Guess this is the end of the road for me.

Well.....pointless to be self denying that things has gone from bad to worst. And that I am being "dumped".... period.
Tried my best to please whenever and whatever I could....but at the end, still the same result "dumped" and also lighter in the pocket too. At least....I shown that I tried to stick to as much as possible to my end of the bargain.
So this is the end of the road for wintoto.....hahaha.....should be "lost totally" becoz of the poor ending. .......I die not knowing why??? what have I done wrong??? Leaving me with a bitter after taste. Sad.....in fact, very sad for the fact about the "ENDING".
Left....with no news, no sms, no reply and a "very confusing" blog which I read without fail daily.

Wednesday again...

Again, start work for another new workweek. Back to the old routine of work, sleep and eat.
Yes....peaceful but boring life. Guess I cannot ask for things that they not meant for me.
It is great while it lasts....and pointless when situations changed. Same with human, people can change for the better or worst.

Friday

Soon it will be bonus time and so I am looking forward to receive my 13th month pay.
Time passed by me so fast....that how I feel for this year.
Anyway....nothing important happen ( good or bad ) so it is alright. A little relationship
issue is the only thorn at my side, and it can be easily settled if everyone put alittle more
effort to make up instead of just "bo chap" about it.

"As a rule, man is born a fool
when it is cold, he wants it hot
when it is hot, he wants it cold
always wanting what it is not"

Guess that sum up most peoples' life. That also included mine too.
Hahaha.......going to say bye bye to 2005 and welcome 2006.
Only to hope that 2006 will be even better for me and my honey.

At bad start....

SHIT....forget my hp when i went off to work. Got to run back to the house for it.....on the way to the office meet with 3 "blocking-wall devils" ( hokkien ) on the road. 1st one....on the outer-most lane but he was too busy looking at himself on his mirror to control his car, 2nd one...a taxi, drive like no machine under his hood but when I tried to over-take him from the left....he tried to block me off, last one.....a lady, at the traffic light she was still dreaming when everyone drove off becoz she was on her hp. FUCK!!!
Guess....this is one of those "fucked" days in my life.

Going to start another 3 nights of work

Man....another week came and gone, going to go back to work. Well....so be it, what else is NEW?
At least....this week, I have done a couple of tasks that need to be done. Saw my honey and
to send the bicycle to her. Settled the insurance premium issue with her.......so that there is
one less worry for me to think of.

Yeah...now, looking to get back to work. But tomorrow, I have got an appointment with the ang mo about his medical insurance need. Another bloodly headache thing. For now....I am taking a step at a time. Just can't able to handle all the tasks and worries...in one "go", hahaha prehaps the motivation is not there anymore....it is long "gone". Just want to take things easy......... for awhile for a change.

Monday....had a nice sleep

Yes.....re-charging my battery hahaha so to speak after working for almost 10 nites straight. I really need a "rest" and if possible a "R & R" with my honey. But most unfortunately my honey think "MJ" or "do this and that" is more important. That goes to show how far I have drop from her list of schedule.
Well....just what to say?
Maybe....this? "What goes round will come around again"
For me....yes, I have a fair share of them and I usually paid the price for it. Hopefully I still get what I paid for at the end....... hahaha.

Almost to the end of a 10 days work.

Man!!! i managed to get thru this....and other trying issues during this shitty period. Still the thing that bothered me the most is....the relationship issue.
Well....guess this is life, there will always be somethings to trouble us or I will be too "care-free".
Anyway.....I am still trying to cope with it.
At work....things are much better, hahaha boss is on holidays in Taiwan for the whole of the week. So peaceful....but not trouble-free. Most are due to the QA and operators's issues....no big deal, just stand firm and be firm with them.
Now.....I am looking forward to the 4 days rest. hahaha....monday, attend class from 2 to 4pm for AIG hour ( shit! i have already clocked enough hours for it, my mistake that i didn't check before putting my name in for it ) then Tuesday morning, meeting ang mo client for his family insurance need. POWER!!! heaven sent....hahaha.
For honey?....no idea when can i see her. So tied up with her new car.....maybe too "howlian" also, kidding.

Wednesday....1st day of work

Now.....1st day of my own team work and another 3 more nites to go. Tomorrow....is the 1st of Nov for chinese lunar calender. I will go to temple as usual in the morning.
Nothing much to look forward to.....maybe hope to go for a family vacations to KL for food and shopping in the third week of Dec. Beside this.....it is totally nothing left.
Thankfully....my health is still holding well but not my mental health...."emotional depressed" by
you know who. I still trying my bloodly best....not to think about it but somehow, it always managed to come to haunt me whenever I am alone whether just before sleeping or driving. So much so that....I end-up can't sleep or getting mad for the slightest provocation by other drivers. Shit :(
The more I tried not to think, the more it comes to haunt me. Still no regrets....and I must get a hold of myself and move on with my life.

Another week.....gone!

Man.....time and tide wait for no man. What a saying? Anyway....what else can I look forward to
now?
The good part is....I managed to get thru this week in one piece. Yes! met with all sorts of problems during the course of the week but in the end of it, I am still alive and kicking. :)

Is this the beautiful clouds after the storm?

The bad....and the good news for the week.

Hahaha....well, life is at times like these. Up....down.....down....downer....up? Whatever way, guess we have no choice but to fight on....or just to move on.

This week....there is no different, starting on last Monday - went to repair the tyres' tubing then changed the sport rims. Then not only spent the time but money for the repair and change....ended up with my hp being stolen. The thing that really pissed me off....was that it was done by one of the 2 mechanics doing the repair.

No wonder when I thanked them after finishing the job...the older ( the one who open my car door to release my car boot ) didn't dare look me in my eyes. I already sensed something was wrong. And by the time I realised that my hp was stolen....and when I ringed my numbers....it was already "switched off". All my contact numbers were stored in my hp....that really pissed me off the most.

Then....one piece of bad news followed by another....till now.

Well....you may wonder where or what is the good news? To me....the good news is that I am still around and kicking. Guess...this is the only good news I had for now :) Plus...the news about himer2.

About himer2.....

Well.....it really warms my heart to know that himer2 is doing well, and that the due date is 28/6/06. Guess.....this is the only piece of news that warms my heart for the whole week, in fact for quite sometime now. I have already lost count of the days and weeks for feeling "depressed and down".
Sure would love to hear or feel himer's heartbeats and kicks....hahaha.

Monday - another shitty day

Shit.....lost my hp and that happened when I went to change my tyre's nipples ( hahaha not the ones on a person but to pump in the air into the tyre ) and changing the sport rims. Ending.......
losing more than just the hp but all the contacts and pics & video ( fond momeries ).
I didn't realise it until after I reached home....then by the time, I went to the shop it is too late.
In fact....the person "off" the hp, when I came home to call the shop. Malaysian workers...........
not too trustworthy.

Another hard week....and it's over.

Thanks....GOD! for helping and guiding me thru another hard week.
For it is hard to walk alone....in the long dark road by myself.
If it is not for your shining light at the end of this tunnel to guide me along,
I won't be able to make it thru.....Amen!

PS - Is this the end of my road...or time?

Song - title "WHITE FLAG"

White Flag

I know you think that I shouldn't still love you or tell you that.
But if I didn't say it well I'd still have felt it,
where's the sense in that
I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were but

I will go down with this ship and I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door,
I'm in love and always will be

I know I left too much mess and destruction to come back again
And I caused nothing but trouble,
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "it's over" then I'm sure that that makes sense

butI will go down with this ship and I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door,
I'm in love and always will be
And when we meet, which I'm sure we will

All that was there,
will be there still I'll let it pass,
and hold my tongue
And you will think, that I've moved on....

I will go down with this ship and I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door,
I'm in love and always will be
I will go down with this ship and I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door,
I'm in love and always will be
I will go down with this ship and I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door,
I'm in love and always will be

Can Men and women be "Friends" ?

OVERCOMING SEX

If men are from Mars and women are from Venus, it may explain at least one of their shared beliefs: Men and women can't be real friends. Blame the sexual tension that almost inevitably exists between any red-blooded, heterosexual man and woman. Point to the jealousy that plagues many rational people when a significant other befriends someone of the opposite sex. Boil it down to the inherent differences between the sexes.

CHALLENGE #1
Defining the Relationship: Friends or lovers?
Platonic love does exist and confirms that "friendship attraction" or a connection devoid of lust, is a bona fide type of bond that people experience. Distinguishing between romantic, sexual and friendly feelings, however, can be exceedingly difficult.
"People don't know what feelings are appropriate toward the opposite sex, unless they're what our culture defines as appropriate. You know you love someone and enjoy them as a person, but not enough to date or marry them. What does this mean?"

CHALLENGE #2
Overcoming Attraction: Let's talk about sex
The reality that sexual attraction could suddenly enter the equation of a cross-sex friendship uninvited is always lurking in the background. A simple, platonic hug could instantaneously take on a more amorous meaning. Unwelcome or not, the attraction is difficult to ignore.
Topping women's list of dislikes: sexual tension. Men, on the other hand, more frequently replied that sexual attraction was a prime reason for initiating a friendship, and that it could even deepen a friendship.

CHALLENGE #3
Establishing Equality: The power play
Friendship should be a pairing of equals. But, "in a culture where men have always been more equal than women, male dominance, prestige and power is baggage that both men and women are likely to bring to a relationship."

