Really was the most shitty night for me for a long long while on last Friday. Total nightmare at work....just cannot understand how things can get so screw-up. A perfect storm.
Felt like end of the world by the time 23:59hrs, totally screwed! No body would and could believed what went wrong. Things started going down hill at 10pm...and till midnight. Even the pc "hanged" and that was in the last leg for the qtr-end closing!
In the end....called boss to tell her the issues but then again...like I said before who really cares to listen to screw-up which happened once in a blue moon. In my line of work....no one really want to think or understand when things "failed". Best not to know so as not to be answerable for it.
I was just "blur" and felt so so bad....had to reflect what it might have been and so on. Still....till now, I am fearful to come back to work due to the bad experience on last Friday. The only thing that came into my mind now about the whole experience is it was a perfect storm for me. Things just failed one after another...
some were man-made ( miscommunication and false expectation ) and others were just out of the blue. Just cannot explained it any other way except a perfect storm.
Just like what happened in Samao/Indon/Phils last week. Tsunami...who the fcuk want to be hitted by a tsunami??? Just pure "HELL" as one who lived thru it....descripted the whole thing!
Tuesday, October 06, 2009
Thursday, October 01, 2009
Self Reflection
Then...doing the above, I think of the beautiful things and places I have done and seen then....again I realised what I have experienced is just a tiny bit of LIFE. I remember seeing the pictures of places that I never go to but only saw in the Internet. So beautiful, peaceful, serene, cool and awesome. Of the many other things in life that I can only witness on TV...travel and food shows.
I am just a tiny atom....living my life trying to earn enough money to feed my family plus I didn't travel lately due to my loses and with me trying to save money instead on travelling and to experience more of LIFE...I just sat and watch the travelling show via cable TV. To places that I never can think of.....MAN! what did I missed in this life????
Having to feel depressed about my job and also about what are happening but I also know that there is nothing much I can really do to help. It is like hopelessness and
also in the same time....thankful of being living here in Singapore!
Last Sunday...went to my mom's grave to lay flowers, it was her 7th anniversary. So fast....hope that she is in heaven now and blessing me and my family. Btw I am also ready to join her....guess it is about time too for me! Life is quite tiring! I am now pushing myself in the gym and swimming pool....yes! I am much fitter than anytime before. I remember that for "fit" people....death may come suddenly and fast too. Frankly the only thing I fear is that falling sick and dieding slowly. That will be a big disaster for my family in term of time and money wasted.
I am just a tiny atom....living my life trying to earn enough money to feed my family plus I didn't travel lately due to my loses and with me trying to save money instead on travelling and to experience more of LIFE...I just sat and watch the travelling show via cable TV. To places that I never can think of.....MAN! what did I missed in this life????
Having to feel depressed about my job and also about what are happening but I also know that there is nothing much I can really do to help. It is like hopelessness and
also in the same time....thankful of being living here in Singapore!
Last Sunday...went to my mom's grave to lay flowers, it was her 7th anniversary. So fast....hope that she is in heaven now and blessing me and my family. Btw I am also ready to join her....guess it is about time too for me! Life is quite tiring! I am now pushing myself in the gym and swimming pool....yes! I am much fitter than anytime before. I remember that for "fit" people....death may come suddenly and fast too. Frankly the only thing I fear is that falling sick and dieding slowly. That will be a big disaster for my family in term of time and money wasted.
Thursday up-date
Feeling very shitty these past days...on Wed, missed my 1st prize for 4D and also after seeing the news regarding the earthquakes, tsunami, typhoons and dust storms can be pretty depressing for oneself. Just put myself in these people suffering from the above...suddenly lost everything from house, all the belongings plus family members in the few seconds of nightmare. The thing was that I had a nightmare on Monday night regarding being caught in a "hell" of a rain storm. I dreamt that the whole dark clouds forming above me....then I remember me telling myself how am I to get home in such situation in my car esp the road would be flooded by the water from the storm. All this while....the dark clouds were getting worst. And I suddenly woke up sweating....and I said LUCKY...SHIT that it was just a bad dream.
Then...with the storms hitting Phils and Vietnam, I could easily see the damages it would have caused. It won't be a pretty sight....lots of suffering for the people esp the poorer ones. The rich would just go live somewhere else.
Then....I was like, what can I complain about life in Singapore? I am shit lucky as compared to all the poor souls.
Again, yesterday with the earthquake in Indon and Samoa plus the tsunami thingy there. MAN! can really pity the people. When disaster hits....rich, poor, old and young will all felt the power of it then with the rich able to pack and run. The old, sick and injured....having to face the hardship to rebuild what they lost. During time like this...one can really question whether is there a GOD? Why the suffering? Why me? and so on.
So....how can I feel good when so many people are suffering? Isn't this a depressing time for whoever care about environments and people?
Then...with the storms hitting Phils and Vietnam, I could easily see the damages it would have caused. It won't be a pretty sight....lots of suffering for the people esp the poorer ones. The rich would just go live somewhere else.
Then....I was like, what can I complain about life in Singapore? I am shit lucky as compared to all the poor souls.
