to be rich, young, good looking, even from the same race & religion ( see how many interracial couples at Orchard Rd and in the swinger's site - to me, these women are just pure fucking bitches ). This group of women are the "under-dog" lovers just want to go against the normal thinking of women ( normal women placed money, power and fame as their top priorities ). To impress this group of "under-dog" lovers....the guys must just be persistent in their "chase". Always ready to flatter her....how beautiful they look, dress or whatever turn them "ON". This group usually have a lack of self confidence. Meaning....that they may think they are too fat, having pimples problem, already old, having boobs problem ( too small, too soft, too big nipples, too dark nipples - man! they can think of so many things wrong with how their boob's look), thinking that they are out of shapes ( eg "tummy" stretch marks from child-birth or slimming down too fast ) or having some misunderstanding with their family...and they think their hubby is not supportive enough. This group of women...are likely to get into flings. If they are lucky....they get to know a responsible guy who will guide, show and help them instead of some "toy-boy" types who only want SEX [ to this type of guys, their attitude is "who cares what happen since you throw yourself at me and I am doing you a huge favour already by fucking you silly" - believed me I personally know this type of guys in fact only last nite I scolded my close friend when he told me that he is hunting for more women when he is already screwing with 3 women ( 2 married ones and 1 sweet young thing - which I seen and know personally ) becoz so many women are openly flirting with him since he is a known "woman-killer" in my workplace. Talk of the smartness of some women...I think just try "stubbornness" since these women know his history yet they throw themselves at him....or they are just want to try his cock?
His appearance - Slighty shorter but fatter than me always in baggy cloths, he is a sweet talker who will hang around his targeted women].
All the guys need to do are, just be ready for any small talk, willing to say sweet nothings, no need for logical talks and always seem to be very helpful at all time....( eg - the karang-gumi man/the air hostess case )
Important skills needed to impress women.
IT knowledge....always handy to be able to give tips to handle any pc/PDA/lap-top/MP3/hp problems that "pops" up from time to time since most women love their electronic equipments they always have with them. Car repairing skill will be an advantage too.
Photo-taking knowledge....always ready to tell the women how pretty they look and talks about how beautiful the surrounding nature looks eg tree, sky, clouds etc etc. Anyway...it is free and also can get them to be with the man in a quiet place for the chance for the man to whisper their sweet nothing into their ears and also to show how manly they can be...hehehe you know what i mean, right? Also can impress them that you are a born naturalist.....this always made the man seem like a educated guy who is always in tune with nature".
FLOWER POWER. Willing to send flowers - Always "Help" to be have florist friends for this ( can ask for discount hehehe ) and send flowers often to the women at their workplace ( the women will be so proud when men do that becoz they can be "howlian" and to show-off to their friends that they have ADMIRERS meaning they are still "hunted or wanted" - this in turn made them feel "sexy and slutty" ) and the signal for the men to start cutting down on this expense is when the guys got what they are aiming for "SEX".
Also help if the men can send other small creative gifts....eg "seed in a can" at the same time also teach them the photo-taking skill with their hp/camera/pda ( so that the woman will show-off her latest skill which she usually do by posting back the result in their email or blog for the guy to see ). See.....cheap and yet still very usable, gifts that can give the 'excuse' to keep in touch. What my friends always said to me....Men must be "persistent" and be creative enough to keep the interest of the women....in order to "impressed" her long enough for her to willingly open their legs for the guy to get some "free fucks" in. Once this is done....the next fuck is given.
To the guys, this is to their glory to be able to improve their fucking score/skill in their personal resume. Frankly...I have heard before that some women also boasted about their fucking poweress....their ability to get fucks by anyone they fancy. The biggest cock they have fuck and suck before....to how many men they fucked with....worst by how many men they managed to get to gangbang her by or the oldest & youngest fucker they had done with before. So now it seem....that some women are also keeping a "fucking score" in their personal resume too. They wear this proudly just like a soldier's badges of honour.
They believe that it is "Good" to be seen to have such a "BAD" attitude in front of their friends....so COOL.