CHALLENGE #4
The Public Eye: Dealing with doubters
Society may not be entirely ready for friendships between men and women that have no sexual subtext. People with close friends of the opposite sex are often barraged with nudging, winking and skepticism: "Are you really just friends?" This is especially true, of older adults, who grew up when men and women were off-limits to each other until marriage.

CHALLENGE #5
The Meeting Place: Finding friends
As the workplace and other social arenas become increasingly open to women, the sexes are mingling more and more. Still, men and women continue to have surprisingly few opportunities to interact.
"Boys and girls form their own gender groups in elementary school, they learn their own ways of relating to each other. So when they do get together, inspired by puberty, they see each other as dating partners because they've never really known each other as friends." A surprisingly major factor in this phenomenon is the kids' own innate interest in children who act like they do. Called "voluntary gender segregation," it continues into adulthood. "You see it at cocktail parties, that men go off to one corner, and women go to another."

TRUTH #1
Friendship is not equal opportunity
Not until high school does puberty really draw boys and girls together, which then continues into college. But as people develop serious romantic relationships or get married, making and maintaining cross-sex friendships becomes harder. "Even the most secure people in a strong marriage probably don't want a spouse to be establishing a new friendship, especially with someone who's very attractive".

TRUTH #2
Men benefit more from cross-sex friendship than women
There are proven--and apparent--distinct differences between female friendship and male friendship. Women spend the majority of their time together discussing their thoughts and feelings, while men tend to be far more group-oriented. Males gather to play sports or travel or talk stock quotes; rarely do they share feelings or personal reflections. This may explain why they seem to get far more out of cross-sex friendship than their female counterparts.

TRUTH #3
...but women benefit, too
All that sharing and discussing in female-female friendship can become exhausting, as any woman who's stayed up all night comforting a brokenhearted girlfriend can attest. With men, women can joke and banter without any emotional baggage. "Friendships with men are lighter, more fun, as most men aren't so sensitive about things." What they liked most of all, however, was getting some insight into what guys really think.

TRUTH #4
Cross-sex friendships are emotionally rewarding
Although women dig men's lighthearted attitude, most male-female friendships resemble women's emotionally-involving friendships more than they do men's activity-oriented relationships. The No. 1 thing male and female friends do together is talk one-on-one. Other activities they prefer--like dining out and going for drives--simply facilitate that communication. In fact, close male-female friends are extremely emotionally supportive if they continuously examine their feelings, opinions and ideas. "Males appreciate this because it tends not to be a part of their same-sex friendships. while females appreciate garnering the male perspective on their lives."

TRUTH #5
It's not all about sex
"In reality, sex isn't always on the agenda, but that could be due to sexual orientation, lack of physical attraction or involvement in another romantic relationship." After all, even friends who are attracted to each other may also recognize that qualities they tolerate in a friendship wouldn't necessarily work in a serious romantic relationship. And after years of considering someone as a friend, it often becomes difficult to see a cross-sex pal as a romantic possibility.
Of pairs that do face the question of lust, those that decide early on to bypass an uncertain romantic relationship are more likely to have an enduring friendship. Interestingly, those subjects did not transition the friendship into a romantic relationship, suggesting that they preferred friendship over sex.

TRUTH #6
Male-female friendships are political
Men and women have increasingly similar rights, opportunities and interests, which can make cross-sex friendship very political and it upsets the agreed-upon social order. that women and men engage in an equal relationship or they aren't friends." Whatever the challenges of male-female friendship, both genders have to openly and honestly negotiate exactly what their relationship will mean--whether sexual attraction is a factor and how they'll deal with it--and establish boundaries. In the friendships that survived--and even thrived--after sex or attraction came into play were those in which the friends extensively discussed the meaning of the sexual activity and felt confident and positive about each other's feelings. Once they got past that, they were home free.
"If sex is part of the dynamic, addressing it explicitly is the best strategy" for making sure the friendship survives. "The issue will fester if friends try to ignore it."

So in the end, male-female friendship does have something in common with romantic relationships: To work, communication is key. Would you agree with this?

Forcing Love?

Yes, you can make yourself deliberately fall in love with someone you presently like but do not really love, but not easily. Usually, you strongly favor a few traits of your beloved, such as beauty and intelligence. And you firmly convince yourself that your beloved uniquely possesses them and fall in love with that "special" person. Because of your distinct prejudices, you have great difficulty falling for anyone else, however much you like them. But if you work hard at convincing yourself that another person has uniquely outstanding traits and will lead you to certain bliss, you may fall in love with him or her. Don't, however, count on it.

Romantic love, commitment and all but the most fleeting passion share one important feature: Each is created with intention. Romantic love may feel magical, but we learn to love in a deliberate fashion. Can we learn to love just anyone? Not without entirely recreating ourselves, our personal beliefs and attitudes, a process that would be unlikely. One needs shared core beliefs and attitudes, a simple foundation on which to build.
Learning to love another person is an adventure, but it is not about scaling mountains. Rather, it is negotiating the ordinary business of life. Love is becoming intimate, learning things that few others know or care to know about one's partner.

The answer, of course, is "Yes, it happens every day." Yet our culture persists in the belief and promotion of an idealized romantic notion of love that makes the pronouncement, "We were made for each other." It is as if we have little to say in the matter-either love finds us or it doesn't. These romantic falsehoods tend to obscure the actual work involved in creating love between two people. This work involves shared commitment, responsibility, fidelity and mutual respect. When we say that people "fall" in love, we would do well to think more in terms of "choosing" and "creating" love together...

Interesting?

A soul mate?

Is there only one right person for each of us? The one person who is our perfect match in mind, body, and spirit?

Many couples live their lives as soul mates -- they absolutely believe that they have found "the one" who suits each of them on a deep level. Other people believe more in time and circumstance. Meaning, if you meet the right person at the right time and place, you'll end up together.

After much observation and research into relationship development, I do believe that some people are more suited to each other than others. However, I don't subscribe to the theory that there is just one person who is destined to be your perfect match. I do believe in time and circumstance -- for instance, you may meet your soul mate or ideal partner, but he's married. If you had met six years earlier, before he got married, or (cynically) seven years later, after he was divorced, he might have been "the one" for you.

If you're single, what's more important than searching for your soul mate is finding someone who is thinking the same way you are. For instance, if you're interested in dating many people and having fun, find others who only want to date and not get serious. If you're ready to get married and have kids, date people who are willing to get married and have kids in the near future, not people who are focused on furthering their career or playing the field socially. Right time, right place, right mindset -- love can strike most any two people!

Love is blind....a quote but it is with some truth.

Is love blind?


We've all heard the expression, "Love is blind," meaning that when we first meet someone and think we're falling in love, we're quite oblivious to their faults and shortcomings.

There is a term called limerance that has been coined to describe the somewhat indescribable feelings that arise when we first meet someone to whom we're attracted. During the period of limerance, you become infatuated with someone you barely know and rush headlong into a relationship. Many people don't eat, sleep, and can't concentrate on anything but the object of this powerful attraction.

Limerance can be the forerunner of love. But, it's also possible that once the "high" of limerance passes, feelings of love fade into indifference or dislike. The period of limerance is usually six to twelve months. What happens after that is the true test of a relationship.

With a large number of people getting married within twelve months of meeting, the high divorce rate in the U.S. begins to make sense. Limerance is a good argument for dating past the one year mark before making a long-term commitment.

What do you think about limerance, and the crazy joys and highs of the beginning of relationships? Experienced it yourself? Watched your best friend's ups and downs?

Guess the only way to find out and to know for sure......and my finding is that it is tough after the intial honeymoon period is over and when reality set in. This is also the time to test your love...to see how strong or how deep you feel for one another. I believed that man....change little becoz I know myself well. From day 1 till now....I am still the same with my feeling and seldom let the situations or conditions to affect my feeling much. Maybe I may seem "distance" at times, but as you know....we are "asian" we tend to keep lots of affections inside but still I find that I am quite constant in that area. hahaha....yeah, blood type "B+" also still has some good points too.....the main one is "RELIABLE".

Wednesday - 1st nite at work

Shitty week....1st, hardly got any news from you know who. Claimed to be autism or whatever but guess it is just an poor excuse. So what can I do?....it is always hard if you wanted so much to hear from a loved one while she doesn't have the mood or doesn't feel like even to sms or reply with a short note. This is an example of a "one-way street" type of communication.....
But one thing is for sure....don't do it to others if you don't want it to happen to you. I live by this motto....but not many others think the same way as me.
Am I asking for too much?....frankly I don't think so since i know my situation and my present standing in her eyes, I am just expecting the minimum....but still I got disappointed. Why do I feel that way??? I hardly hear anything from her, and I can only go to her blog....to see and try to make out what she was trying to put across there.
This is teaching me....a hard and painful lesson of loving someone especially when the feeling is not mutual. Also can show what kind of things people do or don't do.

Sighed :(

Sunday morning

Sighed.....nothing much to look forward to from now on. Maybe I just keep my head down and do what I can to keep myself busy in the months ahead until the new life "blossom" out. hahaha hope you know what I mean.
For now.....shit life and life suck "big time".

Thursday

This week....is my nightmare week. Anyway...going to work tonite and hope it can bring some reliefs to me by making myself too busy to think about anything.
All the promises made.....had turn to nothing and now, a endless wide space ahead of me in the months ahead with nothing to look forwards to. Sighed!
Life sucks!!!! I agreed with that thought.