Again, yesterday with the earthquake in Indon and Samoa plus the tsunami thingy there. MAN! can really pity the people. When disaster hits....rich, poor, old and young will all felt the power of it then with the rich able to pack and run. The old, sick and injured....having to face the hardship to rebuild what they lost. During time like this...one can really question whether is there a GOD? Why the suffering? Why me? and so on.
So....how can I feel good when so many people are suffering? Isn't this a depressing time for whoever care about environments and people?
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Tuesday Up-date
hehehe....just cannot log-in at work somehow, so now since I got time I better up-date what happened for the past few days. in fact...nothing much has change except now i started going to the gym before stopping by at the pool. after which drop by at the sauna.
yes....slowing picking up on my stamina and i was surprised that walking on a tread-mill is not as easy as it looks. wah...gotto hold onto the handlers when i increase or reduce the speed and the incline. just for 15 mins on it....can burn off at least 200 calories.
swimming....yes! getting into the rhythm of swimming the breast-stroke properly hehehe and i can go faster and not drinking any pool's water too. oh....bought a powered goggles for my short-sighted and i can see better when i swim. trouble is nothing to see hehehe....usually no one swim when i swim. even have...usually children, old men or some ang mo guys. no babe with bikini...that is why, i want to sponsor my honey to wear one hehehe.
sauna....can sweat out plus removing most dirt and dead cells from the body too, felt lighter and cleaner then have a 15 mins shower at the club's toilet which really clean me completely plus save my pub bill too hehehe!
yes....slowing picking up on my stamina and i was surprised that walking on a tread-mill is not as easy as it looks. wah...gotto hold onto the handlers when i increase or reduce the speed and the incline. just for 15 mins on it....can burn off at least 200 calories.
swimming....yes! getting into the rhythm of swimming the breast-stroke properly hehehe and i can go faster and not drinking any pool's water too. oh....bought a powered goggles for my short-sighted and i can see better when i swim. trouble is nothing to see hehehe....usually no one swim when i swim. even have...usually children, old men or some ang mo guys. no babe with bikini...that is why, i want to sponsor my honey to wear one hehehe.
sauna....can sweat out plus removing most dirt and dead cells from the body too, felt lighter and cleaner then have a 15 mins shower at the club's toilet which really clean me completely plus save my pub bill too hehehe!
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
Forex trading course package
For the amount I signed on for S$3299...the following is the package.
8-Week Forex Trader Course
Essential technical, fundamental and psychological aspects of trading structured over 8 weeks.
FXDS Grad's Night (Lifetime)
Catch up with your friends. A different trading topic will be shared during the monthly session.
Forex Trading Club (Lifetime)
Come in once a week to trade live with your classmates. A trainer will be on duty to help you as you mature and encounter different challenges in the market.
Customised Tuition Programme
For next 6 critical months after your graduation, come in once a week to get your personal trade diagnosis.
Btw this school was started by....this guy!
Winston Ng - CEO, Head Trainer,
Inner Health Lifestyle Empowerment Facilitator
Winston Ng has 10 years experience training one of the hardest groups of people to keep attention with - Teenagers! He has personally kept more than 5,000 teens riveted over 3 day periods. From the age of 16, he already started speaking to groups of 2,000 and more people; to rousing applause.
Winston Ng started his foray into the financial world out of necessity, rather than seeking wealth and riches.
He travelled the world from the U.S., to Switzerland to Australia to learn from the very best in financial knowledge and psychology. This includes learning from Private Bank Fund Managers who lists celebrities among their clients, Professional Forex Traders, Stock and Options Traders who consistently achieve 50% p.a., as well as experts in Wealth Psychology who manage and grow multi-million dollar accounts. He also counts among his friends - global real estate developers, franchise owners, doctors, and executives who earn in excess of USD$1 million a year.
From a managed wealth perspective, he has leveraged on his experience with these celebrity money managers across continents to create a blended system that allows investors with less than $5million networth to benefit from the same financial protection and growth that is available to the uber rich.
His self-trading experience goes back almost 8 years starting from options, to stocks, and now he has streamlined a safer way to profit from the Global Marketplace through proper Forex Trading setups that require less effort and more time to do the things he enjoys in life!
In the midst of a Financial world that is filled with tons of jargon meant to confuse the uninitiated, he has only one mantra to profit - Only Results Matter!TM
8-Week Forex Trader Course
Essential technical, fundamental and psychological aspects of trading structured over 8 weeks.
FXDS Grad's Night (Lifetime)
Catch up with your friends. A different trading topic will be shared during the monthly session.
Forex Trading Club (Lifetime)
Come in once a week to trade live with your classmates. A trainer will be on duty to help you as you mature and encounter different challenges in the market.
Customised Tuition Programme
For next 6 critical months after your graduation, come in once a week to get your personal trade diagnosis.
Btw this school was started by....this guy!
Winston Ng - CEO, Head Trainer,
Inner Health Lifestyle Empowerment Facilitator
Winston Ng has 10 years experience training one of the hardest groups of people to keep attention with - Teenagers! He has personally kept more than 5,000 teens riveted over 3 day periods. From the age of 16, he already started speaking to groups of 2,000 and more people; to rousing applause.