Guess this....is the new attitude towards sex, the result of our "open leg" society....no big deal, since living in this modern time...so who "the fuck" cares! ( The ITE malay gangbang girl on the sex video, Tammy / Susan - NYP ones too, plus the latest one showing the school girl in uniform fucking at the HDB staircase - yes! I personally saw the videos on hp and my friends even back-up the file into his thumb drive. )
General knowledge - helps to know where to go for clubbing, drinking session, karaoke and some sporting activities like swimming. Some hotels like Changi Village Hotel has a big nice quiet swimming pool where no one can see what is happening under the water hahaha. POWER - right? And also help if they know where to get some pills or ganja to smoke in order to get everyone 'high' and in the mood when out clubbing. Always able to do other fun things...anything just to turn the women "ON". Then you score....man! Break the ice....so to speak, then the next fuck will be easy.
Ready and On Call 24/7
Helps to be able to be nearby always....working in the same dept/section "better still" but not necessary as long as in the same workplace. If not then to be in the same line also can....can able to give advices or do other work-related errands.
Now...to the men.
SEX, SEX and more SEX....guess that's what drive us to enjoy the chase. The best is the free sex....meaning little efforts, no exchange of money but fuck with the full impact of pure emotion "true love" feeling by the women. Better still .....free-from-worry sex ( someone else willing to clean up the mess after they are finished - It is a fact that 1 out of 10 children in the world at present, doesn't belong to the man rising the child and usually the man is not awared of the truth....so 10% of all births and up to 30-40% of all abortions. So good luck to you....if you are one of these, as life is never fair and also it was never meant to be fair to some - most of the time )
Sunday, March 05, 2006
Yes! it is a new day.
Yes, I have read your blog Sandra this morning. Now I believe you are starting to wake up to the hard and shameful facts facing you. Like I said before.....I cannot sleep just when I think of what the future holds for himer2, M & M and lastly you ( you must never let go of any of your children becoz you will never have any "redemption" in this life or in future lifes if you ever do that ). There is no other choice now but to bite the "bullets" and move on the best you can.
Things all around...especially the hubbies!!! can never be the same no matter how hard you cry, beg or regrets. Your past will never be erased from their memories and this will come round to haunt you again and again whenever things go wrong or if there is any misunderstanding. Even your closest....friends, relatives or anyone else ( students /fellow teachers ) if they were to know what happened will look at you in a totally different way. Yes....in front of you, people will lend you their support and side with you but in the long run....will laugh behind your back and gawk on your suffering and pain. That will included all those...you think are the closest to you. Only thing you can do to ensure this issue does not take place is..... to zip up your mouth forever on this major screw-up once and for all, to be at your best behaviour to your hubby, mil and your own mother at all times for they may slowly over-look and forgive your past mistakes or misunderstanding. Spend all your free time to be with your kids to help guide them to live a simpler and fuller life....and also totally give up all your fooling around, flings and seduction of boys or men ( yes! I know this is hard for you but really....believe me you don't want have another round of strains with Mr Tan. He is the most understanding hubby in the world and he must have your pity since he has take all these so well....your hubby2 or hubby3 or any other hubbies will never be so kind and do what Mr Tan does. Frankly I don't want to be him becoz I went thru "deep depression" when I felt that you have "changed" and started to give me excuses since late last year. You can noticed "my pain" from the way I blogged.....but I really "bite" my lip whenever I am with you becoz I "love" you dearly. Frankly...I was frighten that my face betrayed my feeling....so I just keep a straight face and give you a torturing fuck everytime I can, should have agreed with you to meet "Hotblackbird" Ren & Gen ( swingers ) for a gangbang for you. By the way...he is an Indian man. I also ordered the biggest vibrating dong ( as big as my arm with rubber thorns all round it ) to use on you....and it came too late so it is in my car now, whenever you may want to try...let me know. You really need all these punishments for your sins....and also to repent for all the lies you cooked up. Tammy and Susan - NYP stories seen "tame" as compared to yours....if this is written into a book. "Crows" - china girl's book is chicken feed too...
