Time and time again....still learning.

At times I don't feel like talking and at other times, got to get it out of the chest.....yes! I too know something is best not to be said....just keep it quiet and let it die down naturally. This is old wisdom. Guess I am not a wise guy and is far from being one.
Noticed at times, even things played tricked on us.....shit! spent money and time to arrange to go to China. But at the end of it, all screwed up even at the start just one day after confirming it by paying fot it fully. Now even if I want to back out, I got to get only 50% of the total sum paid.....shit!!! Worst during the arranging for it, it causes me endless headache and misunderstanding with my honey..... because I was really acting like a big sotong due to the short time I have to book and get my annaul leave approved.....especially at this trying moment at the company. I must also have a great reason to get clearance to go from boss....
Then....shit! everything just screwed up....kena "fucked". Man! this is the price to pay for it. Can only hope to get this over with and I can start a new chapter with my honey again....I accepted the shits that comes out of this situation.