PS - went to movie alone last nite, saw a few couples ( local man with china girl ) hahaha reminded me of years gone by. At least, they look "happy" while I am like a sotong...."LOST".

wednesday....another frustrating and unhappy week

Shit....another week come and go, it is very frustrating. Sometimes....it is so unfair but still I can't do a thing about it. Just can blog it here stating my frustration.
They must know that in life there are always full of challenges. And that what happen....in their personal life or working life must not be allowed to impact on their other commitment or whatever they have becoz it is totally unfair if it happened too many times. People can understand and be supportive if once in awhile something crop out from the blue.....becoz yes! it do happen and can happen to any one. But once adjustments are changed.....life must continue to move on.
Guess....my style is what I said.....will forever remain the same ( anther example of that....twice I met with an accident on my way to work and after that, I still made my way by walking or took a bus to the company with blood all over my shirt and body to inform my boss of what just happened before going to the hospital for treatment ) or until the agreed period ends or if needed, sit down for a new discussion. That way.....things can straighten out and transparent. Usual very little will ever change my mind and made me go back on what I have promised or agreed on, even that it may not to my advantage to do so. I also know the power of compromise may be better then nothing and I am willing to try that if all else failed.
Somehow.....not many people may agreed to my thinking, that is why there are so many problems out there.
I am awared that what I do.....may impact on others and I tried my best to keep it to myself as much as poosible.

PS - this is a new one.....man! it is hard to argue with you since I have no answer to your answer.
Like I said above.....I won't want to impact others with my actions. I have to salute you for this. POWER!!

Sound advices....for men?

Sex Advices....why some men failed at sex!

1. NOT KISSING FIRST. Avoiding her lips and diving straight for the erogenous zones makes her feel like you're paying by the hour and trying to get your money's worth by cutting out non essentials. A properly passionate kiss is the ultimate form of foreplay. ( I am a kisser...so shouldn't be a problem for me )

2. BLOWING TOO HARD IN HER EAR. Admit it, some kid at school told you girls love this. Well, there's a difference between being erotic and blowing as if you're trying to extinguish the candles on your 50th birthday cake. That hurts. ( I don't do this )

3. NOT SHAVING. You often forget you have a porcupine strapped to your chin, which you rake repeatedly across your partner's face and thighs. When she turns her head from side to side, it's not passion, it's avoidance. ( one of my mistake ....hehehe, always thot the girl will love it. I am wrong )

4. SQUEEZING HER BREAST. Most men act like a housewife testing a melon for ripeness when they get their hand on a pair. Stroke, caress, and smooth them. ( another of my mistake...esp thot doing it, is the right way becoz tends to get a respond...how wrong )

5. BITING HER NIPPLES. Why do men fasten onto a woman's nipples, then clamp down like they're trying to deflate her body via her breasts? Nipples are highly sensitive. They can't stand up to chewing. Lick and suck them gently. Flicking your tongue across them is good. Pretending they're a doggie toy isn't. ( ok...I will be more gentle here....hehehe )

6. TWIDDLING HER NIPPLES. Stop doing that thing where you twiddle the nipples between finger and thumb like you're trying to find a radio station in a hilly area. Focus on the whole breasts, not just the exclamation points. ( well...got to learn not to over twiddle until the nipple drop off....hahaha )

7. IGNORING THE OTHER PARTS OF HER BODY. A woman is not a highway with just three turnoffs: Breast Ville East and West, and the Midtown Tunnel. There are vast areas of her body, which you've ignored far too often as you go bombing straight into downtown Vagina. So start paying them some attention. ( this I know....from other website, have already put in practice, Man! one right...still got hope )

8. GETTING THE HAND TRAPPED. Poor manual dexterity in the underskirt region can result in tangled fingers and underpants. If you're going to be that aggressive, just ask her to take the damn things off. ( yes...it happened before, hehehe some bras are like traps to me )

9. LEAVING HER A LITTLE PRESENT. Condom disposal is the man's responsibility. You wore it, you store it. ( I always practice safe sex...no issue here )

10. ATTACKING THE CLITORIS. Direct pressure is very unpleasant, so gently rotate your fingers along side of the clitoies . ( I will be careful with this the next time )

11. STOPPING FOR A BREAK. Women, unlike men, don't pick up where they left off. If you stop, they plummet back to square one very fast. If you can tell she's not there, keep going at all costs, numb jaw or not. ( walau....start all over again? I will remember this )

12. UNDRESSING HER AWKWARDLY. Women hate looking stupid, but stupid she will look when naked at the waist with a sweater stuck over her head. Unwrap her like an elegant present, not a kid's toy. ( okay...I will be careful with this )

13. GIVING HER A WEDGIE DURING FOREPLAY. Stroking her gently through her panties can be very sexy. Pulling the material up between her thighs and yanking it back and forth is not. ( I am well aware of this )

14. BEING OBSESSED WITH THE VAGINA. Although most men can find the clitoris without maps, they still believe that the vagina is where it's all at. No sooner is your hand down there than you're trying to stuff stolen banknotes up a chimney. This is okay in principle, but if you're not careful, it can hurt - so don't get carried away. It's best to pay more attention to her clitoris and the exterior of her vagina at first, then gently slip a finger inside her and see if she likes it. ( ya...I can do this )

15. MASSAGING TOO ROUGHLY. You're attempting to give her a sensual, relaxing massage to get her in the mood. Hands and fingertips are okay; elbows and knees are not. ( hahaha....okay, good advice )

16. UNDRESSING PREMATURELY. Don't force the issue by stripping before she's at least made some move toward getting your stuff off, even if it's just undoing a couple of buttons. ( hahaha...yes! a wake-up call for me )

17. TAKING YOUR PANTS OFF FIRST. A man in socks and underpants is a at his worst. Lose the socks first. ( I can imagine how silly I will look like in this situation....hehehe )

18. GOING TOO FAST. When you get to the penis-in-vagina situation, the worst thing you can do is pump away like an industrial power tool - she'll soon feel lie an assembly-line worker made obsolete by your technology. Build up slowly, with clean, straight, regular thrusts. ( I am okay with this )

19. GOING TOO HARD. If you bash your great triangular hipbones into her thigh or stomach, the pain is equal to two weeks of horseback riding concentrated into a few seconds. ( can...I know )

20. COMING TOO SOON. Every man's fear. With reason. If you shoot before you see the whites of her eyes, make sure you have a backup plan to ensure her pleasure too. ( not a issue with me....hehehe )

21. NOT COMING SOON ENOUGH. It may appear to you that humping for an hour without climaxing is the mark of a sex god, but to her it's more likely the mark of a numb vagina. At least buy some intriguing wall hangings, so she has something to hold her interest while you're playing Marathon Man. ( no problem too )

22. ASKING IF SHE HAS COME. You really ought to be able to tell. Most women make noise. But if you really don't know, don't ask. ( may be one of my mistake ....won't repeat the next time )

23. PERFORMING ORAL SEX TOO GENTLY. Don't act like a giant cat at a saucer of milk. Get your whole mouth down there, and concentrate on gently rotating or flicking your tongue on her clitoris. ( can...do )

24. NUDGING HER HEAD DOWN. Men persist in doing this until she's eyeball-to-penis, hoping that it will lead very swiftly to mouth-to-penis. All women hate this. It's about three steps from being dragged to a cave by their hair. If you want her to use her mouth, use yours; try talking seductively to her. ( will be careful too )

25. NOT WARNING HER BEFORE YOU CLIMAX. Sperm tastes like seawater mixed with egg white. Not everybody likes it. When she's performing oral sex, warn her before you come so she can do what's necessary. ( no problem...I prefer to shoot into her bottom hole anyway )

26. MOVING AROUND DURING FELLATIO. Don't thrust. She'll do all the moving during fellatio. You just lie there. And don't grab her head. ( happen sometime...got carried away )

27. TAKING ETTIQUETTE ADIVE FROM PORN MOVIES. In X-rated movies, women seem to love it when men ejaculate over them. In real life, it just means more laundry to do. ( maybe when not careful )

28. MAKING HER RIDE ON TOP FOR AGES. Asking her to be on top is fine. Lying there grunting while she does all the hard work is not. Caress her gently, so that she doesn't feel quite so much like the captain of a schooner. And let her have a rest. ( yes...I can be lazy ma )

29. ATTEMPTING ANAL SEX AND PRETENDING IT WAS AN ACCIDENT. This is how men earn a reputation for not being able to follow directions. If you want to put it there, ask her first. And don't think that being drunk is an excuse. ( hahaha....never thot of it this way, good excuse )

30. TAKING PICTURES. When a man says, "Can I take a photo of you?" she'll hear the words "__to show my buddies." At least let her have custody of them. ( no way with me )

31. NOT BEING IMAGINATIVE ENOUGH. Imagination is anything from drawing patterns on her back to pouring honey on her and licking it off. Fruit, vegetables, ice and feathers are all handy props; hot candle wax and permanent dye are a no no. ( sex toy....count? )

32. SLAPPING YOUR STOMACH AGAINT HERS. There is no less erotic noise. It's as sexy as a belching contest. ( only if I am too full...or after a heavy meal )

33. ARANGING HER IN STUPID POSES . If she wants to do advanced yoga in bed, fine, but unless she's a Romanian gymnast, don't get too ambitious. Ask yourself if you want a sexual partner with snapped hamstrings. ( maybe over excited )

34. LOOKING FOR HER PROSTATE. Read this carefully: Anal stimulation feels good for men because they have a prostate. Women don't....I didn't this one. ( I will remember this )

35. GIVING LOVE BITES. It is highly erotic to exert some gentle suction on the sides of the neck, if you do it carefully. No woman wants to have to wear turtlenecks and jaunty scarves for weeks on end. ( not in the habit )

36. BARKING INSTRUCTIONS. Don't shout encouragement like a coach with a megaphone. It's not a big turn-on. ( also not in the habit )

37. TALKING DIRTY. It makes you sound like a lonely magazine editor calling a 1-900 line. If she likes nasty talk, she'll let you know ( maybe...once in a while )

38. NOT CARING WHETHER SHE COMES. You have to finish the job. Keep on trying until you get it right, and she might even do the same for you. ( I am well aware of this....don't happen to me, becoz I always want a repeat...so I will do a good job ....pride or male ago thing with me )

39. SQUASHING HER. Men generally weigh more than women, so if you lie on her a bit too heavily, she will turn blue. ( I am well aware to of this issue )

40. THANKING HER. Never thank a woman for having sex with you. Your bedroom is not a soup kitchen ( might be my problem...yes! it sounds too weird too ...could be my fault )

Disclaimer - hehehe....have fun reading this, I copied from the internet. Yeah...I am also enlighten by these and I hope I don't make the same mistakes the next time.