Man! you know how to "bewitch" men, I remember you tell me before that whenever you wear the tight pant to your school....your male students and fellow male teachers' eyes "pop out". That is why...I thot one of them must be screwing you in school whenever you "cancel" our TUItion session. Remember that I did said that I am willing to stay in your "Q-line" but "die die" you said there is "no such Q". Liar! always telling me that it was your hubby not working and coming to pick you ....yeah, now we know which "hubby" hahaha. HOPE you didn't use this excuse with Mr Tan.
Sorry....gotto stop here, thinking and recalling...is making me "mad" again. SEE.....this can and will happen in future with Mr Tan and your "lover-boy" again and again till we all 'passed-away'.
Things all around...especially the hubbies!!! can never be the same no matter how hard you cry, beg or regrets. Your past will never be erased from their memories and this will come round to haunt you again and again whenever things go wrong or if there is any misunderstanding. Even your closest....friends, relatives or anyone else ( students /fellow teachers ) if they were to know what happened will look at you in a totally different way. Yes....in front of you, people will lend you their support and side with you but in the long run....will laugh behind your back and gawk on your suffering and pain. That will included all those...you think are the closest to you. Only thing you can do to ensure this issue does not take place is..... to zip up your mouth forever on this major screw-up once and for all, to be at your best behaviour to your hubby, mil and your own mother at all times for they may slowly over-look and forgive your past mistakes or misunderstanding. Spend all your free time to be with your kids to help guide them to live a simpler and fuller life....and also totally give up all your fooling around, flings and seduction of boys or men ( yes! I know this is hard for you but really....believe me you don't want have another round of strains with Mr Tan. He is the most understanding hubby in the world and he must have your pity since he has take all these so well....your hubby2 or hubby3 or any other hubbies will never be so kind and do what Mr Tan does. Frankly I don't want to be him becoz I went thru "deep depression" when I felt that you have "changed" and started to give me excuses since late last year. You can noticed "my pain" from the way I blogged.....but I really "bite" my lip whenever I am with you becoz I "love" you dearly. Frankly...I was frighten that my face betrayed my feeling....so I just keep a straight face and give you a torturing fuck everytime I can, should have agreed with you to meet "Hotblackbird" Ren & Gen ( swingers ) for a gangbang for you. By the way...he is an Indian man. I also ordered the biggest vibrating dong ( as big as my arm with rubber thorns all round it ) to use on you....and it came too late so it is in my car now, whenever you may want to try...let me know. You really need all these punishments for your sins....and also to repent for all the lies you cooked up. Tammy and Susan - NYP stories seen "tame" as compared to yours....if this is written into a book. "Crows" - china girl's book is chicken feed too...
Man! you know how to "bewitch" men, I remember you tell me before that whenever you wear the tight pant to your school....your male students and fellow male teachers' eyes "pop out". That is why...I thot one of them must be screwing you in school whenever you "cancel" our TUItion session. Remember that I did said that I am willing to stay in your "Q-line" but "die die" you said there is "no such Q". Liar! always telling me that it was your hubby not working and coming to pick you ....yeah, now we know which "hubby" hahaha. HOPE you didn't use this excuse with Mr Tan.
Sorry....gotto stop here, thinking and recalling...is making me "mad" again. SEE.....this can and will happen in future with Mr Tan and your "lover-boy" again and again till we all 'passed-away'.
The sex video - Tammy/Susan's nyp video.
No.....I didn't think I will ever download their video here to share with others. I just see and that is it. Not right to download.
Anyway...I rather write a book about my relationship with you...should be more interesting then just see the video of the above two.
Anyway...I rather write a book about my relationship with you...should be more interesting then just see the video of the above two.
Tammy Or Susan NYP - Sex Video
Wahau....till today it has not go away but still took a life of it own and still making it's round in the net. What is this telling us? Are we so shallow or is there a serious void of happening in our lifes? Or that people just love to gossip about sex?
To me....maybe people are just curious about new stories especially if it involves sex and money.
And...all these will eventually die off after a while or when another more juicy stories replace it.
To me....maybe people are just curious about new stories especially if it involves sex and money.
And...all these will eventually die off after a while or when another more juicy stories replace it.
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