Self Reflection

Then...doing the above, I think of the beautiful things and places I have done and seen then....again I realised what I have experienced is just a tiny bit of LIFE. I remember seeing the pictures of places that I never go to but only saw in the Internet. So beautiful, peaceful, serene, cool and awesome. Of the many other things in life that I can only witness on TV...travel and food shows.

I am just a tiny atom....living my life trying to earn enough money to feed my family plus I didn't travel lately due to my loses and with me trying to save money instead on travelling and to experience more of LIFE...I just sat and watch the travelling show via cable TV. To places that I never can think of.....MAN! what did I missed in this life????

Having to feel depressed about my job and also about what are happening but I also know that there is nothing much I can really do to help. It is like hopelessness and
also in the same time....thankful of being living here in Singapore!

Last Sunday...went to my mom's grave to lay flowers, it was her 7th anniversary. So fast....hope that she is in heaven now and blessing me and my family. Btw I am also ready to join her....guess it is about time too for me! Life is quite tiring! I am now pushing myself in the gym and swimming pool....yes! I am much fitter than anytime before. I remember that for "fit" people....death may come suddenly and fast too. Frankly the only thing I fear is that falling sick and dieding slowly. That will be a big disaster for my family in term of time and money wasted.