Nightmare in the afternoon.

hahaha....yeah, suddenly woke up from my sleep to look for you. But you were not around....and
I really felt panic for a moment. I can feel the emptiness around me......like I am lacking something very important but I just cannot help myself without you beside me.
Slowly....I realized that it was just a dream .....a nightmare.....or to be correct...a afternoonmare!
So powerful....I got cold sweat.
wow....luckily it was just a dream.

Cares or Loves??

Cares & Love .... these 2 things always get people very mixed up especially when someone is showing a certain movement or attentions towards us... Hmmmm..
We tend to get a bit or very lost when we encounter a special attention from the opposite sex ....hahaha :)

So when someone pay some special attention toward you. Do they just like, love you ? or they just care & concern about you without any special feelings? What I mean is whether he or she treat you as a "Friend" or treat you as "Someone they like....or love"?

I guess when this happened and normally both party will have the same question in the back of their mind: Does He/She likes me ? or Just as a friend?

PS - copied from another blog, I find this interesting and I want to share with my honey.

Just some quotes....

Courage is contagious. When a brave man takes a stand, the spines of others are stiffened.

Everything has its beauty, but not everyone sees it.
Just go to waste......sighed.

Wednesday....2nd day of Nov

Wow....so fast, already 2nd of Nov. Today....I got to start my team work and hopefully this week will pass smoothly. Have headcount issues....becoz of the Indian and Malays' festivals during my workweek.
After...this week, will again have 4 days "rest". And hope my honey will have a slot for me and maybe one or two make-up session too.

Friday....early in the morning.

I shared your sentiment and feeling with regards to "himer"....and it is time to let go of the "regreting part". Just got to move on....for the sake of M & M. Whatever decision made at that moment....believed you must have given it due consideration. And that is good enough for me....I will stand by you on that.
Yeah....the weather is pretty gloomy for the past few days, but remember after the thunderstorm....it clear up again.



PS-there are things I would want to write down but due to certain constraints, feel it is better left unanswered for the moment.

One cannot do without the other...

ONE for the ladies:
EVER noticed how all of women's problems start with MEN?
It finally makes sense now. I never looked at it this way before:



MENtal illness
MENstrual cramps
MENtal breakdown
MENopause
GUYnocologist
and
when we have real trouble, it's a HISterectomy.


Okay girls, now it is the guys' turn:
WOMAN has MAN in it
SHE has HE in it
Mrs has Mr in it
LADY has LAD in it
MADAM has ADAM in it
HOSTESS has HOST in it
FEMALE has MALE in it
and so on... the list is never-ending.


So, no need to be proud.
Girls are always incomplete without Boys!

Disclaimer - just for fun.

Wednesday

Man....2 days in a row that I lost my posting which I took 30 min to write down here.
OK....then, I will just make this short and sweet.
Honey...you are not alone in not getting things done according to plan. See this above..hahaha.
Well I just want to share the following with you...and hope your luck and outlook will change for the better.

Wednesday,
October 26, 2005 gemini horoscope
Your Wednesday Horoscope
Laurence!
Your recent aggressive stance is about to be dissipated. The illusion of power and control will be the first to go. Accept your status as a novice and things will be easier to cope with.

Yep....this is accurate for me, I know my attitude lately and it is not helping me to win friends. Plus it also add to my aggression and frustration making things hard for my loved ones and friends too. I have already taken steps to change all these....believe or not that I went and bought another buddhist "chant" recorder and put it in my car. Hahaha...and yes, it helps me to be more patient and less judgemental towards others on the road. Now...I have one at home on my alter and I am listening to it while i am writing this. Funny...right? Me...? I have learn to accept my status as a "novice".

Ok....this is done.

Lost my posting for Monday...

hahaha....frankly I don't know whether it is good or not that my posting which I spent the past 30 mins writing was lost when I tried to publish it. Guess this is life....so since it was lost, then I will not write that over again. Maybe it for the better this way....sometime things move in a strange way and we will never know why.
If we asked too many questions then what we get....may not be what we want to hear or see in the first place. So....just let it be.
So far so good...as my day moves along. Have done a few things....eg - taken my breakfast and I enjoyed it and the company, rushed home like a mad man to send my wife to the mrt....man! also lucky too, hehehe i was doing at least 110kph and as I was turning up into Punggol saw a traffic policeman flying from behind....but he went straight. Then went home...put on a small recorder with buddhist chanting and burnt some incense sticks on my alter. Changed out of my cloths and decided to wash all my fishtanks....when done, polished all my brown colored shoes.
After that....watered the plants and trimmed the leaves and sweep the floor. I am very calm and peaceful....especially with the buddhist chanting just beside me on the alter. Frankly I don't understand a single word chanted but....it is so calming. I started doing this since Saturday morning when my "C" team temple going member gave it to me....and she told me to listen to it as she saw that I looked "very troubled" since the start of my workweek from Wednesday. Man! my face shows.....hahaha even when I was so, so busy with all the "shit" works. Yes...I agreed it helps me alot....I was able to sleep peacefully on Saturday when I knew that on that nite...the long knives were out... "retrenchment".
On Sunday...came home and also have a peaceful short sleep, and also received sms from my honey. That made my day....I was happy. Yes, my luck was not good for the past few months even up to now but with this small change to my routine ( listen to the chanting whenever I can ) I can be looking forward to the future with a calm and positive outlook. I want this to last as long as possible......
"Compromise" is the key word that I learn when I started to listen to the chanting. Reminded me that all the recent fighting were very stressful and pointless.....better to appreciate the value of compromise and to stay calm in the face of trouble or "thunderstorm". Clear, bright sky will return when the storm blew over....the most important thing here is still to be able to stand-up.

A tough week

Walau....lucky that I have seen the end of a very trying week both at work and on my relationship front. Well.....the week is over and I have moved on, just hope that next week will be better. Just got to try to be positive again....no matter how hard to do it.
I have learn that in this world....there are no such thing as "free lunch" for anyone, and even when you are buying your own lunch you may have to wait for your turn in the "Q"....especially if there is a long "Q". Then just too bad, you must be patient and wait.
I was at the new kopitam this morning....and this is what happened. Long "Q" everywhere....you wait becoz everyone also do the same..."wait". If you don't want to join the "Q"....then guess no choice but take something else.
BTW....there are plenty of houseflies too.
When I tried to post this.....hahaha can't even get this published on Sunday.

yes! it is a cold day.

okay....you have made your points and i have made mine. Yes! i do blame myself for getting into this shitty situation but i did it with my eyes wide open. Guess the word "LOVE" is the main issue.....and only those who have loved others before, then can understand what i am saying, writting and what i have just gone thru.
For the rest....who never have been in this situation can hardly know what it was like. Frankly sex is over-rated as far as "LOVE" is concern. And becoz of that, one always hope for a new beginning even after a thunder storm or heavy snow fall. Old things can be replace or reborn as new things.
Yeah....I am going thru this period now, i have gone from anger, denial, acceptence and now a new start. With these clarifiations, i do feel at ease and at the same time, stupid and regret with
what i was thinking all along these 3 weeks. And the needless anger and heavy-hearted feeling I bring to bear on myself when I can easily come out to talk about the issue earlier rather then yesterday. Guess....when "LOVE" is involved and when you are can't bear to lose a loved one, you just suppress any bad or negative feeling inside till it blows up in your face one day. This is what happen here.
I really felt so "bad"....i just don't quite able to put into words for this "tough" period. Yes...now you are angry but if you are understanding enough then you can let this "go", I too promised to be up front with you from now on....no more hinting or guessing, just come out to talk about any issue that may be of concern to you or me.