Winston Ng started his foray into the financial world out of necessity, rather than seeking wealth and riches.
He travelled the world from the U.S., to Switzerland to Australia to learn from the very best in financial knowledge and psychology. This includes learning from Private Bank Fund Managers who lists celebrities among their clients, Professional Forex Traders, Stock and Options Traders who consistently achieve 50% p.a., as well as experts in Wealth Psychology who manage and grow multi-million dollar accounts. He also counts among his friends - global real estate developers, franchise owners, doctors, and executives who earn in excess of USD$1 million a year.
From a managed wealth perspective, he has leveraged on his experience with these celebrity money managers across continents to create a blended system that allows investors with less than $5million networth to benefit from the same financial protection and growth that is available to the uber rich.
His self-trading experience goes back almost 8 years starting from options, to stocks, and now he has streamlined a safer way to profit from the Global Marketplace through proper Forex Trading setups that require less effort and more time to do the things he enjoys in life!
In the midst of a Financial world that is filled with tons of jargon meant to confuse the uninitiated, he has only one mantra to profit - Only Results Matter!TM
Wednesday
Back to work...well, as usual went for a swim in the morning then cook food to stand-by for dinner. Put everything into pot and boiled for 10 mins then after that put the whole pot into the thermal pot ( bought one from Isetan ) together with another layer of barley water. Woke up at 5pm and both were ready for eating. POWER...no need to monitor too becoz no electric used, so no over cooking or burnt food to worry about. This pot....to use for mainly soupy food esp those that required a long cooking time.
4D....no luck today, yeah...my body is aching from yesterday workout at my condo's gym. I want to have a nice 6-packs body mah hehehe....so far, still in one solid chunk hahaha. With the swimming...arms also more firm and that give me lots of stamina too unlike the first time when I swam one lap in the pool. Had to stop to catch my breath at least twice for the 25m hehehe. Now....can do 2 laps before feeling breathless....oh, that is with a fast lap. Can't swim slowly like some other swimmers....they seem to go on and on but at a very slow pace which I can't do. No patience for that. Now....really darken like a malay man. Btw....still more or less the same weight.....70kgs but eat more too.
4D....no luck today, yeah...my body is aching from yesterday workout at my condo's gym. I want to have a nice 6-packs body mah hehehe....so far, still in one solid chunk hahaha. With the swimming...arms also more firm and that give me lots of stamina too unlike the first time when I swam one lap in the pool. Had to stop to catch my breath at least twice for the 25m hehehe. Now....can do 2 laps before feeling breathless....oh, that is with a fast lap. Can't swim slowly like some other swimmers....they seem to go on and on but at a very slow pace which I can't do. No patience for that. Now....really darken like a malay man. Btw....still more or less the same weight.....70kgs but eat more too.
Sunday, September 13, 2009
Monday
Yes....went and signed up for the Forex trading class. And training starts 5th Oct monday for 8 sessions then with 6 mths of monitoring one-on-one by trainer for $3299
with the Forex Driving School, yes....the one started by the curly hair young man who appeared and featured in the TODAY's newspaper about a few weeks back. Btw he doesn't speak that well and half the time, I don't really understand what he was trying to say but somehow...I feel that I can trust him and he doesn't tried too hard to impress at the talk too. His asst - Miss Shufang was friendly and to me...the whole group come across as regular people who are passionate and are willing to share their experience with newbies like myself. I am totally new at this Forex trading thing...totally with no idea what the hell is it all about. For the course thingy....I am willing to pay the fee as long as I can learn how to trade and be ahead with some winners never mind big or small money. I will start with some token amount first.
Maybe it was due to the fact that I kept on loosing my pants in share trading that I want to try forex trading since that I don't seem to make any headway with stock trading after donkey years ( 25yrs or more?? - shit! wasted years and money ). So this time...I want to try something different and will do it with an open mind too.
Hopefully I would be able to be ahead this round with this forex thingy! Too tired of loosing money most of the time lei!
with the Forex Driving School, yes....the one started by the curly hair young man who appeared and featured in the TODAY's newspaper about a few weeks back. Btw he doesn't speak that well and half the time, I don't really understand what he was trying to say but somehow...I feel that I can trust him and he doesn't tried too hard to impress at the talk too. His asst - Miss Shufang was friendly and to me...the whole group come across as regular people who are passionate and are willing to share their experience with newbies like myself. I am totally new at this Forex trading thing...totally with no idea what the hell is it all about. For the course thingy....I am willing to pay the fee as long as I can learn how to trade and be ahead with some winners never mind big or small money. I will start with some token amount first.
Maybe it was due to the fact that I kept on loosing my pants in share trading that I want to try forex trading since that I don't seem to make any headway with stock trading after donkey years ( 25yrs or more?? - shit! wasted years and money ). So this time...I want to try something different and will do it with an open mind too.
Hopefully I would be able to be ahead this round with this forex thingy! Too tired of loosing money most of the time lei!
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