No luck with 4D today...sighed. Now with the CNY just a few more days more....I still have not remove my old man's stuffs from the room. 49 days is on this coming Tuesday. If I don't do then....then will have to wait till 100 days.
This CNY....nothing to look forward to. Stock market also in the "PITS" and I am nursing serious major wounds from that still. So...can say this CNY is just as bleak as those people getting struck at the Train station in China by the snow storm.
Can only hope for the best.....
Saturday, February 02, 2008
Friday, February 01, 2008
1st Feb
New month....and already the back-stabbing getting worst. Now even my own girls are getting into the acts. For them...they really thought that I have good relationship with my boss so they anyhow "quote" me. The truth....is far from the actual. I do my job....with or without my boss's present, becoz I never need to suck up to anyone if I always stay positive and do my best. That is my style....and also by doing that I just do my work and not to worry about politic...but guess that it is not true. In most workplace....there is always someone to cause trouble for others, to back-stab and to anyhow gossips.
Now....I am the scrapgoat. So....what to do but to curse these mother-fuckers!!! Curse them until their fucking mouths get "rotten".
The hatred in my heart is getting worst.... felt that whatever I believed in is turning against me. Nothing is going right....work, play and lovelife. Nothing is smooth....all my belief is wrong.
Thought that if I don't trouble people...people will do the same and won't trouble me, but this is not true...people will look for other people to cause trouble. Not that I am a sweet person....still
people still dare to "sabo" me behind my back.
Lately...again, ran into a brick-wall for my insurance biz. Kena "banned" from selling A & H products when I have quite of few cases to submit. This really set me "back to the stone age" and my boss is asking me why no case. What cases???? when I suddenly was told that I cannot sell these A & H products anymore for 1 year just becoz I have not enough training hours....what training hours??? when there is no training.....AIA really know how to knock me off my feet. That is why I felt so "bitter" lately.....at every turn there are "road-blocks", move forward 1 step then gotto move back 2 to 3 steps. Yes! was told to pray to "TIGER" god....maybe that is the answer to my problems.
Now....I am the scrapgoat. So....what to do but to curse these mother-fuckers!!! Curse them until their fucking mouths get "rotten".
The hatred in my heart is getting worst.... felt that whatever I believed in is turning against me. Nothing is going right....work, play and lovelife. Nothing is smooth....all my belief is wrong.
Thought that if I don't trouble people...people will do the same and won't trouble me, but this is not true...people will look for other people to cause trouble. Not that I am a sweet person....still
people still dare to "sabo" me behind my back.
Lately...again, ran into a brick-wall for my insurance biz. Kena "banned" from selling A & H products when I have quite of few cases to submit. This really set me "back to the stone age" and my boss is asking me why no case. What cases???? when I suddenly was told that I cannot sell these A & H products anymore for 1 year just becoz I have not enough training hours....what training hours??? when there is no training.....AIA really know how to knock me off my feet. That is why I felt so "bitter" lately.....at every turn there are "road-blocks", move forward 1 step then gotto move back 2 to 3 steps. Yes! was told to pray to "TIGER" god....maybe that is the answer to my problems.
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Jan 2008
What a month? lucky it about to pass....I have gone from ok to almost broke. From "no worry" to "plenty to worry about". And worst....and no honey also.
The stock market - just crazy and that also made me go crazy too. Up and down by huge margin everyday.
Very crazy on 21/2 and 22/2....2 days and my nose went into the ground, oh....lots of noses went into
ground and just wonder how many people "die". Nearly became one of them too.
4D....not too bad but at a heavy cost. At the end...end-up paying off the losts in the stock market. Fxxked!
For no money...no honey part, still no change to it and remain status quo. Just gotto move on with my life and not think or put too much hope into this too. Esp knowing my honey and that I shall remain always "an outsider" in her eyes no matter what I do ( no stake in her coop hahaha ).
So...another week to the CNY and the year of the golden pig is almost gone. Hope the year of the Rat be a better one for me. But from the way things are moving....not too promising. 1st already the back-stabbing has started at my workplace and the boss also somehow part of the problem.
If....I am dead, I will come back and give them no peace too. Those mother-fuckers!!!
The stock market - just crazy and that also made me go crazy too. Up and down by huge margin everyday.
Very crazy on 21/2 and 22/2....2 days and my nose went into the ground, oh....lots of noses went into
ground and just wonder how many people "die". Nearly became one of them too.
4D....not too bad but at a heavy cost. At the end...end-up paying off the losts in the stock market. Fxxked!
For no money...no honey part, still no change to it and remain status quo. Just gotto move on with my life and not think or put too much hope into this too. Esp knowing my honey and that I shall remain always "an outsider" in her eyes no matter what I do ( no stake in her coop hahaha ).
So...another week to the CNY and the year of the golden pig is almost gone. Hope the year of the Rat be a better one for me. But from the way things are moving....not too promising. 1st already the back-stabbing has started at my workplace and the boss also somehow part of the problem.
If....I am dead, I will come back and give them no peace too. Those mother-fuckers!!!
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