Got stood up again....shit :(

Fxxked again....by the same excuse. 3rd week in a row....that's truly pathetic. Yes....and you said you cannot please everybody then how am I to feel. Yes....I can feel the sudden tension when your friends boarded my car in the morning. All of a sudden....stillness, so deafening silent until the phone rang.
When you told me....no problem when I asked you, I was so happy. Really believed things were ok and smooth then as I waited for your sms....in my heart, it would be again a huge letdown that was why I sms you instead of waiting further. True enough....fxxked by the same crab. Frankly....I dared not look at the sms immediately, I went into my room to wash up my face hoping the bad feeling from the morning was due to me being too over-sensitive. Shit :( when
I finally saw the sms....my jaw dropped. A thousand crazy thoughts rushed thru my mind......
just can't believe what I saw.
Yeah....talk about trying to please people. Guess I have done a really bad job to deserve all these or worst....I am too pathetic to accept the facts in front of me from the beginning. Even in this blog....even when I truly tried my best to please you. You only once address me....as "d" in your email when we made love a month back then....the small "d" also gone and lately hardly noticed
any comment even from "anonymous". Yeah....maybe I was over-sensitive or petty but I still persisted to do my best to please. Frankly, still....I want my tuition but at the same time I promised that I will try my best to wane off my "addiction" of you. This is to help lessen any more stress on me ( sorry that I am so selfish here ), I only hope you are kind enough to grant me this favor and I....will only need very little of your time each week. And I won't dare to hope for anything more now since very clearly....I have drop too far down the pecking order for your favor or time. From your blog....I really knew I had more competitions but still I guess if I don't ask for much and I tried to please you whatever way I can, you may still go along to entertain me. Now....I know I am kidding myself.
Yes....I still don't want to lose you, that is why....I have this self-control on.

Still on the subject of sex

Personally feel that to truly enjoy great sex....one must have the sense of loving between the 2 doing it. Only with love....then there can be emotional attachment or bonding making sex the link.
If without the above ....then having sex will be for releases only. There won't be any sufficient impact for the two person.
There must be orgasm....better still multi orgasms, or one huge one.....the mother of all orgasm so to speak.
This type of sex is very addictive.....that is why I am so addicted to my honey. She alone can fuck me to death....and frankly I don't mind if that happen. The way we make love is so different but lately....we are just going thru the motive. We must go back to the good old days where anything and everything goes. When we were done ....our legs were soft and would sleep well.....in fact like "coma". That is great sex to me....not the number of times one can screw in a day or how long can one last. Just must perfect timing....or too long or too short.
Yes....one must be creative too or it will be the same boring sex. And if need to use sex aids...then by all means, use them. I have checked all the stuffs and I have got a new one too. I will going to start a brand new journey with my honey soon....hi honey, are you game to go with me on this trip?
It will be a surprise and you must close your eyes.....and have complete trust in me. I will bring you to the next level.

The sex sense

It was from a recent study by researchers from US and Britain done on 16000 men and women surveyed. Titled as Money, Sex and Happiness.

The finding is....that regular sex makes people happier than having more money and it associated happiness with frequent sex. They also did not believe that increased wealth had much connection with long-term happiness.

Sex is one of a relatively few bodily experiences that can actually create a natural high. Sexual arousal releases neurochemicals such as dopamine and endorphins from the brain which stimulate feelings of pleasure and contentment. Other studies also list many benefits of regular safe sex like : lower mortality rates, reduced risk of prostate cancer, heart disease, improved digestion and memory, better posture and less frequent bouts of flu, among other things.

Emotionally....these studies speculate that sex can also boost self-esteem, induce a positive outlook on life and ease depression.

It was also found that it was not the act of sex itself but the sexual intimacy is the key to the whole issue at hand. And sustaining such intimacy is a much trickier business than inducing sexual passion. During orgasm the body releases greater amounts of a neurochemical called oxytocin which is sometimes nicknamed as the "love hormone" because it is an anti-depressant and anti-anxiety hormone. It creates feelings of calm and a sense of connection so it actually shapes how you view the world.

Crazy Thursday

First....done all my duties in the morning eg sending the youngest kid to school, then sending wife to MRT station....then went home to cook breakfast for the old man and also prepared a packet food for the eldest kid to bring to work. At 8:50am sent her to work and at the same time went to fetch the youngest one back from school on my way back.
Prepared breakfast for the youngest one and stand-by lunch for her and the old man. Read some newspapers before going to sleep....got to rest for work, but somehow sleep was a hard thing when the mind ran out of control. Just staring up at the ceiling, also my bro in the same direction....thinking of my honey. Then the crazy ideas of sending sms with pic to her...shit!! at the same time I worried that I "pissed" her off and she would be angry with me. One part of me was trying to be cheeky and notti....while another was trying to prevent WW3. Still the cheeky side won....hence the sms with pic.
Walau...when I rec'd my honey's replies, kind of worry becoz she really seem to be in strict mood. Just like a teacher....short sharp answer. Cheekiness gone...hehehe, so I struggled to get some sleep....and this went on till 5:20pm. Time to wake up to cook again and to get ready for work. Sighed.
At work.....shit, a nightmare again.... the day team left a lot of things for me to follow-up and the boss came and added more pressure saying that she expected me to close everything at midnight as usual. Work.....and push like a mule but very focus ....but behind my mind I was still thinking of what it would like if my honey can meet me.....got 3 days off but at the end, sighed not free. A huge letdown becoz at the start of the week....things were so wonderful....the tuitioning was a feasible plan according to her and I am counting my chickens.....and eggs.
Yes...I read her blog but end-up more confused...left wondering was that meant for me or for someone else. Read and read....but still not fully comprehend it. POWER!!! look like a 3 in 1, anyway....things clear up when I rec'd her sms asking about my work. So happy....I walk with a spring under my feet. See....the power of a loved one. I even closed the whole day's commit and things turn 'rosy" for me again. Like I said...you are even stronger than ganja to me hehehe.
Yes....I look at your emails about the same time last year, you were also very busy and we didn't have time to meet for 3 whole weeks....but I hope this year you just keep it to 2 weeks. It is already a hell of a time for me....I underwent "cold turkey" treatment for 2 weeks so please honey....must try harder to meet next week. Time is for us....to manage.
Hope my honey....won't fault me for blogging this. Felt better to blog this down....

Thought for the day....Wednesday

Aren't the 'good things that come to those who wait'

just the leftovers from the people that got there first?

My Love.......about me loving you.

Ask my eyes to stop looking at you...

Ask my brain to stop thinking of you...

Ask my imagination to stop dreaming of you...

Ask my heart to stop beating....ask anything but

don't you ever stop me from loving you.

This week....another disappointing one too.

Yes....going to start work again tomorrow. Guess.....I have to put this week down as bad and depressing as last week. For the second day....was okay, got to see my honey. Great even if....it was just to send her and her friends to school....a 15min trip at most. Then....me and my big mouth....speak too soon and the rest of the week just turn into a nightmare....
This week more of the same....start ....looking good.... then turn out to be a waiting game with the game not showing at all.....felt like shit. Really sore.....with my life but still holding out that things will and can change....
Just zero all the way.....not able to move, i felt like my whole life is put "ON HOLD" and it is due to my own fault. My own doing....
Like yesterday....whole day laying on bed looking up at the ceiling....thinking and wondering about what the fxxk happening to me....why did I end up like this?
Then....by the time I realized that it was dinner time it was already 615pm......shit, no time to cook also. Somehow....no mood to cook too. Just go pick up wife and children to go for seafood at Punggol Marina....Ubin Seafood. The food was just so so....at least managed to enjoy my family's company for a change. Man! my wife could see that I was vex....and she asked me about it, but managed to blame it to the fish bone that struck in my throat. Shit....big fish but still I didn't put my full focus when eating it. Really there was a bone in my throat...but I got it out. The whole day....just eat half a bowl of bean curd then last till the seafood dinner. Didn't eat much too but saw my family...enjoyed the food esp the crabs....big fat sri lanka crab ( one for one ). Felt better becoz I don't want to let my depression ruined their mood...."no man is an island" like the saying goes. After that we went for a long walk with the family along the marina to watch people fishing and preparing their boats, and checking out the whole place and facilities. A quiet place.....luckily no mosquito.
It is really no fun....to live this way....believe me. Becoz now....I have to look how I will manage to get thru work....from Thur to Sat again, plus my insurance work to cope especially when both lady bosses are at my tail lately.
Yeah...rev'd my honey's email....just now, yes....it helps calm my mood.

Are all animal born equal?

I have just finished reading George Orwell's book "Animal Farm"...a book with themes on inequality and corruption of power, in an easy to read fable format. Now, I can't necessarily say that Western civilization is exactly parallel with the storyline of this book, but something did stand out to me--the famous line "All animals are created equal, but some are created more equally than others."
This makes me think of Thomas Jefferson. The U.S. founding father proclaimed that "All men are created equal". As we well know, Jefferson's idea of equality didn't extend to all races. Time has helped to create more racial equality, although there is still need for improvement.
In these days, the most prevalent form of discrimination and inequality is economic...money. The world is divided between the haves and the have nots. Economic inequlities in the western world, and even the entire globe is on an increase when it should be decreasing with all the prosperity that surrounds us.
The have nots of New Orleans were left to suffer after Katrina, while the haves were safely spirited away to safer places. The haves of the world are watching the news coverage in the warmth and safety of their homes of the earthquake in Asia, while the have nots are left without shelter. The haves have fat bank rolls and the have nots struggle to pay the rent, even while working 2 jobs--the percentage of US residents who live below the poverty line continues to increase.

PS - copied from the net. I am too free ma....

Back to square one.

Sighed....things went badly the last couple of days.... at work also having a hell of a time from the boss and on personal matter, my honey was so busy until she has not the time to reply my sms that I sent.
Well....I missed her dearly. Hope next week.....things should better and she can able to meet up.

To my honey

Thanks.....for every thing lately, and yes! I appreciated your efforts to keep me in the loop. I will really treasure this period and will try not to add to any stress that is bothering you at this trying and crazy time for you. I understand your priority too.
And for spending time last week with me....I am so happy. Things are already looking up for me by your actions.....my mood is so much better as compared to any period of time. I have learned to look only at the good time we had....becoz sometime, certain things or actions are not within our control.
This way.....things are going fine, I still have you and truly happy about that.
So to my honey pie...and firm butt mama, A "BIG THANK YOU" for being there for me. I promise that I too will be there for you whenever you need me too.

