A Sad Day for me to know the truth.

Yes! I am so so so sad....that my soulmate is going thru hell for her foolish actions.
"True Love" sounds very hollow when the person who claim he/she is seeking "true love" may not fully understand that this to most young men just mean they "love" to have sex....esp "free sex & with someone's wife - since they can move on if something "screw-up" eg ... getting pregnant since someone else will take care of his off-spring while he goes around sowing his wild oats" and that is why they don't even bother to wear a condom when they screw becoz when things go wrong....they will leave, period!
Worst if they don't leave, you better wise up to this fact asap. If you don't believe what I said here...then test him, ask him to pay for the hospital bills for the whole affair. When he knows that he has to pay $$$$. He will likely to totally disappeared from your sight and immediately stop all his "sweet nothing" and to have anything to do with you also he will stop accepting your sms, email & calls. In other words....you are "dumped", pronto!
Especially when you are to him just one more "scoring" for his profile/experience/boasting to his friends....but this is just the start of your nightmare and the beginning of "hell" for your children. You better hope that he does not has any pic/video of his "screwing" you in his hp or your life will be worst than "hell" soon. If he is a student...or ex-student or new teacher, you should noticed "gossips or weird looks" by now in your school. Remember the Tammy Chua & Susan Tan - NYP sex video stories?
Soon....you shall be in the news too from the way you lived your life. Remember this, "never screw around in the place where you earn your living" ....you are playing with fire! by doing this.
This show that he is too childlish ( by the way, he must be either a student, ex-student or a new teacher - I did noticed your "sudden" interest in your school activities last year, hope you didn't do your scoring in the class or during your field trip esp camping trip anyway it doesn't surprise me if you have done that since I know you "well" ) or that he has not "wake-up" to the facts about what is happening or the troubles he is "in" now or that...he is totally not bother to what happen to you as he just act "blur" & just ask you to take "good care of his baby" as seen in your blog's tag-box ....this is the worst type. The "bo-chap & bo-kan" type.
If you choose him.....your children will be the "ones" who will suffer more in future becoz he is likely not able to even support himself "fully" at the moment or anytime soon, he may turn abusive when he feels "blocked or box-in" if you are to live with him in the future. The children will be the first to be abused esp M & M since they are not his, then M & M will hate you till the end of their lifes becoz of your actions or blindness. Pls read the abused cases in the newspapers...how similar to this situation, agree? How the mother's new toyboy abused the children when he has to stay to help out on looking after them.
Please wake up....see what happen to your mom's situation and your mom's situation is much better than yours now at least she is not caught having other guy's baby and you still have trouble with her. Do you want your children to act like you? By the way, have you made up with your mom? Go and make your peace with her.....for goodness sake!
You still have the power to change some of things you have done since you have a strong earning power....so be strong since you must "pay" the price for the path you have already taken but remember that don't ever make your children pay for your mistakes again.
You can still count on me.....to be there for you. As I am not any fair-weather friend/soulmate since now you have come "clean" with me on this whole situation. I forgive you, and I can only hope for your sake that Mr Tan can do the same too.

Changes for 2006

well....has been awhile since i last post, frankly trying to let go of my past so that i can move on with my life. have been trying very hard with this....
anyway....love cannot be force or it does not count as love. as far as i know....it is also a zero sum game for love. winsome....losesome, only on rare situation there can be win-win.

The different between a man and a woman.

Money: A man will pay $2 for a $1 item he needs.
A woman will pay $1 for a $2 item that she doesn't need, but which is on sale.

Bathrooms: A man has five items in his bathroom: A toothbrush, shaving cream, razor, a bar of soap and a towel from the Marriott.
The average number of items in the typical woman's bathroom is 337. A man would not be able to identify most of them.

Marriage: A woman marries a man expecting him to change, but he doesn't.
A man marries a woman expecting her not to change and she does.

Dressing up: A woman will dress up to go shopping, to water the plants, empty the garbage, answer the phone, read a book and read the mail.
A man will dress up for weddings and funerals.

Final thought: For all married men ......should forget about his mistakes for marrying in the first place becoz the girl you first met and fell in love with maybe just a dream. Time will show this! But if you have a low expectation from the beginning of the relationship, then this may work out fine. Hehehe.....keep your expectation of your wife "low" so that you won't be too disappointed when things "screw-up" and best luck to you. Yes! make sure there is no toyboy around her.......
for this may proved too tempting for the stupid bitch not to try to seduce him. Women can be worst than men.....in this.

Chinese New Year

Well.....it is the time of the year again when everyone is busy with preparing to receive the New Year day and reunion dinner with the family. Somehow......to me, I have seem to lose the whole CNY mood. And also it doesn't matter much whether to celebrate or not. Maybe due to the fact that I happened to be working on these four days just before the big day itself....and that I don't have the time for going shopping and get into the CNY mood. Also I will be working on the eve....skipping the reunion dinner or just have a quickie one all by myself before going to work before 7pm.
Hehehe.....not to bother, I can have a small reunion dinner with my chinese operators before 12.
Have already ordered the Pizza Hut's party meal for 10. Then....off I go to do my pray2. After that.....rush back to work. Then again.....round 2 of the CNY pray session. Not bad after all..........
only I hope and pray that this coming year will be better than the last. A doggone year hahaha.

What a turn around?

WOW!!! I am lost for words........MAN!

A wish of hope for 2006.

A simple act of kindness, chaste and true
No elaborate fanfare on trumpets high
Nor grandiose actions in glorious splendour
But an earnest desire for hope they aspire
Children seeking embrace, safe and warm
Families fighting despair and woeful trials
Through the heavy and anguish hours
A sincere yearn for tender words, the only desire
A genial expression from the heart
Angelic acts in human guise
At times in the face of family and friends
Often in the form of a stranger lending a hand
Spreading goodwill through the still of night
Silent benedictions that banish hate and fear
With sincere words full of hope, full of light
Peace prevails, goodness nears.
To keep that hope high!

MY OATH TO YOU.......

When you are sad.....I will dry your tears.
When you are scared.....I will comfort your fears.
When you are worried.....I will give you hope.
When you are confused.....I will help you cope.
And when you are lost....
And can't see the light, I shall be yourbeacon.....
Shining ever so bright.
This is my oath.....I pledge till the end.
Why you may ask?.....
Because you're my honey and friend.