Great....another week is gone

Man...walua....managed to get thru the week. Yes....it has it's up and down but still nothing much to complain about.
Now....already Sunday and I have another 4 days rest before I got to get to work again. I will treasure these free time. Only if my honey can be free....that will be perfect anyway understand with all the exams and other issues and the facts that these are peak or busy time at the school.
I hope she will pull thru this period too.
Take care....my honey :) I will be thinking of you.

A frog's story....

Once upon a time there was a race . . . by frogs. The goal was to reach the top of a high tower. Many people gathered to see and support them.
The race began. In reality, many people probably didn't believe that it was possible that the frogs could reach the top of the tower, and all the phrases that one could hear were: "What pain!! It’s too difficult! They'll never make it! Let’s wait and see how they drop out of the race!” One by one, the frogs began to resign and give up, feeling lousy after what they have heard from the onlookers. Except for one stubborn frog that kept on climbing the tower. The onlooking people continued: "... Look at them falling out! I don't think I will enjoy going through that, It's not my cup of tea . . . Too difficult and embarassing! I'll rather stay with the majority in the comfort zone of my crowd than do something out of my normal course of satisfaction!”
And one by one, the frogs admitted defeat, except for the frog that continued to persevere on and on . . . At the end, all the frogs quit, except for that solo one who, alone and with an enormous effort, reached the top of the tower.
The others wanted to know how he had done that! One of them approached him to ask how he did it to finish the race . . . and discovered that he was actually . . . DEAF!!

The moral of the story ... Never never ever listen to people who have the bad habit of being negative... because they steal the best aspirations of your heart! Always remind yourself of the power of the words that we hear or read. That's why, you always have to think positive.
It makes a lot of difference in every aspect of your life! Always be deaf to someone who tells you that you can't and won't achieve your goals or make your dreams come true. If you are facing marital setbacks, would you seek a divorcee for help? Of course they'll tell you marriages won't work in this world!
Opinions are cheap! Your life isn’t! What you do, feel or say now decides your future outcome. YOU are responsible for all situations around you, not others' or heaven's will, however convincing they may appear to be. You have the power to change any situation, it's whether you can see and react positively to it, or simply choose to ignore, escape and refuse to accept this as the truth . . . The heavier one's ego, the deeper one sinks into the ground.

Copied from somewhere....just to share here.

Say a little prayer before work....

Psalm 23
(for the Work Place)

The Lord is my real boss, and I shall not want.
He gives me peace, when chaos is all around me.
He gently reminds me to pray and do all things
without murmuring and complaining.
He reminds me that he is my source and not my job.
He restores my sanity everyday and guides my
decisions that I might honor him in all that I do.
Even though I face absurd amounts of e-mails,
system crashes, unrealistic deadlines, budget
cutbacks, gossiping co-workers, discriminating
supervisors and an aging body that doesn't cooperate
every morning,
I still will not stop --- for He is with me!
His presence, His peace, and His power will see me
through.
He raises me up, even when they fail to promote me.
He claims me as His own, even when the company
threatens to let me go.
His Faithfulness and love is better than any bonus check.
When it's all said and done, I'll be working for Him a
whole lot longer and for that,

I BLESS HIS NAME !!!!!!

Amen.....peace be with you.

Cheers!!!

Word of wisdom

Actions speak louder than words.

Don't let the past hold you back, you're missing the good stuff.

Life's short. If you don't look around once in a while you might miss it.

A best friend is like a four leaf clover, hard to find and lucky to have.

Some people make the world special by just being in it.
Best friends are the siblings God forgot to give us.

When it hurts to look back, and you're scared to look ahead,
you can look beside you and your best friend will be there.

True friendship never ends.
Friends are forever.

Good friends are like stars....you don't always see them,
but you know they are always there.

Don't frown, you never know who is falling in love with your smile.

Most people walk in and out of your life,
but only friends leave footprints in your heart.

To keep a relationship "warm"....

10 steps to enjoying each other better...and to understand each other too.

Don't try to turn your partner into something he or she is not.

Let's face it, guys!!! there's only 1 Pamela Anderson in the world, and even she has had her implants removed! Give your gal a break and understand that her physical appearance is NOT going to change overnite with the help of a few facials ! or beauty treatments.

And ladies, Brad Pitt has already been taken, so you're gonna have to live with what your guy is like! ( ....power! right? )

1) Chill-out, and love each other for what you are. There is more to your partner than what meets the eyes.

2) Always talk things out. Now guys, I know this is not your favorite pastime or mode of resolving issues, but you know what? This works for the gals too. Don't make assumptions about each other's feelings. Learn to express yourself better so that your partner understands what you're angry about, or hurt about, or even happy about! When you stop talking to each other from the heart, it's the beginning of the end.

3) Do stuff together. Make an effort to do things together. Do some sports or involve yourselves in some shared activities; something both of you enjoy or are interested in. It could be as simple as watching movies together, or just strolling hand-in-hand down Orchard Road. Watch soccer with him once in a while though the green patch on TV puts you to sleep in 3 seconds. And guys, do give in if your gal asks for another day at the window-shopping, rather than suggest that she go out with her girlfriends for "that sort of activities" instead. If you're spending more time with your friends rather than with your partner, it's a warning sign that you're drifting apart!!!

4) Meet each other halfway. If he agrees to throw out that rotten T-shirt with the "The_Rock" print, you shouldn't kick up much of a fuss if he asks you to keep your room tidy. There's gotta be a little giving and taking in a relationship, so learn to meet each other halfway.

5) Show your love. Buy her flowers or candy or perfume everynow and then, even if you have been together for 5 years. It's wonderful to continue showing someone that you care for him or her. Cook him a special meal, paint him a "Valentine's Day" card. Knit him mini-socks he can't wear ( like for decoration purposes hehehe or just to sabo him ), buy him a packet of milk for breakfast, or pack his wardrobe for him...so he knows you can still be romantic and loving despite having been together for quite a while.

6) Respect each other. Stop making jokes about her hair or skin, or whatever it is you love to laugh at. Ask yourself if she thinks if it's funny. And if he has an inferiority complex about his height, stop ogling at tall guys and make him feel worse! Love is about respecting each other's feelings and being sensitive to each other at all times.

7) Bury the past. Stop bringing up the past. Gals....don't bring up the happy things about you and your ex to your guy, it would just make him "jealous or unhappy". And guys, don't talk about the happy times that you had with your ex or mention about her in your every other sentence as it would make your gal feel "unhappy" and she might think that you saying all this b'cos you are gonna get back with your ex or not interested in her anymore.

8) Sit on your jealousy. All of us go thru' spells of insecurity at the beginning of the relationship, but don't translate that insecurity into jealousy. If you're gonna go through your partner's mail and cupboard, and eaves-dropping on conversations, you know something is wrong.... with u!!! Jealousy is like a poison that slowly spreads thru' the relationship before finally killing it. Trust your partner; love has to have trust in it.

9) Keep your commitments to each other. If your partner is standing you up all the time and cancelling dates and breaking promises, you need to talk! If you're in a relationship, make yourpartner your priority and don't disappoint them if you can help it. It's really terrible when someone promises to take you to dinner, and then calls to cancel it. Don't make promises you can't keep. If your partner starts to feel that he/she is not important enough to you, you may just lose him/her.

10) Be honest. Honesty is not scowling at how awful she looks first thing in the morning, or telling him that he has the biceps of.... a fly! When we say "be honest", we mean expressing your feelings clearly, not being "bitingly" cruel. When you're hurt, say so, and when you're angry, tell him/her, without getting hysterical. If you can't be honest with your partner, who can you be honest with? Love is also about honesty, and a relationship where no honesty exists probably isn't worth it!

I don't want my LOVE LIFE to be "BAD".
So....... "GOOD LUCK" with yours. My honey.

A collection of jokes....enjoy!!

WOMEN'S REVENGE
"Cash, cheque or charge?" I asked, after folding items the woman wished to purchase.
As she fumbled for her wallet I noticed a remote control for a television set in her purse.
"So, do you always carry your TV remote?" I asked. "No," she replied, "but my husband
refused to come shopping with me, and I figured this was the most evil thing I could do to
him legally."

UNDERSTANDING WOMEN from (A MAN'S PERSPECTIVE)
I know I'm not going to understand women.
I'll never understand how you can take boiling hot wax,
pour it onto your upper thigh, rip the hair out by the root,
and still be afraid of a spider.

MARRIAGE SEMINAR
While attending a Marriage Seminar dealing with communication,
Tom and his wife Grace listened to the instructor,
"It is essential that husbands and wives know each other's likes and dislikes."
He addressed the man, "Can you name your wife's favourite flower?"
Tom leaned over, touched his wife's arm gently and whispered, "It's Homepride, isn't it?

CIGARETTES AND TAMPONS
A man walks into a pharmacy and wanders up and down the aisles.
The sales girl notices him and asks him if she can help him.
He answers that he is looking for a box of tampons for his wife.
She directs him down the correct aisle.
A few minutes later, he deposits a huge bag of cotton balls and a ball
of string on the counter.
She says, confused, "Sir, I thought you were looking for some tampons
for your wife? He answers, " You see, it's like this, yesterday, I sent
my wife to the store to get me a carton of cigarettes, and she came back
with a tin of tobacco and some rolling papers; cause it's sooo-ooo--oo-
ooo much cheaper.
So, I figure if I have to roll my own .......... so does she.

WIFE VS. HUSBAND
A couple drove down a country road for several miles, not saying a
word. An earlier discussion had led to an argument and now neither
of them wanted to concede their position.
As they passed a barnyard of mules, goats, and pigs, the husband
asked sarcastically, "Relatives of yours?"
"Yep," the wife replied, "in-laws."

W O R D S
A husband read an article to his wife about how many words women use a day... 30,000 to a man's 15,000.
The wife replied, "The reason has to be because we have to repeat everything
to men... The husband then turned to his wife and asked, "What?"

CREATION
A man said to his wife one day, "I don't know how you can be
so stupid and so beautiful all at the same time.
" The wife responded, "Allow me to explain. God made me beautiful
so you would be attracted to me; God made me stupid so I would be
attracted to you!

WHO DOES WHAT
A man and his wife were having an argument about who
should brew the coffee each morning.
The wife said, "You should do it, because you get up first,
and then we don't have to wait as long to get our coffee."
The husband said, " You are in charge of cooking around here
and you should do it, because that is your job, and I can just
wait for my coffee."
Wife replies, "No, you should do it, and besides, it is in the
Bible that the man should do the coffee."
Husband replies, "I can't believe that, show me."
So she fetched the Bible, and opened the New Testament
and showed him at the top of several pages, that it indeed says.........."HEBREWS"

The Silent Treatment. ( I kena from my honey....hehehe not a nice
feeling...a mental torture, believed me when I said this )

A man and his wife were having some problems at home and were giving each other the silent treatment. Suddenly, the man realized that the next day, he would need his wife to wake him at 5:00 AM for an early morning business flight. Not wanting to be the first to break the silence (and LOSE),
he wrote on a piece of paper, "Please wake me at 5:00 AM."
He left it where he knew she would find it.
The next morning, the man woke up, only to discover it was 9:00 AM and
he had missed his flight. Furious, he was about to go and see why his wife
hadn't wakened him, when he noticed a piece of paper by the bed.
The paper said, "It is 5:00 AM. Wake up."
Men are not equipped for these kinds of contests. God may have created
man before woman, but there is always a rough draft before the masterpiece.

SEND THIS TO SMART WOMEN WHO NEED A LAUGH AND TO MEN
YOU THINK CAN HANDLE IT ! CHEERS......for a laugh.

I have my tag box back....

Thanks to my honey....I managed to get it done this morning. Felt like I missed an arm without it becoz I cannot get to see my honey's comment in my blog.
Yep....I have always treasured my honey's present and well-being.....and I do it without asking any thing in return from her. I do it from my heart.....that's it without being told by anyone. Once I said I love someone as deeply as I loved my honey....then I meant it as forever and nothing going to change it.
Yes! I can see my honey needs her space....I don't mind to step aside for her to do what she needs to do until such time when she wants to see or meet me again. I guess I have live with that...thought! no other choice at the moment for me. When a person loves someone....I guess he/she is willing to do whatever it takes to see the other person "happy", only then he/she is "happy" too. I am in this situation at the moment, even when "deep inside" of me.....I am confused, felt completely "helpless", "rejected" and "useless" that I am crying inside my heart but then I still hoping against hope that my honey will return in my arms some days....and only hopefully soon too. There is nothing else that I can do....for the moment, I have done what I must do but still the situation is out of my control. Not a day past without me thinking of her.....I do sms, write regularly without fail....no change in my habit. Only if you have love someone as deep as me then you will and can understand the "hell" I have gone thru for quite a while now. If you know what I mean....

A change for the moment....my blog.

Feel that the time has come for a change to my blog.....I have been such a boring person. And it served me....right to be left behind to rot away.
Now....I want to take charge of my life to change, to improve....I must change. The first thing is this....MY BLOG. No more grey color....so down like a cloud hanging over my head.
Will see what this....will bring in 3 months' time when I review thru my blog again. Cheers to life!!!

The changing time

Yes, many things have changed since a year ago. Hopefully most for the better....I love to think positively about all these changes happening around me. And yes....I am impacted by some of these changes too, in fact....I guess no one is spared from the effects all the changes brought on.

Dreams were made but also some were shuttered along the way. The saying...."time and tide wait for no man".....is very true for the present moment of time. One must constantly on the move in order to keep up to this changing time....or be left behind to rot or waste away.

Yeah...saw my honey's blog that she wants to move on to do her masters. And my advice is simple.....if you think you can cope with all the stresses of the following : commitment to family, work, studies and other activities like "mj session for R & R", clubbing and singing session, annual family overseas tours, catching up with friends' session over drinks/ outings.....then go for it. Remember ..... missed this chance and you may be left behind to rot/waste away like me. Believed you don't like that to happen to you.....right? You gotto get up on the wagon and ride it out the best you can. By the time it ends....you shall be a better person.....value added too. Better prospects....better respect from your peers and friends....even from husband/s. So what to worry???....go it for and worry later :) if need be. Life is short.....if it is worth doing, then do it.

The fear of going to work....today.

Man....again it is working day, how I fear to hear the yelling and screaming of the boss. It is 9 years but only this year plus since the lady boss took over that I have this fear. And this fear doesn't help me to have my confidence of doing a good job...a job that I have been doing years ago without much complaints about my ability to perform.
Only lately....maybe to pressure from another team of new directors from other sites coming to my section and my boss is trying to impress that lead to this extreme of attitude towards all of us...in the front line. The Production sups...
As pressure builds up...pride and other emotional feeling come into play. It is getting very bad this one month. Believed this is it....the change of directors causing this huge change in my section of the company. True....their motto is "you die is better than I die"...in hokkien. Becoz the new chaps are all the "hokkien soldiers".

Another joke of the day...death sentence

There was a German, an Italian and an Irishman on death row.
The warden gave them a choice of three ways to die:
1. to be shot
2. to be hung
3. to be injected with the AIDS virus for a slow death.

So the German said, "Shoot me right in the head."
Boom, he was dead instantly.

Then the Italian said, "Just hang me."
(Snap, he was dead.)

Then the Irishman said, "Give me some of that AIDS stuff."
They gave him the shot, and the Irishman fell down laughing.
The guards looked at each other and wondered what was wrong with this guy.
Then the Irishman said, "Give me another one of those shots," so the guards did.
Now he was laughing so hard, tears rolled from his eyes and he doubled over.
Finally the warden said, "What is wrong with you?"
The Irishman replied, "You guys are so stupid.....I'm wearing a condom."

Taken from...a condom ad, hehehe :)

A Joke about name calling....

A fellow was invited to the home of some old friends for dinner. His buddy preceded every request to his wife by endearing terms, calling her Honey, My Love, Darling, Sweetheart, Pumpkin, etc.
The guest was impressed since the couple had been married almost 70 years, and while the wife was off in the kitchen he said to his friend, "I think it's wonderful that after all the years you've been married, you still call your wife those lovey names."
The old guy hung his head. "To tell you the truth, I forgot her name about ten years ago."

How true and funny....:)

After awhile....it is very easy to forget everything also. The problem of growing old.

Hope to find peace within myself

Yes....for all the past mistakes I have done, I need to calm myself down and reflected on them. Surely....in order to find peace within myself, I must first acknowledge my past failures and look for my strong points in my life and move on from there. Or else....I am stuck within this nightmare and just watching myself wasting away....like a piece of ice out in the sun. So painful
so surely turn to water if....I stay put.
I must not be too stubborn....to see the writing on the wall. After all....I have done what I can and if that still fail or unsatisfactory, then at least....I know I have put my best efforts to do the best I can in every tasks I am assigned to.

Just read my horoscope....from Rochelle Gordon ( Psychic N Astrologer ) and in it she wrote ;
It's time to focus on a new beginning and the power you have to change your life forever. In order to change, first thing you must do is to get yourself unstuck and that you look closely at how you perceive yourself. Most limitations to success you perceive come from internalizing negative messages from people and past events. These can easily be overcome.

This is very important for you to remember that you do have the power to succeed. And to grow your awareness and choice-making ability, so you can experience abundance in every area of your life.

Know the thoughts that empower you to succeed come from your true self and a Higher Power. This is why you must first love yourself and embrace the incredible blessings you have been given.

Now more than ever, you should know that it is not only possible to change your thinking but also your actions. This steady change will allow your dreams to blossom and be realized. "The universe is change; our life is what our thoughts make it"

And to find peace within oneself, can only then....you proceed with your journey thru life and to discover far greater joy, success and happiness.

You can't expect to achieve success or move beyond your present situation unless your truly believe in yourself. Now is the time to use this inner power to change your life.

As Henry Thoreau wrote "I know of no more encouraging fact than the unquestionable ability of man to elevate his life by conscious endeavor"

Things to remember to concentrate on ;
1) Focusing mind on the best achievements, both big and small and the ability to succeed.

2) Quieting mind for 15 mins each day in order to feel the energy flow within you. This will help get your thoughts moving in the right direction so that you can begin to realize your dreams.

3) Choosing one goal and taking your first step towards achieving it.

The meaning of life

Yah....saw in today's straits time....in one of the pages about this subject. It was put to 300 different persons arranging from top biz men to the simplest bus boy to write on the subject with max 250 words each. And it is interested....to read what each has to write becoz the meaning of life.....is so profoundly different for everyone of them. This is then compiled into a book with the same heading.
As for me....Love hurts, love passionately then it will hurt worst. But somehow....guess I never able to learn that, still blindingly do it and the result....a thousand blinding pain in the heart. Especially so for those who live by the sword.....shall die by the sword. Meaning....those who choose to live for "love" shall at the end, suffer all the pain and hatred becoz of "love". I am a good example.........
and I am paying the price for it now. There will be a "waterloo"....for all the passionate lovers out there. Only time will tell.....

From dream to reality then back to dream.

Funny things happen this morning.....from my dream, I was swimming with my honey in a beautiful resort....like Bintan Lagoon. So excited....sudden wake-up shit then realised that it was just a beautiful dream. Tired very hard to sleep but mind wonders.....sleep is the last thing on my mind. Look at my watch....only 5am.
Then....I just closed my eyes.....in and out of sleep. Then hear the alarm for my kid to wake up for school. Sms my honey....thinking that she was on the way to school in a taxi with friends. So happy to see my honey's reply....2 replies but didn't quite catch the 2nd one. Thought to fetch her from school in the evening....so excited again. Then wife called to tell me....my kid was waiting for me to send her to school. Anyhow....grab my short and go "off"....not even wear my underwear.
Midway....another sms. Didn't read till I reached home after dropping off my kid. Man :)...my honey means now fetch. Confirmed with her immediately....then drive like a mad man over.
So so happy....to see my honey but with my short, shit!!! everything was a "goner". Drop her off
then went home ready for her sms or call again....this time, all ready for actions.
Then....the not so good news. Man :(.......back to zero again.
Well....tried to sleep again.....again can't sleep......a lot of what "if". Now.....wondering if this was a dream to make me "happy" for a moment. I was given the chance....but didn't choose to take it.
Thanks "honey"....for the beautiful dream.

PS - feel I need to write it down....my feeling.

Happy friday

Yah...received 3 emails from my honey. You made my day...honey :)
thank you...bless your soul. Have fun with nature over the weekend,
and like you said....make the best out of the situation.

Stay safe, stay cool and stay happy....I will be waiting for your reply
with regards to our outing on Mon or Tue.

Very angry....due to no access to my honey's mail

Yah....very angry becoz I didn't get my daily fix of reading my honey's mail and blog. At my office....last night, I can log-in into the hotmail site and I can see that my honey has sent an email to me but I cannot access to read it.....pc shown error at page from 8pm to 2am so I came rushing home. Shit....at home worst, can't even access into the hotmail.com site.....no server. I tried all sorts of ways and even thought my wife did something to the pc to monitor me till 5am this morning and nearly cannot wake up to send kid to school.
Question her with my black face....then get the room's pc and my eldest's lap top to access to hotmail. Also nok....noticed the speed is even slower than my old 386 pc. Guess it was the site's problem now.
See....how important my honey is to me? Even just to read her mail....can make me "mad" when I can't get the access. I missed her very very much.

To our first anniversary

Yes! it was a year ago that we met for the 2nd time face2face and we have a first screwing session and from then on...I am so very addicted to you. No change to my feeling for you even when we have our "up and down" along the way. Guess it is due to the lack of time ( the need to earn a living ) that prevent us to meet up more often....and not the commitment we have for each other. Well....better planning may solve the issue in future. LOL :0
Can remember we went for a Tom Cruise's movie for our first date...a week before today last year and how I was seizing up your firm butt, your warm body and soft hands.
I honestly hope we will have more good years ahead for "us together".....

To my honey and soulmate,
Whatever happen .....past, present and the future, my love for you will never change. We can agreed to disagree...you can have your own space and time...and I hope time can never change our feeling we had for each other this day....a year ago.
Happy Anniversary to you....my honey.

Secrets of a married man

Inside the Mind of a Married Man

3 things that secretly make him tear up:
Locking eyes with you during wedding ceremonies
Having your arm fall across his chest while you sleep
Watching Ross botch his marriage proposal to Rachel

4 little ways he just told you he loves you:
Spending three hours at the mall holding all your shopping bags
Throwing an extra blanket on the bed, even though he's melting
Encouraging you to screw your diet and order dessert
Doing the dishes and not expecting you to throw him a parade

6 presents he really wants for his birthday:
His favorite picture of you (you know, the one you hate, in which your hair isn't perfectly styled) in a frame
A pair of silk boxers (just because his other pairs have holes in them doesn't mean he won't appreciate the feel of fine fabric against his skin)
Golf lessons (yes, he still needs more)
CDs to replace those garbled mixed tapes from his college collection
Anything with a remote control
Everything that has to do with the art of barbecuing (a new grill, a temperature-taking fork, even an apron that says "Kiss the Cook" -- whatever you can find)

And 5 presents he really doesn't want:
An executive desk toy (this is so his dad)
An electronic tie rack, because then he'd have to buy more ties
A fancy-schmancy shaving kit (his favorite brand of disposable razors and whatever shaving cream that's on sale at the drugstore is fine)
A phone that looks like something else (he didn't want a phone shaped like a football when Sports Illustrated was giving them away, so why would he want one now?)
A TV that isn't bigger than the one you already have

9 rituals you do that drive him crazy with desire:
Putting on your lipstick before your shirt
Licking a spoonful of ice cream clean next to the open freezer
Ironing in your push-up bra (actually, doing anything in your push-up bra)
Sitting on the couch in sweaty gym clothes while you tell him about the record time you just made on the treadmill
Rubbing lotion on the back of your calves
Bumming around in his old white T-shirt all day Saturday
Telling him you'll be home late because you're going to get a bikini wax
Holding your hair off your neck when you're hot
Checking out your derriere in a full-length mirror while standing on your tiptoes

4 things he says when he's not really listening:
"Oh, you wanted an answer? I thought that was a rhetorical question."
"Sorry, I was still thinking about what you said before."
"Hmm, well, what do you think about that?"
"What's that? I got distracted by the beauty of your moving lips."

More from Inside the Mind of a Married Man

3 things you should know about his body:
Sometimes making adjustments to the crotch area in public places is a medical necessity
Every hair that falls out of his head requires at least a 30-minute mourning period
He has fat days too

6 things he won't ever understand about you:
Why you need seven pairs of shoes for a two-day vacation
Why you like to read books that make you cry
Why you fix your hair before you go to the post office
Why you'd rather spend $300 on a purse than on a new DVD player
Why you assume he's any better with tools than you are
Why you don't think an autographed picture of Mookie Wilson belongs on the mantel next to pictures of the kids

5 things in the back of his mind this instant:
"If I work out, like, every single day, I could totally be a walk-on tryout for the Jets."
"Out of everyone in my office, I definitely have the hottest wife."
"I hope she rips off my clothes the second I walk in the door."
"I think the lady at McDonald's has a crush on me: Look at all these extra french fries!"
"Is light beer really so bad?"

4 things that went through his head when you told him you were pregnant:
"Yikes! I'm gonna pass out in the delivery room. I just know it."
"Yessss! I am going to be the greatest dad in the world!"
"Wow! It's so cool knowing that my sperm really work!"
"I just hope the kid is healthy ... and really, really good at basketball."

4 questions he will always answer no to:
"Is my family totally nuts?"
"Do you think I should get plastic surgery?"
"Should I try on a different outfit before we leave?"
"Are the worry lines around my eyes getting worse?"

4 questions he cannot answer for you (sorry!):
"Does this polish go with these shoes?"
"Should I give Raul another shot or try a different salon?"
"Is ____ more fattening than ____?"
"When will you grow up?"

And one question he'll always answer "yes" to:
"Do you think we could do it here, now?"

Things you do that totally amaze him:
You put pizza on a plate rather than eat it out of the box.
You actually bathe on weekends.
You defuse his crazy mother (and make it look easy).
You know when he needs one of your incredible neck rubs even before he does.
You always manage to order the better dish when the two of you are dining out.
You make his flu feel better with a kiss on his forehead

Copied from I-Village Site....

Great feeling :)

YES YES YES.....HAPPY. Got to see my honey and got a kiss too.
You made my day.....and brighten up my path too.
See....the different. Shiok feeling can be made if efforts are taken
to make it happy. Nothing much needed......just alittle "Give and
take" here and there. This too apply to everything we do...in our
daily life and routine. A little thoughtfulness goes a long way.......
when people are happy, they too do the same....and the result is
GREAT!!! :) :) :)
No point....looking at the little dot and try to paint the picture by
that.
Love...you honey!!!

My present situation...

Guess I have no nice experience to share or write about at this moment of time. Least said the better becoz it may be looked at from a different point of view. And that adds to further misunderstanding.

Now for myself..... I feel that it's all down hill for me lately, what I said is used against me in work, home and personal life. Guess it is my "down time"....a low point.

When....one is down, guess it is easier to kick him in his head just to rub it in. That's life.......

Yah....up-dating

LiFE cAN sTiLL bE GrEAt iF oNE cAn LoOK aT oNeseLF aND rEFlecT oN oNe's paST....tHEn mOveS oN.
Man....looking at the above makes my eyes go cross-eye hahaha.
Yes.....good times, bad times....there will always be up and down for everyone even the richest to the poorest, the old to the young....man and woman. The most important of these....is to remember fondly to the good times.

Love? or one-sided feeling.

Due to Love....this feeling
Hanging by a moment...

My world was hanging by a moment
today,
As I past you all else faded away,
the task at hand,
the cares of the day.
All in your eyes forgotten, as you past
my way,
A friendly glance,
a wonderful smile.
you have no idea, that I'll be thinking of you
for awhile,
As the slow motion eases and my world
comes back to full pace,
though it was just a moment,
it seemed like forever,
my world was hanging by a
moment today...